Ervaring Beskrywing
1995 - In the intensive care unit, curtain surrounding the bathroom area, light began emitting from behind the curtain (sort of 'Wizard of Oz'-like - no noise, just light and vibration). Knew a presence wished to come into room. Knew by the indescribable quality and feeling of light it was God, as I know him. I asked him 'not now', please my children (I am single parent of two, one disabled through leukemia at four, no family but me. I asked for more time, responsibility of visit too frightening. He/she/it immediately acquiesced. I always regretted it.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
Agtergrond Inligting
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
(2) in 2000
NDE Elemente
Was daar 'n lewensgevaarlike gebeurtenis op die tydstip van jou ervaring?
Yes Heart attack Open heart surgery, 3 open hearts in three days in April and In November Complete cardiac and respiratory arrest due to CHF Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Had heart attack in 1995. Had experience in the intensive care unit but willed it away, too scary, always regretted it but had children who needed me. In 2005 had multiple bypass, which did not go well, three open heart surgeries in three days due to hemorrhaging. On respirator for forty-five days. Many journeys and experiences throughout that period in April/May. In November had complete respiratory and cardiac arrest. Another experience.
Hoe oorweeg jy die inhoud van jou ervaring?
Mixed
Het jy gevoel jy is geskei van jou liggaam?
Yes
I lost awareness of my body
Hoe het jou hoogste vlak van bewussyn en waaksaamheid tydens die ervaring vergelyk met jou normale alledaagse bewussyn en waaksaamheid?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was much more real. I know that doesn't make much sense.
Watter tyd gedurende die ervaring was jy op jou hoogste vlak van bewussyn en waaksaamheid?
In presence of the main God, light, vibration. But most of all in tunnel when choice had to be made. I was tired.
Was jou gedagtes versnel?
Neither
Het dit gelyk asof die tyd versnel of vertraag het?
Neither I have what I call 'Swiss cheese for brains'. Some things are missing or dropped.
Was jou sintuie helderder as gewoonlik?
Neither
Vergelyk asseblief jou sig tydens die ervaring met jou alledaagse sig wat jy onmiddellik voor die tyd van die ervaring gehad het
Colors perfect, things and places seen without flaw, almost undisturbed. Every petal of every flower perfect. No decay of any kind. Transparency somehow changed and music without time. Couldn't explain that one in a million years wouldn't know where to begin.
Vergelyk asseblief jou gehoor tydens die ervaring met jou alledaagse gehoor wat jy onmiddellik voor die tyd van die ervaring gehad het
It was hearing but not auditory exactly all the time.
Het dit gelyk of jy bewus was van dinge wat elders gebeur?
Neither
Het jy in of deur 'n tonnel gegaan?
Yes Already described.
Het jy enige wesens in jou ervaring gesien?
Saw them
Het jy enige oorlede (of lewende) wesens teëgekom of daarvan bewus geword?
Yes Already described.
Het jy 'n briljante lig gesien, of gevoel omring deur 'n briljante lig?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Het jy 'n onwerklik lig gesien?
Yes Already described.
Het dit gelyk asof jy 'n ander, onwêreldse wêreld binnegegaan het?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm already described some. many more, lots of travel and sights
Watter ander emosies het jy tydens die ervaring gevoel?
Wonder, joy, fear, trust, grateful, small, big, powerful, powerless, amazed, graced, light, open, peaceful, inquisitive and loved and loving. Perfectly in tune.
Het jy 'n gevoel van vrede of aangenaamheid gehad?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Het jy 'n gevoel van vreugde gehad?
Incredible joy
Het jy 'n gevoel van harmonie of eenheid met die heelal gehad?
United, one with the world
Het dit skielik voorgekom of jy alles verstaan?
Everything about the universe
Het tonele uit jou verlede na jou teruggekeer?
Remembered many past events Life review takes place through the feelings and emotions of others in any given moment in time. We experience and feel whatever we created in that moment for them. I am much more sensitive.
Het tonele uit die toekoms na jou gekom?
From the world's future
Very private.
Het jy by 'n grens of punt van geen terugkeer gekom?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
God, Geestelikheid en Godsdienst
Wat was jou godsdienst voor jou ervaring?
Moderate Raised catholic, believe in collective unconscious, a higher power have had unusual, unexplainable experiences throughout life making conservative organized religious experience not acceptable.
Het jou godsdienstige praktyke verander sedert jou ervaring?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Wat is jou godsdienst nou?
Liberal Have conscious contact w/ higher power daily, pray and meditate daily, use Native American Medicine Wheel for healing/teaching. Use ancient esoteric teachings from stones crystals given by Native American grandma turned good catholic when she was a young
Het jy 'n verandering in jou waardes en geloofsartikels as gevolg van jou ervaring gehad?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Het dit gelyk asof jy 'n mistieke wese of teenwoordigheid teëgekom het, of 'n onidentifiseerbare stem gehoor het?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Het jy oorlede of godsdienstige geeste gesien?
Saw them
Betreffende ons aardse lewens behalwe Godsdienst
Het jy tydens jou ervaring spesiale kennis of inligting oor jou doel verkry?
Yes Very private.
Het jou verhoudings spesifiek verander as gevolg van jou ervaring?
Yes I am much more willing just to be me without pretense, walls or protections that we humans erect to protect ourselves from REALLY being seen.
Na die NDE
Was die ervaring moeilik om in woorde uit te druk?
Yes We don't have words in our vocabulary that express the 'energetic colors of vibration' emitted by 'higher being'. The emotional quality of 'feeling state' beyond measure or words. Information received so simple, yet so complicated it would take hours to verbalize. Recognition of persons in tunnel already 'passed over' (I think) so familiar, yet didn't recognize a one. Saw my grandma no words. Couldn't see 'God', but saw energy emitting and felt enormous vibration and felt emotional presence and vibration throughout life review.
Het jy enige psigiese, ongewone of ander spesiale gawes ná jou ervaring wat jy nie voor die ervaring gehad het nie?
Yes Personal.
Is daar een of meer dele van jou ervaring wat veral betekenisvol of belangrik vir jou is? Verduidelik asseblief.
Oh my God, are you kidding? Too personal for a computer screen.
Het jy al ooit hierdie ervaring met ander gedeel?
Yes Immediately. Sure, reactions were mixed. I hope they were influenced.
Het jy enige kennis van byna-dood ervarings (NDE) gehad vóór jou ervaring?
Uncertain After my mother died I had and my son had a 'dreamlike' waking encounter.
Wat het jy geglo oor die werklikheid van jou ervaring kort nadat dit gebeur het (dae tot weke)?
Experience was definitely real It was more real that what's here in my consciousness on a daily basis and I stay as connected as possible daily.
Wat glo jy nou oor die werklikheid van jou ervaring?
Experience was definitely real It affects me in every moment.
Het enigiets ooit enige deel van die ervaring weergee in enige stadium van jou lewe?
No