Ervaring Beskrywing
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Agtergrond Inligting
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
NDE Elemente
Was daar 'n lewensgevaarlike gebeurtenis op die tydstip van jou ervaring?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Hoe oorweeg jy die inhoud van jou ervaring?
Entirely pleasant
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Out of body experience
Het jy gevoel jy is geskei van jou liggaam?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hoe het jou hoogste vlak van bewussyn en waaksaamheid tydens die ervaring vergelyk met jou normale alledaagse bewussyn en waaksaamheid?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Watter tyd gedurende die ervaring was jy op jou hoogste vlak van bewussyn en waaksaamheid?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Was jou gedagtes versnel?
Faster than usual
Het dit gelyk asof die tyd versnel of vertraag het?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Was jou sintuie helderder as gewoonlik?
Incredibly more vivid
Vergelyk asseblief jou sig tydens die ervaring met jou alledaagse sig wat jy onmiddellik voor die tyd van die ervaring gehad het
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Vergelyk asseblief jou gehoor tydens die ervaring met jou alledaagse gehoor wat jy onmiddellik voor die tyd van die ervaring gehad het
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Het dit gelyk of jy bewus was van dinge wat elders gebeur?
No
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Tunnel
Het jy in of deur 'n tonnel gegaan?
Yes The hallway
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Presence of deceased persons
Het jy enige wesens in jou ervaring gesien?
I actually saw them
Het jy enige oorlede (of lewende) wesens teëgekom of daarvan bewus geword?
Yes No relatives
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Unearthly light
Het jy 'n briljante lig gesien, of gevoel omring deur 'n briljante lig?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Het jy 'n onwerklik lig gesien?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Die ervaring het ingesluit
A landscape or city
Het dit gelyk asof jy 'n ander, onwêreldse wêreld binnegegaan het?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Strong emotional tone
Watter ander emosies het jy tydens die ervaring gevoel?
Elated
Het jy 'n gevoel van vrede of aangenaamheid gehad?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Het jy 'n gevoel van vreugde gehad?
incredible joy
Het jy 'n gevoel van harmonie of eenheid met die heelal gehad?
I felt united or one with the world
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Special knowledge or purpose
Het dit skielik voorgekom of jy alles verstaan?
No
Het tonele uit jou verlede na jou teruggekeer?
No
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Awareness of the future
Het tonele uit die toekoms na jou gekom?
Scenes from my personal future
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Boundary
Het jy 'n grens of beperkende fisiese struktuur bereik?
Yes
Het jy by 'n grens of punt van geen terugkeer gekom?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Geestelikheid en Godsdienst
Watter belangrikheid het jy aan jou godsdienstige/geestelike lewe gegee voordat jy jou ervaring gehad het
Greatly important to me
Wat was jou godsdienst voor jou ervaring?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Het jou godsdienstige praktyke verander sedert jou ervaring?
Yes They are more grounded.
Watter belangrikheid gee jy aan jou godsdienstige/geestelike lewe nadat jy jou ervaring gehad het
Greatly important to me
Wat is jou godsdienst nou?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Het jou ervaring kenmerke ingesluit wat ooreenstem met jou aardse oortuigings?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Het jy 'n verandering in jou waardes en geloofsartikels as gevolg van jou ervaring gehad?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Die ervaring het ingesluit
Presence of unearthly beings
Het dit gelyk asof jy 'n mistieke wese of teenwoordigheid teëgekom het, of 'n onidentifiseerbare stem gehoor het?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Het jy oorlede of godsdienstige geeste gesien?
I actually saw them
Het jy wesens teëgekom of bewus geword van wesens wat voorheen op aarde geleef het en by naam in godsdienste beskryf word (byvoorbeeld: Jesus, Muhammad, Boeddha, ens?)
No
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting verkry oor die bestaan van God?
No
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting ontvang oor universele verbinding of eenheid?
Yes
Het jy in die bestaan van God geglo voor jou ervaring?
God definitely exists
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting verkry oor die bestaan van God?
Yes the love was in everything.
Glo jy in die bestaan van God na jou ervaring?
God definitely exists
Betreffende ons aardse lewens behalwe Godsdienst
Het jy tydens jou ervaring spesiale kennis of inligting oor jou doel verkry?
Yes
Het jy geglo dat ons aardse lewens betekenisvol en belangrik is voordat jy jou ervaring gehad het
Are meaningful and significant
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting ontvang oor die betekenis van die lewe?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Het jy in 'n lewe na die dood geglo voor jou ervaring?
An afterlife definitely exists
Glo jy in 'n lewe na die dood na jou ervaring?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Het jy die dood vrees voor jou ervaring?
I moderately feared death
Vrees jy die dood na jou ervaring
I do not fear death
Was jy bang om jou lewe te leef voordat jy jou ervaring gehad het
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Was jy bang om jou lewe te leef nadat jy jou ervaring gehad het
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Het jy geglo dat ons aardse lewens betekenisvol en belangrik is voordat jy jou ervaring gehad het
Are meaningful and significant
Het jy geglo dat ons aardse lewens betekenisvol en belangrik is nadat jy jou ervaring gehad het
Are meaningful and significant
Het jy inligting verwerf oor hoe om ons lewens te leef?
No
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting oor die moeilike, uitdagings en swaarkry in die lewe verwerf?
No
Was jy mededeelsaam voordat jy jou ervaring gehad het
Moderately compassionate toward others
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting oor liefde verwerf?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Was jy mededeelsaam nadat jy jou ervaring gehad het
Greatly compassionate toward others
Watter lewensveranderings het in jou lewe plaasgevind na jou ervaring?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Het jou verhoudings spesifiek verander as gevolg van jou ervaring?
No No
Na die NDE
Was die ervaring moeilik om in woorde uit te druk?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Hoe akkuraat onthou jy die ervaring in vergelyking met ander lewensevenemente wat rondom die tyd van die ervaring gebeur het?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Het jy enige psigiese, ongewone of ander spesiale gawes ná jou ervaring wat jy nie voor die ervaring gehad het nie?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Is daar een of meer dele van jou ervaring wat veral betekenisvol of belangrik vir jou is? Verduidelik asseblief.
The love
Het jy al ooit hierdie ervaring met ander gedeel?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Het jy enige kennis van byna-dood ervarings (NDE) gehad vóór jou ervaring?
No
Wat het jy geglo oor die werklikheid van jou ervaring kort nadat dit gebeur het (dae tot weke)?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Wat glo jy nou oor die werklikheid van jou ervaring?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Het enigiets ooit enige deel van die ervaring weergee in enige stadium van jou lewe?
No
Is daar enigiets anders wat jy wil byvoeg oor jou ervaring?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.