Описание на преживяването
1995 - In the intensive care unit, curtain surrounding the bathroom area, light began emitting from behind the curtain (sort of 'Wizard of Oz'-like - no noise, just light and vibration). Knew a presence wished to come into room. Knew by the indescribable quality and feeling of light it was God, as I know him. I asked him 'not now', please my children (I am single parent of two, one disabled through leukemia at four, no family but me. I asked for more time, responsibility of visit too frightening. He/she/it immediately acquiesced. I always regretted it.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
Основна информация
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
(2) in 2000
Елементи на БСБ
По време на преживяването ви имаше ли свързано животозастрашаващо събитие?
Yes Heart attack Open heart surgery, 3 open hearts in three days in April and In November Complete cardiac and respiratory arrest due to CHF Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Had heart attack in 1995. Had experience in the intensive care unit but willed it away, too scary, always regretted it but had children who needed me. In 2005 had multiple bypass, which did not go well, three open heart surgeries in three days due to hemorrhaging. On respirator for forty-five days. Many journeys and experiences throughout that period in April/May. In November had complete respiratory and cardiac arrest. Another experience.
Как оценявате съдържанието на преживяването си?
Mixed
Чувствахте ли се отделени от тялото си?
Yes
I lost awareness of my body
Как най-високото ви ниво на съзнание и бдителност по време на преживяването се сравнява с нормалното ви ежедневно съзнание и бдителност?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was much more real. I know that doesn't make much sense.
По кое време по време на преживяването бяхте на най-високото си ниво на съзнание и бдителност?
In presence of the main God, light, vibration. But most of all in tunnel when choice had to be made. I was tired.
Ускориха ли се мислите ви?
Neither
Времето сякаш се ускори или забави?
Neither I have what I call 'Swiss cheese for brains'. Some things are missing or dropped.
Бяха ли сетивата ви по-живи от обикновено?
Neither
Моля, сравнете зрението си по време на преживяването с обичайното си зрение, което сте имали непосредствено преди момента на преживяването
Colors perfect, things and places seen without flaw, almost undisturbed. Every petal of every flower perfect. No decay of any kind. Transparency somehow changed and music without time. Couldn't explain that one in a million years wouldn't know where to begin.
Моля, сравнете слуха си по време на преживяването с обичайния си слух, който сте имали непосредствено преди момента на преживяването
It was hearing but not auditory exactly all the time.
Изглеждаше ли ви, че сте наясно с неща, които се случват другаде?
Neither
Преминахте ли в или през тунел?
Yes Already described.
Видяхте ли същества в преживяването си?
Saw them
Срещнахте ли или осъзнахте ли присъствието на починали (или живи) същества?
Yes Already described.
Видяхте ли или се почувствахте ли заобиколени от брилянтна светлина?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Видяхте ли неземен блясък?
Yes Already described.
Стори ли ви се, че сте влезли в друг, неземен свят?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm already described some. many more, lots of travel and sights
Какви други емоции изпитахте по време на преживяването?
Wonder, joy, fear, trust, grateful, small, big, powerful, powerless, amazed, graced, light, open, peaceful, inquisitive and loved and loving. Perfectly in tune.
Изпитахте ли чувство на мир или приятност?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Изпитахте ли чувство на радост?
Incredible joy
Почувствахте ли чувство на хармония или единство с вселената?
United, one with the world
Изведнъж сякаш разбрахте всичко?
Everything about the universe
Върнаха ли се сцени от миналото ви?
Remembered many past events Life review takes place through the feelings and emotions of others in any given moment in time. We experience and feel whatever we created in that moment for them. I am much more sensitive.
Имали ли сте сцени от бъдещето?
From the world's future
Very private.
Стигнахте ли до граница или точка, от която няма връщане назад?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
Бог, духовност и религия
Каква беше вашата религия преди вашето преживяване?
Moderate Raised catholic, believe in collective unconscious, a higher power have had unusual, unexplainable experiences throughout life making conservative organized religious experience not acceptable.
Вашите религиозни практики променили ли са се след вашето преживяване?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Каква е вашата религия сега?
Liberal Have conscious contact w/ higher power daily, pray and meditate daily, use Native American Medicine Wheel for healing/teaching. Use ancient esoteric teachings from stones crystals given by Native American grandma turned good catholic when she was a young
Имахте ли промяна в ценностите и вярванията си поради вашето преживяване?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Стори ли ви се, че сте срещнали мистично същество или присъствие, или сте чули неидентифицируем глас?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Видяхте ли починали или религиозни духове?
Saw them
Относно нашия земен живот, различен от религията
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли специални знания или информация за вашата цел?
Yes Very private.
Промениха ли се отношенията ви конкретно в резултат на вашето преживяване?
Yes I am much more willing just to be me without pretense, walls or protections that we humans erect to protect ourselves from REALLY being seen.
След БСБ
Трудно ли беше да изразите преживяването с думи?
Yes We don't have words in our vocabulary that express the 'energetic colors of vibration' emitted by 'higher being'. The emotional quality of 'feeling state' beyond measure or words. Information received so simple, yet so complicated it would take hours to verbalize. Recognition of persons in tunnel already 'passed over' (I think) so familiar, yet didn't recognize a one. Saw my grandma no words. Couldn't see 'God', but saw energy emitting and felt enormous vibration and felt emotional presence and vibration throughout life review.
Имате ли някакви психични, необичайни или други специални дарби след преживяването, които не сте имали преди преживяването?
Yes Personal.
Има ли една или няколко части от вашето преживяване, които са особено значими за вас? Моля, обяснете.
Oh my God, are you kidding? Too personal for a computer screen.
Споделяли ли сте някога това преживяване с други хора?
Yes Immediately. Sure, reactions were mixed. I hope they were influenced.
Имахте ли някакви познания за преживяване близо до смъртта (NDE) преди вашето преживяване?
Uncertain After my mother died I had and my son had a 'dreamlike' waking encounter.
Какво вярвахте за реалността на вашето преживяване скоро (дни до седмици) след като се случи?
Experience was definitely real It was more real that what's here in my consciousness on a daily basis and I stay as connected as possible daily.
Какво вярвате за реалността на вашия опит сега?
Experience was definitely real It affects me in every moment.
В някакъв момент от живота ви, нещо възпроизвеждало ли е някоя част от преживяването?
No