Popis zážitku
This incident occurred at the end of a long period of abuse - about three years. My abuser isolated me while I was swimming in a pond behind his house. After a brief argument with the man, as I was trying to swim away from him, he pushed me underwater by my shoulders and held me there. I struggled against his hands on my shoulders, but was not able to come to the surface. When I was almost out of air, I looked up through the water at the face of my attacker. His expression was very frightening to me because he was smiling, but also appeared to be very angry.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
Pozadí informací
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
1981
Prvky NDE
Byla v době vašeho zážitku přidružená život ohrožující událost?
Yes Criminal attack Other near drowning
I was being held underwater by someone who intended to either scare me or kill me.
Jak považujete obsah svého zážitku?
Wonderful
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Out of body experience
Cítili jste se odděleni od svého těla?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Jak se vaše nejvyšší úroveň vědomí a bdělosti během zkušenosti srovnává s vaším normálním každodenním vědomím a bdělostí?
More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
V jakém okamžiku během zkušenosti jste měl/a nejvyšší úroveň vědomí a bdělosti?
When I had decided to, but before I had re-entered my body.
Byly vaše myšlenky zrychlené?
Incredibly fast
Zda se čas zdál urychlovat nebo zpomalovat?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time stopped and I felt like I was floating with no gravity.
Byly vaše smysly živější než obvykle?
Incredibly more vivid
Prosím, porovnejte svůj zrak během zážitku s každodenním zrakem, který jste měli těsně před tímto zážitkem
The surface of the water glinted in the sun in a starburst effect and the appearance of my body was in a haze of the pond water. It was surreal.
Prosím, porovnejte svůj sluch během zážitku s každodenním sluchem, který jste měli těsně před tímto zážitkem
I don't remember any sounds except for my attacker breathing heavily and the water slapping against his body.
Měli jste pocit, že jste si vědomi událostí, které se odehrávaly jinde?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Prošli jste tunelem?
No
Viděli jste ve svém zážitku nějaké bytosti?
I actually saw them
Setkali jste se nebo si byli vědomi jakýchkoli zesnulých (nebo žijících) bytostí?
No
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Darkness
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Light
Viděli jste nebo se cítili obklopeni jasným světlem?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Viděli jste nadpozemské světlo?
Yes
Zda se ukázalo, že jste vstoupili do nějakého jiného, nadpozemského světa?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The place surrounding the light was very comfortable and is not comparable to anything I have felt or seen since.
Jaké další emoce jste cítili během zážitku?
Peace, absolute clarity and an absence of pain.
Měli jste pocit míru nebo příjemnosti?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Měli jste pocit radosti?
Happiness
Měli jste pocit harmonie nebo jednoty s vesmírem?
I felt united or one with the world
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Special Knowledge
Měli jste náhle dojem, že rozumíte všemu?
Everything about the universe
Vrátily se vám scény z vaší minulosti?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I understood a much broader picture while I was not in my body. It didn't flood back to me in a visual life passing before my eyes. I went from ignorance instantly to wide awareness - not just of my life circumstances, but also of emotions, my family circumstances, a sense of purpose that I didn't have before. There was no sense of time, just calm sense of knowing what was and also what I needed to do.
Přišly k vám scény z budoucnosti?
Scenes from the world's future I knew my mom was not going to die from her illness.
Dostali jste se k hranici nebo k bodu bez návratu?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Bůh, duchovno a náboženství
Jaké bylo vaše náboženství před vaším zážitkem?
Liberal None
Změnily se vaše náboženské praktiky od vašeho zážitku?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Jaké je vaše náboženství nyní?
Liberal None/Open minded
Došlo k změně vašich hodnot a přesvědčení v důsledku vašeho zážitku?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Zda jste se setkali s mystickou bytostí nebo přítomností, nebo slyšeli neidentifikovatelný hlas?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Viděli jste duše zesnulých nebo náboženské duchy?
I actually saw them
Pokud jde o naše pozemské životy kromě náboženství
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali zvláštní znalosti nebo informace o svém účelu?
Yes I understood my purpose on a different level. The string theory was a no-brainer for me. Somehow, I realized that we are all energy and that solid mass was an illusion.
Změnily se vaše vztahy konkrétně v důsledku vašeho zážitku?
Yes My sister and I have a special connection now.
Po NDE
Bylo obtížné vyjádřit zážitek slovy?
No
Máte po své zkušenosti nějaké psychické, neobvyklé nebo jiné zvláštní dary, které jste před touto zkušeností neměli?
Yes I can pass easily into this area by choice and sometimes wake up after sleeping with memories of being there, flying effortlessly.
Jsou nějaké části vaší zkušenosti, které jsou pro vás obzvlášť významné nebo důležité? Prosím, vysvětlete.
The experience changed my life. It ended the abuse and gave me a huge amount of empathy.
Sdíleli jste tuto zkušenost někdy s ostatními?
Yes I started sharing the near drowning experience with my psychologist at age twenty-one. In the last few months, I have been processing the experience with an emergency doctor and have been able to describe the experience in more detail.
Měli jste nějaké znalosti o zážitku blízkém smrti (NDE) před vaším zážitkem?
No
Co jste si mysleli o realitě vašeho zážitku krátce (dny až týdny) poté, co se to stalo?
Experience was definitely real I knew the experience was real. Soon after that experience, I began researching near death, out of body experiences, channeling and other forms of spirituality. I even did a report in high school where I interviewed a couple of psychics.
Co si nyní myslíte o realitě vašeho zážitku?
Experience was definitely real I view this experience as my life energy moving between planes of consciousness under duress. I view it along the lines of the law of conservation of energy. It states that the total amount of energy in an isolated system remains constant. A consequence of this law is that energy cannot be created or destroyed. The only thing that can happen with energy in an isolated system is that it can change form, that is to say for instance kinetic energy can become thermal energy. Because energy is associated with mass in the Einstein's theory of relativity, the conservation of energy also implies the conservation of mass in isolated systems (that is, the mass of a system cannot change, so long as energy is not permitted to enter or leave the system). Our psychic energy, soul, what have you, is just another form of energy.
Někdy ve vašem životě se něco reprodukovalo jakoukoli část zážitku?
No