Popis zážitku
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Pozadí informací
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
Prvky NDE
Byla v době vašeho zážitku přidružená život ohrožující událost?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Jak považujete obsah svého zážitku?
Entirely pleasant
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Out of body experience
Cítili jste se odděleni od svého těla?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Jak se vaše nejvyšší úroveň vědomí a bdělosti během zkušenosti srovnává s vaším normálním každodenním vědomím a bdělostí?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
V jakém okamžiku během zkušenosti jste měl/a nejvyšší úroveň vědomí a bdělosti?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Byly vaše myšlenky zrychlené?
Faster than usual
Zda se čas zdál urychlovat nebo zpomalovat?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Byly vaše smysly živější než obvykle?
Incredibly more vivid
Prosím, porovnejte svůj zrak během zážitku s každodenním zrakem, který jste měli těsně před tímto zážitkem
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Prosím, porovnejte svůj sluch během zážitku s každodenním sluchem, který jste měli těsně před tímto zážitkem
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Měli jste pocit, že jste si vědomi událostí, které se odehrávaly jinde?
No
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Tunnel
Prošli jste tunelem?
Yes The hallway
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Presence of deceased persons
Viděli jste ve svém zážitku nějaké bytosti?
I actually saw them
Setkali jste se nebo si byli vědomi jakýchkoli zesnulých (nebo žijících) bytostí?
Yes No relatives
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Unearthly light
Viděli jste nebo se cítili obklopeni jasným světlem?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Viděli jste nadpozemské světlo?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Zážitky zahrnovaly
A landscape or city
Zda se ukázalo, že jste vstoupili do nějakého jiného, nadpozemského světa?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Strong emotional tone
Jaké další emoce jste cítili během zážitku?
Elated
Měli jste pocit míru nebo příjemnosti?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Měli jste pocit radosti?
incredible joy
Měli jste pocit harmonie nebo jednoty s vesmírem?
I felt united or one with the world
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Special knowledge or purpose
Měli jste náhle dojem, že rozumíte všemu?
No
Vrátily se vám scény z vaší minulosti?
No
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Awareness of the future
Přišly k vám scény z budoucnosti?
Scenes from my personal future
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Boundary
Dostali jste se k hranici nebo omezující fyzické struktuře?
Yes
Dostali jste se k hranici nebo k bodu bez návratu?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Bůh, duchovno a náboženství
Jaký význam jste přikládali svému náboženskému/duchovnímu životu před vaším zážitkem?
Greatly important to me
Jaké bylo vaše náboženství před vaším zážitkem?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Změnily se vaše náboženské praktiky od vašeho zážitku?
Yes They are more grounded.
Jaký význam přikládáte svému náboženskému/duchovnímu životu po vašem zážitku?
Greatly important to me
Jaké je vaše náboženství nyní?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Zahrnoval váš zážitek prvky, které byly v souladu s vašimi pozemskými vírami?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Došlo k změně vašich hodnot a přesvědčení v důsledku vašeho zážitku?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Zážitky zahrnovaly
Presence of unearthly beings
Zda jste se setkali s mystickou bytostí nebo přítomností, nebo slyšeli neidentifikovatelný hlas?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Viděli jste duše zesnulých nebo náboženské duchy?
I actually saw them
Setkali jste se nebo si byli vědomi bytostí, které dříve žily na Zemi a jsou popisovány jménem v náboženstvích (například: Ježíš, Muhammad, Buddha, atd?)
No
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o existenci Boha?
No
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o univerzálním spojení nebo jednotě?
Yes
Věřili jste v existenci Boha před vaším zážitkem?
God definitely exists
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o existenci Boha?
Yes the love was in everything.
Věříte v existenci Boha po vašem zážitku?
God definitely exists
Pokud jde o naše pozemské životy kromě náboženství
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali zvláštní znalosti nebo informace o svém účelu?
Yes
Věřili jste, že naše pozemské životy jsou smysluplné a významné před vaším zážitkem?
Are meaningful and significant
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o smyslu života?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Věřili jste v posmrtný život před vaším zážitkem?
An afterlife definitely exists
Věříte v posmrtný život po vašem zážitku?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Báli jste se smrti před vaším zážitkem?
I moderately feared death
Bojíte se smrti po vašem zážitku?
I do not fear death
Byli jste vystrašeni životem před vaším zážitkem?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Byli jste vystrašeni životem po vašem zážitku?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Věřili jste, že naše pozemské životy jsou smysluplné a významné před vaším zážitkem?
Are meaningful and significant
Věřili jste, že naše pozemské životy jsou smysluplné a významné po vašem zážitku?
Are meaningful and significant
Získali jste informace o tom, jak žít naše životy?
No
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o obtížích, výzvách a trápeních života?
No
Byli jste soucitní před vaším zážitkem?
Moderately compassionate toward others
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o lásce?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Byli jste soucitní po vašem zážitku?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Jaké životní změny nastaly ve vašem životě po vašem zážitku?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Změnily se vaše vztahy konkrétně v důsledku vašeho zážitku?
No No
Po NDE
Bylo obtížné vyjádřit zážitek slovy?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Jak přesně si pamatujete zážitek ve srovnání s jinými událostmi v životě, které se staly v době vašeho zážitku?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Máte po své zkušenosti nějaké psychické, neobvyklé nebo jiné zvláštní dary, které jste před touto zkušeností neměli?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Jsou nějaké části vaší zkušenosti, které jsou pro vás obzvlášť významné nebo důležité? Prosím, vysvětlete.
The love
Sdíleli jste tuto zkušenost někdy s ostatními?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Měli jste nějaké znalosti o zážitku blízkém smrti (NDE) před vaším zážitkem?
No
Co jste si mysleli o realitě vašeho zážitku krátce (dny až týdny) poté, co se to stalo?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Co si nyní myslíte o realitě vašeho zážitku?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Někdy ve vašem životě se něco reprodukovalo jakoukoli část zážitku?
No
Je něco dalšího, co byste chtěli dodat o svém zážitku?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.