Ervaring Beskrywing
I was on vacation with my mother, father, a friend of mine and her mother in Kentucky. We went to Dewy Dam, which I believe is not far from Van Lear, Kentucky. We rented a small boat and when we got to a shallow spot at the lake my dad, my friend and I went swimming. I couldn't swim so my dad went in the water first to make sure it was a shallow spot, so the water wouldn't be above my shoulders.
We were in the water, playing, screwing around and laughing when suddenly I stepped backwards and stepped off a ledge into very deep water. I couldn't swim so I was sinking under the water. My dad and friend thought I was still screwing around and was laughing at me. In the beginning I remember struggling when I breached the top of the water, but after going down a couple of times, I wasn't struggling anymore when I went under. I was at peace and had no fear. Everything became extremely beautiful. The lights and colors in the water were so beautiful that I was captivated and mesmerized by them.
I saw colors that don't exist. The lights were sparkling and bright and yet soft and inviting, they were comforting; it was like I was a part of the lights and colors. The peace was so calming and desirable that I felt a part of something very much larger, like I was one with the universe. During this experience I felt what it feels like to have no time, it was timeless, no boundaries of time. It was an amazing feeling, the freedom of no time and the connection with 'the universe' (I use that word simply because the universe is vast but I felt it was more than the universe as we know it).
Then, suddenly, I was floating above the area and looking down and saw my mother and my friend's mother still in the boat, I saw my dad and friend in the water. My mother was scared and yelling at my dad to pull me out of the water. My dad was laughing and said, 'Oh Helen, she's just playing, we're all just fooling around.' And then I saw myself pop up above the water again, and it looked like I was panicked, frightened, and struggling for my life. My mother became desperate and mad at my father, and as I again went underwater, I heard her insist that he drag me out of the water.
But, when I went under again, I was puzzled, I didn't understand why I briefly struggled and panicked when I resurfaced because in reality, I wanted to go back under because everything was so beautiful and amazing under the water, it was tranquil, and the feeling of oneness and timelessness was what I wanted to go back to. I didn't understand why my body struggled and showed fear because that isn't the way I felt at all. I didn't want to resurface, I wanted to stay below the water, and I was happy there, happier than I can ever remember being before or since the experience.
The next thing that happened is that I felt my dad pull me up from the water and pull me to the boat trying to resuscitate me. I felt very heavy in weight, so heavy that it amazed me that my body could be so heavy. It felt so heavy that it was laborious to adjust to being in my body again. I was coughing and sputtering, water was stinging my eyes and I felt a panic also return to my body that didn't exist when I was under the water, but, the strange thing was that those signs of panic and fear were only in my body, not my mind. I didn't feel those things in my mind. What I was feeling was disappointment about being taken out of such a beautiful, amazing, wonderful place.
We were in the water, playing, screwing around and laughing when suddenly I stepped backwards and stepped off a ledge into very deep water. I couldn't swim so I was sinking under the water. My dad and friend thought I was still screwing around and was laughing at me. In the beginning I remember struggling when I breached the top of the water, but after going down a couple of times, I wasn't struggling anymore when I went under. I was at peace and had no fear. Everything became extremely beautiful. The lights and colors in the water were so beautiful that I was captivated and mesmerized by them.
I saw colors that don't exist. The lights were sparkling and bright and yet soft and inviting, they were comforting; it was like I was a part of the lights and colors. The peace was so calming and desirable that I felt a part of something very much larger, like I was one with the universe. During this experience I felt what it feels like to have no time, it was timeless, no boundaries of time. It was an amazing feeling, the freedom of no time and the connection with 'the universe' (I use that word simply because the universe is vast but I felt it was more than the universe as we know it).
Then, suddenly, I was floating above the area and looking down and saw my mother and my friend's mother still in the boat, I saw my dad and friend in the water. My mother was scared and yelling at my dad to pull me out of the water. My dad was laughing and said, 'Oh Helen, she's just playing, we're all just fooling around.' And then I saw myself pop up above the water again, and it looked like I was panicked, frightened, and struggling for my life. My mother became desperate and mad at my father, and as I again went underwater, I heard her insist that he drag me out of the water.
But, when I went under again, I was puzzled, I didn't understand why I briefly struggled and panicked when I resurfaced because in reality, I wanted to go back under because everything was so beautiful and amazing under the water, it was tranquil, and the feeling of oneness and timelessness was what I wanted to go back to. I didn't understand why my body struggled and showed fear because that isn't the way I felt at all. I didn't want to resurface, I wanted to stay below the water, and I was happy there, happier than I can ever remember being before or since the experience.
The next thing that happened is that I felt my dad pull me up from the water and pull me to the boat trying to resuscitate me. I felt very heavy in weight, so heavy that it amazed me that my body could be so heavy. It felt so heavy that it was laborious to adjust to being in my body again. I was coughing and sputtering, water was stinging my eyes and I felt a panic also return to my body that didn't exist when I was under the water, but, the strange thing was that those signs of panic and fear were only in my body, not my mind. I didn't feel those things in my mind. What I was feeling was disappointment about being taken out of such a beautiful, amazing, wonderful place.
Agtergrond Inligting
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
Summer 1964
NDE Elemente
Was daar 'n lewensgevaarlike gebeurtenis op die tydstip van jou ervaring?
Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death
I was drowning.
Hoe oorweeg jy die inhoud van jou ervaring?
Wonderful
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Out of body experience
Het jy gevoel jy is geskei van jou liggaam?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hoe het jou hoogste vlak van bewussyn en waaksaamheid tydens die ervaring vergelyk met jou normale alledaagse bewussyn en waaksaamheid?
More consciousness and alertness than normal When I was under the water.
Watter tyd gedurende die ervaring was jy op jou hoogste vlak van bewussyn en waaksaamheid?
When I was under the water.
Was jou gedagtes versnel?
Incredibly fast
Het dit gelyk asof die tyd versnel of vertraag het?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no time, saying it was timeless doesn't really describe what it was like. I can still feel what it feels like (time does not exist) but no words can really describe it. Regarding space, there was no space either, everything was one, connected, again, there is really no word that fully describes this knowledge.
Was jou sintuie helderder as gewoonlik?
Incredibly more vivid
Vergelyk asseblief jou sig tydens die ervaring met jou alledaagse sig wat jy onmiddellik voor die tyd van die ervaring gehad het
As I said before, I saw colors that don't exist. And even though the light was brighter than I had ever seen it didn't hurt the eyes, in fact, it soothed the eyes and appeared soft and bright at the same time. I can't say that there was depth perception as we know it - it was greater than that - again, like a oneness and all things perceived in its entirety. I learned from that experience that there is such a thing as 'the mind's eye'.
Vergelyk asseblief jou gehoor tydens die ervaring met jou alledaagse gehoor wat jy onmiddellik voor die tyd van die ervaring gehad het
'Hearing' as we know it, isn't the same. 'Hearing' as we know it is just one part of our other senses, it is separate. During this experience there was no separation of senses, they were all connected, they were one, and being one made everything super remarkable and amazing.
Het dit gelyk of jy bewus was van dinge wat elders gebeur?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Het jy in of deur 'n tonnel gegaan?
No
Het jy enige wesens in jou ervaring gesien?
I actually saw them
Het jy enige oorlede (of lewende) wesens teëgekom of daarvan bewus geword?
Yes I didn't meet or see other beings, but I could 'feel' and 'sense' mystical entities around me, as if they were waiting. I didn't get the impression that I knew them.
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Light
Het jy 'n briljante lig gesien, of gevoel omring deur 'n briljante lig?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Het jy 'n onwerklik lig gesien?
Yes As described above.
Het dit gelyk asof jy 'n ander, onwêreldse wêreld binnegegaan het?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm My experience felt like I was in another dimension.
Watter ander emosies het jy tydens die ervaring gevoel?
Wonder, amazement, pleasantness, peace, lightness, happiness, freeing, longing to stay, feeling of being 'home'.
Het jy 'n gevoel van vrede of aangenaamheid gehad?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Het jy 'n gevoel van vreugde gehad?
incredible joy
Het jy 'n gevoel van harmonie of eenheid met die heelal gehad?
I felt united or one with the world
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Special Knowledge
Het dit skielik voorgekom of jy alles verstaan?
Everything about the universe
Het tonele uit jou verlede na jou teruggekeer?
My past flashed before me, out of my control
Het tonele uit die toekoms na jou gekom?
Scenes from the world's future
Het jy by 'n grens of punt van geen terugkeer gekom?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Geestelikheid en Godsdienst
Wat was jou godsdienst voor jou ervaring?
Moderate
Het jou godsdienstige praktyke verander sedert jou ervaring?
No
Wat is jou godsdienst nou?
Moderate
Het jy 'n verandering in jou waardes en geloofsartikels as gevolg van jou ervaring gehad?
No
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Presence of unearthly beings
Het dit gelyk asof jy 'n mistieke wese of teenwoordigheid teëgekom het, of 'n onidentifiseerbare stem gehoor het?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Het jy oorlede of godsdienstige geeste gesien?
I actually saw them
Betreffende ons aardse lewens behalwe Godsdienst
Het jy tydens jou ervaring spesiale kennis of inligting oor jou doel verkry?
Yes I'm not sure you would call it 'special knowledge', I wasn't given any revelation or anything, but, I just simply knew, for a fact, without question, that everything is connected, that our reality 'here' is only a fleeting and cumbersome short period of time. Only a blink of an eye perhaps. But, I did learn that there IS a reason, a purpose for our life here - but, I wasn't told what that reason/purpose is. The only strange thing I can remember is the thought that stuck in my mind after this is experience was 'The important thing is to make it shine, everything else is folly.' Those are not the exact 'words in my thoughts' but it was something like that.
Het jou verhoudings spesifiek verander as gevolg van jou ervaring?
No
Na die NDE
Was die ervaring moeilik om in woorde uit te druk?
Yes Our vocabulary doesn't have the capacity to express much of the experience.
Het jy enige psigiese, ongewone of ander spesiale gawes ná jou ervaring wat jy nie voor die ervaring gehad het nie?
Yes I developed an ability to 'read' people, to become one with them and understand many things about them without them having to tell me. Even until today, most of the time I could not tell you the color of friends and relatives eyes (unless I deliberately commit it to memory) because when I converse with them I do not see their eyes, I see through them, past the eyes. It is difficult to explain, but if I want to see the person's eyes I have to deliberately focus on them because otherwise my natural instinct now is that my mind doesn't see them.
Is daar een of meer dele van jou ervaring wat veral betekenisvol of belangrik vir jou is? Verduidelik asseblief.
Every part of the experience was meaningful and significant to me.
Het jy al ooit hierdie ervaring met ander gedeel?
Yes I have shared this story for many years with family and selected friends. I didn't start sharing it until a few years after the incident. There have been mixed reactions, of course, to it, some people believe you and some don't. Some find it fascinating some view it as imagination. I don't have a desire or urgency to make people believe it. I tell it and then it's up to them how or what they want to think about it.
Het jy enige kennis van byna-dood ervarings (NDE) gehad vóór jou ervaring?
No
Wat het jy geglo oor die werklikheid van jou ervaring kort nadat dit gebeur het (dae tot weke)?
Experience was definitely real There is no doubt in my mind it was real.
Wat glo jy nou oor die werklikheid van jou ervaring?
Experience was definitely real There is no doubt in my mind it was real.
Het enigiets ooit enige deel van die ervaring weergee in enige stadium van jou lewe?
Yes Several years after the drowning incident I did have one other experience. I will use another form to tell you about that.
Is daar enigiets anders wat jy wil byvoeg oor jou ervaring?
Only that there is another reality, another realm, another dimension.
Is daar enige ander vrae wat ons kan vra om jou te help om jou ervaring te kommunikeer?
I'll give this question some thought but as for the present I think the questionnaire is very good.