Popis zážitku
1995 - In the intensive care unit, curtain surrounding the bathroom area, light began emitting from behind the curtain (sort of 'Wizard of Oz'-like - no noise, just light and vibration). Knew a presence wished to come into room. Knew by the indescribable quality and feeling of light it was God, as I know him. I asked him 'not now', please my children (I am single parent of two, one disabled through leukemia at four, no family but me. I asked for more time, responsibility of visit too frightening. He/she/it immediately acquiesced. I always regretted it.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
Pozadí informací
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
(2) in 2000
Prvky NDE
Byla v době vašeho zážitku přidružená život ohrožující událost?
Yes Heart attack Open heart surgery, 3 open hearts in three days in April and In November Complete cardiac and respiratory arrest due to CHF Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Had heart attack in 1995. Had experience in the intensive care unit but willed it away, too scary, always regretted it but had children who needed me. In 2005 had multiple bypass, which did not go well, three open heart surgeries in three days due to hemorrhaging. On respirator for forty-five days. Many journeys and experiences throughout that period in April/May. In November had complete respiratory and cardiac arrest. Another experience.
Jak považujete obsah svého zážitku?
Mixed
Cítili jste se odděleni od svého těla?
Yes
I lost awareness of my body
Jak se vaše nejvyšší úroveň vědomí a bdělosti během zkušenosti srovnává s vaším normálním každodenním vědomím a bdělostí?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was much more real. I know that doesn't make much sense.
V jakém okamžiku během zkušenosti jste měl/a nejvyšší úroveň vědomí a bdělosti?
In presence of the main God, light, vibration. But most of all in tunnel when choice had to be made. I was tired.
Byly vaše myšlenky zrychlené?
Neither
Zda se čas zdál urychlovat nebo zpomalovat?
Neither I have what I call 'Swiss cheese for brains'. Some things are missing or dropped.
Byly vaše smysly živější než obvykle?
Neither
Prosím, porovnejte svůj zrak během zážitku s každodenním zrakem, který jste měli těsně před tímto zážitkem
Colors perfect, things and places seen without flaw, almost undisturbed. Every petal of every flower perfect. No decay of any kind. Transparency somehow changed and music without time. Couldn't explain that one in a million years wouldn't know where to begin.
Prosím, porovnejte svůj sluch během zážitku s každodenním sluchem, který jste měli těsně před tímto zážitkem
It was hearing but not auditory exactly all the time.
Měli jste pocit, že jste si vědomi událostí, které se odehrávaly jinde?
Neither
Prošli jste tunelem?
Yes Already described.
Viděli jste ve svém zážitku nějaké bytosti?
Saw them
Setkali jste se nebo si byli vědomi jakýchkoli zesnulých (nebo žijících) bytostí?
Yes Already described.
Viděli jste nebo se cítili obklopeni jasným světlem?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Viděli jste nadpozemské světlo?
Yes Already described.
Zda se ukázalo, že jste vstoupili do nějakého jiného, nadpozemského světa?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm already described some. many more, lots of travel and sights
Jaké další emoce jste cítili během zážitku?
Wonder, joy, fear, trust, grateful, small, big, powerful, powerless, amazed, graced, light, open, peaceful, inquisitive and loved and loving. Perfectly in tune.
Měli jste pocit míru nebo příjemnosti?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Měli jste pocit radosti?
Incredible joy
Měli jste pocit harmonie nebo jednoty s vesmírem?
United, one with the world
Měli jste náhle dojem, že rozumíte všemu?
Everything about the universe
Vrátily se vám scény z vaší minulosti?
Remembered many past events Life review takes place through the feelings and emotions of others in any given moment in time. We experience and feel whatever we created in that moment for them. I am much more sensitive.
Přišly k vám scény z budoucnosti?
From the world's future
Very private.
Dostali jste se k hranici nebo k bodu bez návratu?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
Bůh, duchovno a náboženství
Jaké bylo vaše náboženství před vaším zážitkem?
Moderate Raised catholic, believe in collective unconscious, a higher power have had unusual, unexplainable experiences throughout life making conservative organized religious experience not acceptable.
Změnily se vaše náboženské praktiky od vašeho zážitku?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Jaké je vaše náboženství nyní?
Liberal Have conscious contact w/ higher power daily, pray and meditate daily, use Native American Medicine Wheel for healing/teaching. Use ancient esoteric teachings from stones crystals given by Native American grandma turned good catholic when she was a young
Došlo k změně vašich hodnot a přesvědčení v důsledku vašeho zážitku?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Zda jste se setkali s mystickou bytostí nebo přítomností, nebo slyšeli neidentifikovatelný hlas?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Viděli jste duše zesnulých nebo náboženské duchy?
Saw them
Pokud jde o naše pozemské životy kromě náboženství
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali zvláštní znalosti nebo informace o svém účelu?
Yes Very private.
Změnily se vaše vztahy konkrétně v důsledku vašeho zážitku?
Yes I am much more willing just to be me without pretense, walls or protections that we humans erect to protect ourselves from REALLY being seen.
Po NDE
Bylo obtížné vyjádřit zážitek slovy?
Yes We don't have words in our vocabulary that express the 'energetic colors of vibration' emitted by 'higher being'. The emotional quality of 'feeling state' beyond measure or words. Information received so simple, yet so complicated it would take hours to verbalize. Recognition of persons in tunnel already 'passed over' (I think) so familiar, yet didn't recognize a one. Saw my grandma no words. Couldn't see 'God', but saw energy emitting and felt enormous vibration and felt emotional presence and vibration throughout life review.
Máte po své zkušenosti nějaké psychické, neobvyklé nebo jiné zvláštní dary, které jste před touto zkušeností neměli?
Yes Personal.
Jsou nějaké části vaší zkušenosti, které jsou pro vás obzvlášť významné nebo důležité? Prosím, vysvětlete.
Oh my God, are you kidding? Too personal for a computer screen.
Sdíleli jste tuto zkušenost někdy s ostatními?
Yes Immediately. Sure, reactions were mixed. I hope they were influenced.
Měli jste nějaké znalosti o zážitku blízkém smrti (NDE) před vaším zážitkem?
Uncertain After my mother died I had and my son had a 'dreamlike' waking encounter.
Co jste si mysleli o realitě vašeho zážitku krátce (dny až týdny) poté, co se to stalo?
Experience was definitely real It was more real that what's here in my consciousness on a daily basis and I stay as connected as possible daily.
Co si nyní myslíte o realitě vašeho zážitku?
Experience was definitely real It affects me in every moment.
Někdy ve vašem životě se něco reprodukovalo jakoukoli část zážitku?
No