Ervaring Beskrywing
This incident occurred at the end of a long period of abuse - about three years. My abuser isolated me while I was swimming in a pond behind his house. After a brief argument with the man, as I was trying to swim away from him, he pushed me underwater by my shoulders and held me there. I struggled against his hands on my shoulders, but was not able to come to the surface. When I was almost out of air, I looked up through the water at the face of my attacker. His expression was very frightening to me because he was smiling, but also appeared to be very angry.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
Agtergrond Inligting
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
1981
NDE Elemente
Was daar 'n lewensgevaarlike gebeurtenis op die tydstip van jou ervaring?
Yes Criminal attack Other near drowning
I was being held underwater by someone who intended to either scare me or kill me.
Hoe oorweeg jy die inhoud van jou ervaring?
Wonderful
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Out of body experience
Het jy gevoel jy is geskei van jou liggaam?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hoe het jou hoogste vlak van bewussyn en waaksaamheid tydens die ervaring vergelyk met jou normale alledaagse bewussyn en waaksaamheid?
More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
Watter tyd gedurende die ervaring was jy op jou hoogste vlak van bewussyn en waaksaamheid?
When I had decided to, but before I had re-entered my body.
Was jou gedagtes versnel?
Incredibly fast
Het dit gelyk asof die tyd versnel of vertraag het?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time stopped and I felt like I was floating with no gravity.
Was jou sintuie helderder as gewoonlik?
Incredibly more vivid
Vergelyk asseblief jou sig tydens die ervaring met jou alledaagse sig wat jy onmiddellik voor die tyd van die ervaring gehad het
The surface of the water glinted in the sun in a starburst effect and the appearance of my body was in a haze of the pond water. It was surreal.
Vergelyk asseblief jou gehoor tydens die ervaring met jou alledaagse gehoor wat jy onmiddellik voor die tyd van die ervaring gehad het
I don't remember any sounds except for my attacker breathing heavily and the water slapping against his body.
Het dit gelyk of jy bewus was van dinge wat elders gebeur?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Het jy in of deur 'n tonnel gegaan?
No
Het jy enige wesens in jou ervaring gesien?
I actually saw them
Het jy enige oorlede (of lewende) wesens teëgekom of daarvan bewus geword?
No
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Darkness
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Light
Het jy 'n briljante lig gesien, of gevoel omring deur 'n briljante lig?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Het jy 'n onwerklik lig gesien?
Yes
Het dit gelyk asof jy 'n ander, onwêreldse wêreld binnegegaan het?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The place surrounding the light was very comfortable and is not comparable to anything I have felt or seen since.
Watter ander emosies het jy tydens die ervaring gevoel?
Peace, absolute clarity and an absence of pain.
Het jy 'n gevoel van vrede of aangenaamheid gehad?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Het jy 'n gevoel van vreugde gehad?
Happiness
Het jy 'n gevoel van harmonie of eenheid met die heelal gehad?
I felt united or one with the world
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Special Knowledge
Het dit skielik voorgekom of jy alles verstaan?
Everything about the universe
Het tonele uit jou verlede na jou teruggekeer?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I understood a much broader picture while I was not in my body. It didn't flood back to me in a visual life passing before my eyes. I went from ignorance instantly to wide awareness - not just of my life circumstances, but also of emotions, my family circumstances, a sense of purpose that I didn't have before. There was no sense of time, just calm sense of knowing what was and also what I needed to do.
Het tonele uit die toekoms na jou gekom?
Scenes from the world's future I knew my mom was not going to die from her illness.
Het jy by 'n grens of punt van geen terugkeer gekom?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Geestelikheid en Godsdienst
Wat was jou godsdienst voor jou ervaring?
Liberal None
Het jou godsdienstige praktyke verander sedert jou ervaring?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Wat is jou godsdienst nou?
Liberal None/Open minded
Het jy 'n verandering in jou waardes en geloofsartikels as gevolg van jou ervaring gehad?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Het dit gelyk asof jy 'n mistieke wese of teenwoordigheid teëgekom het, of 'n onidentifiseerbare stem gehoor het?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Het jy oorlede of godsdienstige geeste gesien?
I actually saw them
Betreffende ons aardse lewens behalwe Godsdienst
Het jy tydens jou ervaring spesiale kennis of inligting oor jou doel verkry?
Yes I understood my purpose on a different level. The string theory was a no-brainer for me. Somehow, I realized that we are all energy and that solid mass was an illusion.
Het jou verhoudings spesifiek verander as gevolg van jou ervaring?
Yes My sister and I have a special connection now.
Na die NDE
Was die ervaring moeilik om in woorde uit te druk?
No
Het jy enige psigiese, ongewone of ander spesiale gawes ná jou ervaring wat jy nie voor die ervaring gehad het nie?
Yes I can pass easily into this area by choice and sometimes wake up after sleeping with memories of being there, flying effortlessly.
Is daar een of meer dele van jou ervaring wat veral betekenisvol of belangrik vir jou is? Verduidelik asseblief.
The experience changed my life. It ended the abuse and gave me a huge amount of empathy.
Het jy al ooit hierdie ervaring met ander gedeel?
Yes I started sharing the near drowning experience with my psychologist at age twenty-one. In the last few months, I have been processing the experience with an emergency doctor and have been able to describe the experience in more detail.
Het jy enige kennis van byna-dood ervarings (NDE) gehad vóór jou ervaring?
No
Wat het jy geglo oor die werklikheid van jou ervaring kort nadat dit gebeur het (dae tot weke)?
Experience was definitely real I knew the experience was real. Soon after that experience, I began researching near death, out of body experiences, channeling and other forms of spirituality. I even did a report in high school where I interviewed a couple of psychics.
Wat glo jy nou oor die werklikheid van jou ervaring?
Experience was definitely real I view this experience as my life energy moving between planes of consciousness under duress. I view it along the lines of the law of conservation of energy. It states that the total amount of energy in an isolated system remains constant. A consequence of this law is that energy cannot be created or destroyed. The only thing that can happen with energy in an isolated system is that it can change form, that is to say for instance kinetic energy can become thermal energy. Because energy is associated with mass in the Einstein's theory of relativity, the conservation of energy also implies the conservation of mass in isolated systems (that is, the mass of a system cannot change, so long as energy is not permitted to enter or leave the system). Our psychic energy, soul, what have you, is just another form of energy.
Het enigiets ooit enige deel van die ervaring weergee in enige stadium van jou lewe?
No