Christina C

I was listening to an account of a near-death experience when this happened. The woman was describing merging with what I've come to call Source. I can’t recall the exact term she used, but I think it was God. It doesn’t matter. The terminology is unimportant. What matters is that, while listening to her, I "remembered" having the same experience. I put that in quotes because there was no time there. It is like floating in timelessness. Even the word floating might be wrong. You are simply there. You just exist. I realize that sounds a bit crazy, but it is as accurate as I can be with human words. Anyway, I was out on my back porch, with my iPad propped on the table, listening to this woman give an account of her NDE. When she described merging with the light, something happened, and I remembered doing exactly what she was describing. I think her description was so close to my own experience that it triggered my memory. I say "something happened" because I don’t believe I was entirely present in my body at the time. I’m not sure what exactly occurred. It wasn’t normal, though. Something unusual happened, even if I can’t fully explain it. During this, I saw a white light so bright it should have been blinding, but it wasn’t. It was not a steady light like a lightbulb. It was living. It was not alive in the way we normally think of life, but somehow more alive than that. I knew without any question that it was Source. I knew it was home. It felt like love. In fact, it was pure love that went beyond human words. It was more love than a single human could possibly contain. It was also a very peaceful and comforting love. That was home. That was Source in the most literal sense, and I simply knew it. At least, I did then. I understood exactly what it was, even though it is hard to explain. The best answer is that it was everything. The Christian phrase "I am" actually captures it very well. I have no words to fully explain it. But it is everything, and it is all of us, too. We are also it. I know this may sound insane, but the truth is that I know this now. It is not belief or faith. I simply know there is a source, or God, or creator, and I have most definitely merged with it. Or perhaps I will merge with it in the future, since there is no time. Interestingly, this knowledge comes with absolutely no arrogance. It simply exists. I am not special because I know this. For a while, I thought it was a gift. In a way, I suppose it was. I demanded the truth from God, the universe, or whatever was out there. That demand led me on a journey, and I was given this experience only when I was ready to receive and understand it. Another profound understanding that came with this was that there is no death. We simply transition out of our human bodies. This has completely changed how I see nearly everything. As for the experience itself, I have no idea how long it lasted. When I write, I often go into a deep flow state and lose track of time. It is not like passing out. It is more like a meditative state. For example, once my husband washed the dog and came back, and I thought he had been gone for only a minute or two. It hadn’t even felt that long. But he told me he had actually been gone for 20 to 25 minutes. So this experience could have lasted a split second or maybe even several minutes. I truly don’t know. Now I simply know there is a God, or Source, or creator. It is love. There is no death. There is also no time where we go after this life. I also know Source is genderless, and we are formless there. We are like energy, or simply awareness or consciousness without a human body. So why am I writing this about a year after it happened? Today, I received a download from Source, and I need to share it with someone smart. Ideally, I hope to reach someone on the cutting edge of the coming science revolution, the one that will recognize consciousness as fundamental. Maybe it will be multiple smart people across different fields, like physicist Thomas Campbell, cognitive scientist Donald Hoffman, and physicist Federico Faggin. You get the idea. Now to the actual download. It has to do with the whole system. It is iterative. We do this over and over again. I am not talking about past lives. We started with two. Once those two broke the code and understood that love is the answer to everything, we restarted and added more. Then four had to learn that love was the answer. We restarted again and added more. I believe we doubled the number each time, at least in the beginning. Now I’m not sure how it progresses. I don’t know what we will do next time. But for now, I think this run includes 10 billion. Each time it moves faster. We get better at it every round. It is like playing a video game. This is part of why we are starting to wake up. I mean the collective consciousness. We are in the early stages of that awakening, like the bottom of a hockey stick graph. Eventually, it will take off and become exponential, and I hope I am here to see it. That is what it is. It is like an iterative game we play. Earth is both our sandbox and our school. We get to experience wonderful things here that we cannot at home, like the taste of food, the feeling of sex, or the joy of triumph. Meanwhile, we learn. We have to start with our memories wiped, because knowing everything in advance would undermine the whole point. But once we start waking up, we can begin passing that knowledge on to others. That is allowed in this game. Eventually, those of us who have these awakenings will share what we have come to know. More people will believe. More will meditate and try, and the vibration of the collective consciousness will rise. More people will have these experiences, and it will spread. There will be an explosion of people waking up, and it will ripple around the globe. It is so exciting that I feel giddy. I apologize if I sound over the top, but I have been thinking about filling out this form, and then I received this download. I ran to find this site the moment I walked in the door. Much of what I wrote above just flowed out. I will need to read it again to see exactly what I wrote.