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This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
Pozadí informací
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
03/29/2001 4:20 pm Pacific time
Prvky NDE
Byla v době vašeho zážitku přidružená život ohrožující událost?
No. Other: Healthy, Stayed conscious.
Jak považujete obsah svého zážitku?
Entirely pleasant
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Out of body experience
Cítili jste se odděleni od svého těla?
Yes My physical body stayed conscious while operating my vehicle. I have subsequently had veridical OBEs.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Jak se vaše nejvyšší úroveň vědomí a bdělosti během zkušenosti srovnává s vaším normálním každodenním vědomím a bdělostí?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
V jakém okamžiku během zkušenosti jste měl/a nejvyšší úroveň vědomí a bdělosti?
When I was the vast void, let’s say: normal is 11 or so lines of coded information. The vast void had a millions lines of coded information.
Byly vaše myšlenky zrychlené?
Incredibly fast
Zda se čas zdál urychlovat nebo zpomalovat?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Slowed, stopped and went outside of time.
Byly vaše smysly živější než obvykle?
Incredibly more vivid
Prosím, porovnejte svůj zrak během zážitku s každodenním zrakem, který jste měli těsně před tímto zážitkem
I could see 720 degrees and through time and space. I was outside of time and space. Layers and layers of visual information like Photoshop by seeing the image the information of all the layers is self-evident. Also, emotional and other types of information were available.
Prosím, porovnejte svůj sluch během zážitku s každodenním sluchem, který jste měli těsně před tímto zážitkem
The sound also contained layers of additional information and emotion and intensity: it still does.
Měli jste pocit, že jste si vědomi událostí, které se odehrávaly jinde?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Tunnel
Prošli jste tunelem?
Uncertain I saw a beam of white. It came out of the sky and touched me on the shoulder. I felt the tangible touch. I became one with the beam. This beam transitioned me from my body. This was an experience that seems to be functionally equivalent to ‘the tunnel’.
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Presence of deceased persons
Viděli jste ve svém zážitku nějaké bytosti?
I sensed their presence
Setkali jste se nebo si byli vědomi jakýchkoli zesnulých (nebo žijících) bytostí?
No Not in this particular experience, but in many others.
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Void
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Darkness
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Unearthly light
Viděli jste nebo se cítili obklopeni jasným světlem?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Viděli jste nadpozemské světlo?
Yes The Beam was diffused at the top and sharp on the edges and came to a point at my shoulder. Then my body glowed in a bluish white from inside. The field of particles was also sort of light.
Zážitky zahrnovaly
A landscape or city
Zda se ukázalo, že jste vstoupili do nějakého jiného, nadpozemského světa?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The field of particles and the vast void.
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Hellish imagery
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Strong emotional tone
Jaké další emoce jste cítili během zážitku?
Immense Love
Měli jste pocit míru nebo příjemnosti?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Měli jste pocit radosti?
incredible joy
Měli jste pocit harmonie nebo jednoty s vesmírem?
I felt united or one with the world
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Special knowledge or purpose
Měli jste náhle dojem, že rozumíte všemu?
Everything about the universe
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Life review
Vrátily se vám scény z vaší minulosti?
I remembered many past events
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Awareness of the future
Přišly k vám scény z budoucnosti?
Scenes from the world's future Why is this an either or question? I received much information about the future.
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Boundary
Dostali jste se k hranici nebo omezující fyzické struktuře?
Yes There was an event horizon between the fields of particle, and then I went beyond to the vast void.
Dostali jste se k hranici nebo k bodu bez návratu?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will This is a little vague but I did feel like the topic came up and was decided.
Bůh, duchovno a náboženství
Jaký význam jste přikládali svému náboženskému/duchovnímu životu před vaším zážitkem?
Not important to me
Jaké bylo vaše náboženství před vaším zážitkem?
Unaffiliated- Atheist Formerly Catholic but never really believed it during the time I was going through a period of atheism then agnosticism and I was conducting an experiment to experience God.
Změnily se vaše náboženské praktiky od vašeho zážitku?
Yes From doubt to certainty.
Jaký význam přikládáte svému náboženskému/duchovnímu životu po vašem zážitku?
Greatly important to me
Jaké je vaše náboženství nyní?
Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated My knowledge now is beyond all religious limitations. I understand the value of them for others.
Zahrnoval váš zážitek prvky, které byly v souladu s vašimi pozemskými vírami?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience The name "God of Abraham" is obviously from my culture and the beam does show up in the bible several places, but the whole experience is so far beyond anything that is taught in Catholicism it is inconsistent.
Došlo k změně vašich hodnot a přesvědčení v důsledku vašeho zážitku?
Yes God does exist and loves me. My actions matter. I am more aware of my actions and feelings.
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Presence of unearthly beings
Zda jste se setkali s mystickou bytostí nebo přítomností, nebo slyšeli neidentifikovatelný hlas?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard several voices from different locations around me and within me. One said ‘everything will be alright.’ One responding to my unasked question ‘who are you?’ The response: ‘God of Abraham.’
Viděli jste duše zesnulých nebo náboženské duchy?
I sensed their presence
Setkali jste se nebo si byli vědomi bytostí, které dříve žily na Zemi a jsou popisovány jménem v náboženstvích (například: Ježíš, Muhammad, Buddha, atd?)
No Not in this particular experience but in many other expereinces.
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o existenci Boha?
Yes I, as God am uncreated, eternal, have been before this and will remain after.
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o univerzálním spojení nebo jednotě?
Yes We are one!
Věřili jste v existenci Boha před vaším zážitkem?
God probably does not exist
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o existenci Boha?
Yes God Exists. We are in fact God but we chose to forget ourselves.
Věříte v existenci Boha po vašem zážitku?
God definitely exists
Pokud jde o naše pozemské životy kromě náboženství
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali zvláštní znalosti nebo informace o svém účelu?
Yes Omniscient!
Věřili jste, že naše pozemské životy jsou smysluplné a významné před vaším zážitkem?
Are meaningful and significant
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o smyslu života?
Yes We exist to experience. All of creation exists to experience.
Věřili jste v posmrtný život před vaším zážitkem?
An afterlife probably does not exist
Věříte v posmrtný život po vašem zážitku?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes We are so much more that this fluff of biomatter.
Báli jste se smrti před vaším zážitkem?
I greatly feared death
Bojíte se smrti po vašem zážitku?
I do not fear death
Byli jste vystrašeni životem před vaším zážitkem?
Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Byli jste vystrašeni životem po vašem zážitku?
Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Věřili jste, že naše pozemské životy jsou smysluplné a významné před vaším zážitkem?
Are meaningful and significant
Věřili jste, že naše pozemské životy jsou smysluplné a významné po vašem zážitku?
Are meaningful and significant
Získali jste informace o tom, jak žít naše životy?
Yes From the higher perspective it all makes sense, frustrating as it is that we don't remember. It does help to know that.
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o obtížích, výzvách a trápeních života?
Yes Suffering is a mechanism for spiritual evolution which is one of the most valuable experiences to have the experience of learning growing and evolving and we remember who we really are and return home.
Byli jste soucitní před vaším zážitkem?
Slightly compassionate toward others
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o lásce?
Yes Love is the basis of all creation. Love is God. God is Love.
Byli jste soucitní po vašem zážitku?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Jaké životní změny nastaly ve vašem životě po vašem zážitku?
Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I felt horrible working for corrupt corporations and challenged their behavior. That did not go over very well. I have a difficult time receiving money now. It is a work in progress.
Změnily se vaše vztahy konkrétně v důsledku vašeho zážitku?
Uncertain Uncertain I am still a hot mess when it comes to relationships. But I hope there is a much stronger connection with some.
Po NDE
Bylo obtížné vyjádřit zážitek slovy?
Yes There is creation beyond anything in the physical universe.
Jak přesně si pamatujete zážitek ve srovnání s jinými událostmi v životě, které se staly v době vašeho zážitku?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It's more clear and more intense as a memory than reality is as reality.
Máte po své zkušenosti nějaké psychické, neobvyklé nebo jiné zvláštní dary, které jste před touto zkušeností neměli?
Yes I can talk to the sun and the sun answers. I can feel solar flares and other fluctuations in the magnetic field. I have prophetic dreams and visions. I’m hugely empathic.
Jsou nějaké části vaší zkušenosti, které jsou pro vás obzvlášť významné nebo důležité? Prosím, vysvětlete.
The field of particles that is the substructure of the universe has not yet been validated by science, but it will. In 2013, UCLA imaged the atoms of platinum and it looks the same as the field I saw. I feel that is because atomic structure is built on the framework of the field.
Sdíleli jste tuto zkušenost někdy s ostatními?
Yes A couple of days after, I told my friend who believed me because she had already had an OBE.
Měli jste nějaké znalosti o zážitku blízkém smrti (NDE) před vaším zážitkem?
Yes I had seen this awesome site; and read a few of the stories. I had also seen TV show about it.
Co jste si mysleli o realitě vašeho zážitku krátce (dny až týdny) poté, co se to stalo?
Experience was definitely real It was absolutely real but I still wanted to meet someone else who had experienced it.
Co si nyní myslíte o realitě vašeho zážitku?
Experience was definitely real Validation, Validation, Validation. Other people have experienced similar and almost identical experiences.
Někdy ve vašem životě se něco reprodukovalo jakoukoli část zážitku?
Yes I have since had many OBEs: Fully through layers of heaven, hell and the vast void.
Je něco dalšího, co byste chtěli dodat o svém zážitku?
I never was close to death but it is still an NDE because of the spiritual elements. Also it is not enlightenment because I did not have spiritual guides and community. It is not just an OBE from sleeping because I was fully conscious. It does not really fit any category. I also felt most at home with NDE, as opposed to any other group.