Popis zážitku
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Pozadí informací
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
Prvky NDE
Byla v době vašeho zážitku přidružená život ohrožující událost?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Jak považujete obsah svého zážitku?
Entirely distressing
Cítili jste se odděleni od svého těla?
No
No
Jak se vaše nejvyšší úroveň vědomí a bdělosti během zkušenosti srovnává s vaším normálním každodenním vědomím a bdělostí?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
V jakém okamžiku během zkušenosti jste měl/a nejvyšší úroveň vědomí a bdělosti?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Byly vaše myšlenky zrychlené?
Incredibly fast
Zda se čas zdál urychlovat nebo zpomalovat?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Byly vaše smysly živější než obvykle?
Incredibly more vivid
Prosím, porovnejte svůj zrak během zážitku s každodenním zrakem, který jste měli těsně před tímto zážitkem
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Prosím, porovnejte svůj sluch během zážitku s každodenním sluchem, který jste měli těsně před tímto zážitkem
I don't know.
Měli jste pocit, že jste si vědomi událostí, které se odehrávaly jinde?
No
Prošli jste tunelem?
No
Viděli jste ve svém zážitku nějaké bytosti?
No
Setkali jste se nebo si byli vědomi jakýchkoli zesnulých (nebo žijících) bytostí?
No
Viděli jste nebo se cítili obklopeni jasným světlem?
No
Viděli jste nadpozemské světlo?
No
Zda se ukázalo, že jste vstoupili do nějakého jiného, nadpozemského světa?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Jaké další emoce jste cítili během zážitku?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Měli jste pocit míru nebo příjemnosti?
No
Měli jste pocit radosti?
No
Měli jste pocit harmonie nebo jednoty s vesmírem?
No
Měli jste náhle dojem, že rozumíte všemu?
No
Vrátily se vám scény z vaší minulosti?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Přišly k vám scény z budoucnosti?
No
Dostali jste se k hranici nebo k bodu bez návratu?
No
Bůh, duchovno a náboženství
Jaké bylo vaše náboženství před vaším zážitkem?
Christian- Catholic
Změnily se vaše náboženské praktiky od vašeho zážitku?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Jaké je vaše náboženství nyní?
Buddhist
Zahrnoval váš zážitek prvky, které byly v souladu s vašimi pozemskými vírami?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Došlo k změně vašich hodnot a přesvědčení v důsledku vašeho zážitku?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Zda jste se setkali s mystickou bytostí nebo přítomností, nebo slyšeli neidentifikovatelný hlas?
No
Viděli jste duše zesnulých nebo náboženské duchy?
No
Setkali jste se nebo si byli vědomi bytostí, které dříve žily na Zemi a jsou popisovány jménem v náboženstvích (například: Ježíš, Muhammad, Buddha, atd?)
No
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o existenci Boha?
No
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o univerzálním spojení nebo jednotě?
No
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o existenci Boha?
No
Pokud jde o naše pozemské životy kromě náboženství
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali zvláštní znalosti nebo informace o svém účelu?
No
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o smyslu života?
No
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o posmrtném životě?
No
Získali jste informace o tom, jak žít naše životy?
No
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o obtížích, výzvách a trápeních života?
No
Během vašeho zážitku jste získali informace o lásce?
No
Jaké životní změny nastaly ve vašem životě po vašem zážitku?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Po NDE
Bylo obtížné vyjádřit zážitek slovy?
No
Jak přesně si pamatujete zážitek ve srovnání s jinými událostmi v životě, které se staly v době vašeho zážitku?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Máte po své zkušenosti nějaké psychické, neobvyklé nebo jiné zvláštní dary, které jste před touto zkušeností neměli?
No
Jsou nějaké části vaší zkušenosti, které jsou pro vás obzvlášť významné nebo důležité? Prosím, vysvětlete.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Sdíleli jste tuto zkušenost někdy s ostatními?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Měli jste nějaké znalosti o zážitku blízkém smrti (NDE) před vaším zážitkem?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Co jste si mysleli o realitě vašeho zážitku krátce (dny až týdny) poté, co se to stalo?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Co si nyní myslíte o realitě vašeho zážitku?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Někdy ve vašem životě se něco reprodukovalo jakoukoli část zážitku?
No
Je něco dalšího, co byste chtěli dodat o svém zážitku?
No