Ervaring Beskrywing
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Agtergrond Inligting
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
NDE Elemente
Was daar 'n lewensgevaarlike gebeurtenis op die tydstip van jou ervaring?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Hoe oorweeg jy die inhoud van jou ervaring?
Entirely distressing
Het jy gevoel jy is geskei van jou liggaam?
No
No
Hoe het jou hoogste vlak van bewussyn en waaksaamheid tydens die ervaring vergelyk met jou normale alledaagse bewussyn en waaksaamheid?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
Watter tyd gedurende die ervaring was jy op jou hoogste vlak van bewussyn en waaksaamheid?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Was jou gedagtes versnel?
Incredibly fast
Het dit gelyk asof die tyd versnel of vertraag het?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Was jou sintuie helderder as gewoonlik?
Incredibly more vivid
Vergelyk asseblief jou sig tydens die ervaring met jou alledaagse sig wat jy onmiddellik voor die tyd van die ervaring gehad het
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Vergelyk asseblief jou gehoor tydens die ervaring met jou alledaagse gehoor wat jy onmiddellik voor die tyd van die ervaring gehad het
I don't know.
Het dit gelyk of jy bewus was van dinge wat elders gebeur?
No
Het jy in of deur 'n tonnel gegaan?
No
Het jy enige wesens in jou ervaring gesien?
No
Het jy enige oorlede (of lewende) wesens teëgekom of daarvan bewus geword?
No
Het jy 'n briljante lig gesien, of gevoel omring deur 'n briljante lig?
No
Het jy 'n onwerklik lig gesien?
No
Het dit gelyk asof jy 'n ander, onwêreldse wêreld binnegegaan het?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Watter ander emosies het jy tydens die ervaring gevoel?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Het jy 'n gevoel van vrede of aangenaamheid gehad?
No
Het jy 'n gevoel van vreugde gehad?
No
Het jy 'n gevoel van harmonie of eenheid met die heelal gehad?
No
Het dit skielik voorgekom of jy alles verstaan?
No
Het tonele uit jou verlede na jou teruggekeer?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Het tonele uit die toekoms na jou gekom?
No
Het jy by 'n grens of punt van geen terugkeer gekom?
No
God, Geestelikheid en Godsdienst
Wat was jou godsdienst voor jou ervaring?
Christian- Catholic
Het jou godsdienstige praktyke verander sedert jou ervaring?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Wat is jou godsdienst nou?
Buddhist
Het jou ervaring kenmerke ingesluit wat ooreenstem met jou aardse oortuigings?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Het jy 'n verandering in jou waardes en geloofsartikels as gevolg van jou ervaring gehad?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Het dit gelyk asof jy 'n mistieke wese of teenwoordigheid teëgekom het, of 'n onidentifiseerbare stem gehoor het?
No
Het jy oorlede of godsdienstige geeste gesien?
No
Het jy wesens teëgekom of bewus geword van wesens wat voorheen op aarde geleef het en by naam in godsdienste beskryf word (byvoorbeeld: Jesus, Muhammad, Boeddha, ens?)
No
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting verkry oor die bestaan van God?
No
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting ontvang oor universele verbinding of eenheid?
No
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting verkry oor die bestaan van God?
No
Betreffende ons aardse lewens behalwe Godsdienst
Het jy tydens jou ervaring spesiale kennis of inligting oor jou doel verkry?
No
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting ontvang oor die betekenis van die lewe?
No
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting oor 'n lewe na die dood verwerf?
No
Het jy inligting verwerf oor hoe om ons lewens te leef?
No
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting oor die moeilike, uitdagings en swaarkry in die lewe verwerf?
No
Het jy tydens jou ervaring inligting oor liefde verwerf?
No
Watter lewensveranderings het in jou lewe plaasgevind na jou ervaring?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Na die NDE
Was die ervaring moeilik om in woorde uit te druk?
No
Hoe akkuraat onthou jy die ervaring in vergelyking met ander lewensevenemente wat rondom die tyd van die ervaring gebeur het?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Het jy enige psigiese, ongewone of ander spesiale gawes ná jou ervaring wat jy nie voor die ervaring gehad het nie?
No
Is daar een of meer dele van jou ervaring wat veral betekenisvol of belangrik vir jou is? Verduidelik asseblief.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Het jy al ooit hierdie ervaring met ander gedeel?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Het jy enige kennis van byna-dood ervarings (NDE) gehad vóór jou ervaring?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Wat het jy geglo oor die werklikheid van jou ervaring kort nadat dit gebeur het (dae tot weke)?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Wat glo jy nou oor die werklikheid van jou ervaring?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Het enigiets ooit enige deel van die ervaring weergee in enige stadium van jou lewe?
No
Is daar enigiets anders wat jy wil byvoeg oor jou ervaring?
No