Описание на преживяването
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This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
Основна информация
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
03/29/2001 4:20 pm Pacific time
Елементи на БСБ
По време на преживяването ви имаше ли свързано животозастрашаващо събитие?
No. Other: Healthy, Stayed conscious.
Как оценявате съдържанието на преживяването си?
Entirely pleasant
Преживяването включваше
Out of body experience
Чувствахте ли се отделени от тялото си?
Yes My physical body stayed conscious while operating my vehicle. I have subsequently had veridical OBEs.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Как най-високото ви ниво на съзнание и бдителност по време на преживяването се сравнява с нормалното ви ежедневно съзнание и бдителност?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
По кое време по време на преживяването бяхте на най-високото си ниво на съзнание и бдителност?
When I was the vast void, let’s say: normal is 11 or so lines of coded information. The vast void had a millions lines of coded information.
Ускориха ли се мислите ви?
Incredibly fast
Времето сякаш се ускори или забави?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Slowed, stopped and went outside of time.
Бяха ли сетивата ви по-живи от обикновено?
Incredibly more vivid
Моля, сравнете зрението си по време на преживяването с обичайното си зрение, което сте имали непосредствено преди момента на преживяването
I could see 720 degrees and through time and space. I was outside of time and space. Layers and layers of visual information like Photoshop by seeing the image the information of all the layers is self-evident. Also, emotional and other types of information were available.
Моля, сравнете слуха си по време на преживяването с обичайния си слух, който сте имали непосредствено преди момента на преживяването
The sound also contained layers of additional information and emotion and intensity: it still does.
Изглеждаше ли ви, че сте наясно с неща, които се случват другаде?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
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Tunnel
Преминахте ли в или през тунел?
Uncertain I saw a beam of white. It came out of the sky and touched me on the shoulder. I felt the tangible touch. I became one with the beam. This beam transitioned me from my body. This was an experience that seems to be functionally equivalent to ‘the tunnel’.
Преживяването включваше
Presence of deceased persons
Видяхте ли същества в преживяването си?
I sensed their presence
Срещнахте ли или осъзнахте ли присъствието на починали (или живи) същества?
No Not in this particular experience, but in many others.
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Void
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Darkness
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Unearthly light
Видяхте ли или се почувствахте ли заобиколени от брилянтна светлина?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Видяхте ли неземен блясък?
Yes The Beam was diffused at the top and sharp on the edges and came to a point at my shoulder. Then my body glowed in a bluish white from inside. The field of particles was also sort of light.
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A landscape or city
Стори ли ви се, че сте влезли в друг, неземен свят?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The field of particles and the vast void.
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Hellish imagery
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Strong emotional tone
Какви други емоции изпитахте по време на преживяването?
Immense Love
Изпитахте ли чувство на мир или приятност?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Изпитахте ли чувство на радост?
incredible joy
Почувствахте ли чувство на хармония или единство с вселената?
I felt united or one with the world
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Special knowledge or purpose
Изведнъж сякаш разбрахте всичко?
Everything about the universe
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Life review
Върнаха ли се сцени от миналото ви?
I remembered many past events
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Awareness of the future
Имали ли сте сцени от бъдещето?
Scenes from the world's future Why is this an either or question? I received much information about the future.
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Boundary
Достигнахте ли граница или ограничаваща физическа структура?
Yes There was an event horizon between the fields of particle, and then I went beyond to the vast void.
Стигнахте ли до граница или точка, от която няма връщане назад?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will This is a little vague but I did feel like the topic came up and was decided.
Бог, духовност и религия
Какво значение придавахте на религиозния/духовния си живот преди преживяването си?
Not important to me
Каква беше вашата религия преди вашето преживяване?
Unaffiliated- Atheist Formerly Catholic but never really believed it during the time I was going through a period of atheism then agnosticism and I was conducting an experiment to experience God.
Вашите религиозни практики променили ли са се след вашето преживяване?
Yes From doubt to certainty.
Какво значение придавате на религиозния/духовния си живот след преживяването си?
Greatly important to me
Каква е вашата религия сега?
Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated My knowledge now is beyond all religious limitations. I understand the value of them for others.
Вашето преживяване включваше ли елементи, съвместими с вашите земни вярвания?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience The name "God of Abraham" is obviously from my culture and the beam does show up in the bible several places, but the whole experience is so far beyond anything that is taught in Catholicism it is inconsistent.
Имахте ли промяна в ценностите и вярванията си поради вашето преживяване?
Yes God does exist and loves me. My actions matter. I am more aware of my actions and feelings.
Преживяването включваше
Presence of unearthly beings
Стори ли ви се, че сте срещнали мистично същество или присъствие, или сте чули неидентифицируем глас?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard several voices from different locations around me and within me. One said ‘everything will be alright.’ One responding to my unasked question ‘who are you?’ The response: ‘God of Abraham.’
Видяхте ли починали или религиозни духове?
I sensed their presence
Срещнахте ли или осъзнахте ли съществуването на същества, които преди са живели на земята и които са описани поименно в религиите (например: Исус, Мохамед, Буда и т.н.)?
No Not in this particular experience but in many other expereinces.
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за съществуването на Бог?
Yes I, as God am uncreated, eternal, have been before this and will remain after.
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за универсална връзка или единство?
Yes We are one!
Вярвахте ли в съществуването на Бог преди преживяването си?
God probably does not exist
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за съществуването на Бог?
Yes God Exists. We are in fact God but we chose to forget ourselves.
Вярвате ли в съществуването на Бог след преживяването си?
God definitely exists
Относно нашия земен живот, различен от религията
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли специални знания или информация за вашата цел?
Yes Omniscient!
Вярвахте ли, че нашият земен живот е значим и съществен преди преживяването си?
Are meaningful and significant
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за смисъла на живота?
Yes We exist to experience. All of creation exists to experience.
Вярвахте ли в задгробен живот преди преживяването си?
An afterlife probably does not exist
Вярвате ли в задгробен живот след преживяването си?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes We are so much more that this fluff of biomatter.
Страхувахте ли се от смъртта преди преживяването си?
I greatly feared death
Страхувате ли се от смъртта след преживяването си?
I do not fear death
Страхувахте ли се да живеете живота си преди преживяването си?
Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Страхувахте ли се да живеете живота си след преживяването си?
Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Вярвахте ли, че нашият земен живот е значим и съществен преди преживяването си?
Are meaningful and significant
Вярвате ли, че нашият земен живот е значим и съществен след преживяването си?
Are meaningful and significant
Получихте ли информация как да живеем живота си?
Yes From the higher perspective it all makes sense, frustrating as it is that we don't remember. It does help to know that.
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за трудностите, предизвикателствата и несгодите в живота?
Yes Suffering is a mechanism for spiritual evolution which is one of the most valuable experiences to have the experience of learning growing and evolving and we remember who we really are and return home.
Бяхте ли състрадателни преди преживяването си?
Slightly compassionate toward others
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за любовта?
Yes Love is the basis of all creation. Love is God. God is Love.
Бяхте ли състрадателни след преживяването си?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Какви промени в живота настъпиха след преживяването ви?
Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I felt horrible working for corrupt corporations and challenged their behavior. That did not go over very well. I have a difficult time receiving money now. It is a work in progress.
Промениха ли се отношенията ви конкретно в резултат на вашето преживяване?
Uncertain Uncertain I am still a hot mess when it comes to relationships. But I hope there is a much stronger connection with some.
След БСБ
Трудно ли беше да изразите преживяването с думи?
Yes There is creation beyond anything in the physical universe.
Колко точно помните преживяването в сравнение с други житейски събития, които са се случили по същото време?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It's more clear and more intense as a memory than reality is as reality.
Имате ли някакви психични, необичайни или други специални дарби след преживяването, които не сте имали преди преживяването?
Yes I can talk to the sun and the sun answers. I can feel solar flares and other fluctuations in the magnetic field. I have prophetic dreams and visions. I’m hugely empathic.
Има ли една или няколко части от вашето преживяване, които са особено значими за вас? Моля, обяснете.
The field of particles that is the substructure of the universe has not yet been validated by science, but it will. In 2013, UCLA imaged the atoms of platinum and it looks the same as the field I saw. I feel that is because atomic structure is built on the framework of the field.
Споделяли ли сте някога това преживяване с други хора?
Yes A couple of days after, I told my friend who believed me because she had already had an OBE.
Имахте ли някакви познания за преживяване близо до смъртта (NDE) преди вашето преживяване?
Yes I had seen this awesome site; and read a few of the stories. I had also seen TV show about it.
Какво вярвахте за реалността на вашето преживяване скоро (дни до седмици) след като се случи?
Experience was definitely real It was absolutely real but I still wanted to meet someone else who had experienced it.
Какво вярвате за реалността на вашия опит сега?
Experience was definitely real Validation, Validation, Validation. Other people have experienced similar and almost identical experiences.
В някакъв момент от живота ви, нещо възпроизвеждало ли е някоя част от преживяването?
Yes I have since had many OBEs: Fully through layers of heaven, hell and the vast void.
Има ли нещо друго, което бихте искали да добавите за вашето преживяване?
I never was close to death but it is still an NDE because of the spiritual elements. Also it is not enlightenment because I did not have spiritual guides and community. It is not just an OBE from sleeping because I was fully conscious. It does not really fit any category. I also felt most at home with NDE, as opposed to any other group.