Описание на преживяването
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Основна информация
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
Елементи на БСБ
По време на преживяването ви имаше ли свързано животозастрашаващо събитие?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Как оценявате съдържанието на преживяването си?
Entirely pleasant
Преживяването включваше
Out of body experience
Чувствахте ли се отделени от тялото си?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Как най-високото ви ниво на съзнание и бдителност по време на преживяването се сравнява с нормалното ви ежедневно съзнание и бдителност?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
По кое време по време на преживяването бяхте на най-високото си ниво на съзнание и бдителност?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Ускориха ли се мислите ви?
Faster than usual
Времето сякаш се ускори или забави?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Бяха ли сетивата ви по-живи от обикновено?
Incredibly more vivid
Моля, сравнете зрението си по време на преживяването с обичайното си зрение, което сте имали непосредствено преди момента на преживяването
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Моля, сравнете слуха си по време на преживяването с обичайния си слух, който сте имали непосредствено преди момента на преживяването
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Изглеждаше ли ви, че сте наясно с неща, които се случват другаде?
No
Преживяването включваше
Tunnel
Преминахте ли в или през тунел?
Yes The hallway
Преживяването включваше
Presence of deceased persons
Видяхте ли същества в преживяването си?
I actually saw them
Срещнахте ли или осъзнахте ли присъствието на починали (или живи) същества?
Yes No relatives
Преживяването включваше
Unearthly light
Видяхте ли или се почувствахте ли заобиколени от брилянтна светлина?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Видяхте ли неземен блясък?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Преживяването включваше
A landscape or city
Стори ли ви се, че сте влезли в друг, неземен свят?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Преживяването включваше
Strong emotional tone
Какви други емоции изпитахте по време на преживяването?
Elated
Изпитахте ли чувство на мир или приятност?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Изпитахте ли чувство на радост?
incredible joy
Почувствахте ли чувство на хармония или единство с вселената?
I felt united or one with the world
Преживяването включваше
Special knowledge or purpose
Изведнъж сякаш разбрахте всичко?
No
Върнаха ли се сцени от миналото ви?
No
Преживяването включваше
Awareness of the future
Имали ли сте сцени от бъдещето?
Scenes from my personal future
Преживяването включваше
Boundary
Достигнахте ли граница или ограничаваща физическа структура?
Yes
Стигнахте ли до граница или точка, от която няма връщане назад?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Бог, духовност и религия
Какво значение придавахте на религиозния/духовния си живот преди преживяването си?
Greatly important to me
Каква беше вашата религия преди вашето преживяване?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Вашите религиозни практики променили ли са се след вашето преживяване?
Yes They are more grounded.
Какво значение придавате на религиозния/духовния си живот след преживяването си?
Greatly important to me
Каква е вашата религия сега?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Вашето преживяване включваше ли елементи, съвместими с вашите земни вярвания?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Имахте ли промяна в ценностите и вярванията си поради вашето преживяване?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Преживяването включваше
Presence of unearthly beings
Стори ли ви се, че сте срещнали мистично същество или присъствие, или сте чули неидентифицируем глас?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Видяхте ли починали или религиозни духове?
I actually saw them
Срещнахте ли или осъзнахте ли съществуването на същества, които преди са живели на земята и които са описани поименно в религиите (например: Исус, Мохамед, Буда и т.н.)?
No
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за съществуването на Бог?
No
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за универсална връзка или единство?
Yes
Вярвахте ли в съществуването на Бог преди преживяването си?
God definitely exists
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за съществуването на Бог?
Yes the love was in everything.
Вярвате ли в съществуването на Бог след преживяването си?
God definitely exists
Относно нашия земен живот, различен от религията
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли специални знания или информация за вашата цел?
Yes
Вярвахте ли, че нашият земен живот е значим и съществен преди преживяването си?
Are meaningful and significant
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за смисъла на живота?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Вярвахте ли в задгробен живот преди преживяването си?
An afterlife definitely exists
Вярвате ли в задгробен живот след преживяването си?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Страхувахте ли се от смъртта преди преживяването си?
I moderately feared death
Страхувате ли се от смъртта след преживяването си?
I do not fear death
Страхувахте ли се да живеете живота си преди преживяването си?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Страхувахте ли се да живеете живота си след преживяването си?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Вярвахте ли, че нашият земен живот е значим и съществен преди преживяването си?
Are meaningful and significant
Вярвате ли, че нашият земен живот е значим и съществен след преживяването си?
Are meaningful and significant
Получихте ли информация как да живеем живота си?
No
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за трудностите, предизвикателствата и несгодите в живота?
No
Бяхте ли състрадателни преди преживяването си?
Moderately compassionate toward others
По време на вашето преживяване, получихте ли информация за любовта?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Бяхте ли състрадателни след преживяването си?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Какви промени в живота настъпиха след преживяването ви?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Промениха ли се отношенията ви конкретно в резултат на вашето преживяване?
No No
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Трудно ли беше да изразите преживяването с думи?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Колко точно помните преживяването в сравнение с други житейски събития, които са се случили по същото време?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Имате ли някакви психични, необичайни или други специални дарби след преживяването, които не сте имали преди преживяването?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Има ли една или няколко части от вашето преживяване, които са особено значими за вас? Моля, обяснете.
The love
Споделяли ли сте някога това преживяване с други хора?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Имахте ли някакви познания за преживяване близо до смъртта (NDE) преди вашето преживяване?
No
Какво вярвахте за реалността на вашето преживяване скоро (дни до седмици) след като се случи?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Какво вярвате за реалността на вашия опит сега?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
В някакъв момент от живота ви, нещо възпроизвеждало ли е някоя част от преживяването?
No
Има ли нещо друго, което бихте искали да добавите за вашето преживяване?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.