Beskrivelse af oplevelsen
I was aware that I was coming round from the operation. I began to hear the voices of the surgeon and staff first, and heard them say, 'Breathe Paul! Breathe!' I heard them saying that they would apply air via a tube but I was completely unable and unwilling to even try to breathe. My body was a dead weight, which seemed to have nothing to do with 'me'. What happened next seemed to me to last about an hour, although it was only seconds.
I felt that my mind was about four feet to the right of my head. I knew that I was still in the operating theatre, but I was no longer part of it. Suddenly, I felt as if someone was pushing me gently from behind. 'It's your turn,' said a voice and I was very surprised, as I'd had the impression that I was at the end of a long, long line of people (who I couldn't see but only sensed). The feeling was just like being sent to the front of the queue at a supermarket check in, I remember - pleasant surprise.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
Baggrundsinformation
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/10/02
NDE Elementer
Var der på tidspunktet for din oplevelse en tilknyttet livstruende begivenhed?
Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death My throat closed up and I couldn't breathe.
Hvordan betragter du indholdet af din oplevelse?
Mixed
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Out of body experience
Følte du dig adskilt fra din krop?
Yes I was aware of my body lying there but didn't see it as I was looking elsewhere.
På hvilket tidspunkt under oplevelsen var du på dit højeste niveau af bevidsthed og årvågenhed?
Explained above.
Virker det som om tiden gik hurtigere eller langsommere?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything was different, but the same. The 'here' and 'now' are one place. The same with time. It's all the same. There's no linear time. No space as we know it.
Var din hørelse på nogen måde anderledes end normalt?
The voices of the staff faded away, but there was no sound. I seemed to 'mind read' the words I heard and spoke.
Passerede du ind i eller gennem en tunnel?
No
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Presence of deceased persons
Mødte eller blev du opmærksom på afdøde (eller levende) væsener?
Yes Someone was behind me, guiding me, but I never saw them. They were neither male or female, it was just 'someone'. I cannot describe the voice, as it was not audible. I 'mind read' their words.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Darkness
Så du et overjordisk lys?
No The opposite. I saw a blackness, but it was welcoming and not frightening. The way you like the dark if you have a migraine.
Syntes du at træde ind i en anden, overjordisk verden?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Described above.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Strong emotional tone
Hvilke andre følelser følte du under oplevelsen?
Surprise then utter bliss. Complete indifference to what was happening to my body. Confusion and disappointment at coming back.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Special Knowledge
Virker det som om du pludselig forstod alting?
Everything about the universe There's a time for everything. A role for everyone. A reason for everything. The purpose of life is not just our own happiness.
Kom scener fra din fortid tilbage til dig?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I felt no power. Others had the power; I felt as if I was 'following orders' and was very happy to do so.
Kom scener fra fremtiden til dig?
No
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Boundary
Nåede du en grænse eller en begrænsende fysisk struktur?
Uncertain Big open doorway, comforting soothing blackness beyond. No fear. I was going towards it, but came back.
Kom du til en grænse eller et punkt uden retur?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I didn't want to return to my body, but was forced.
Gud, spiritualitet og religion
Hvad var din religion før din oplevelse?
Liberal
Hvad er din religion nu?
Liberal
Har du oplevet en ændring i dine værdier og overbevisninger på grund af din oplevelse?
No
Efter Nær Døden Oplevelsen
Var oplevelsen vanskelig at udtrykke med ord?
Yes The sudden change of feelings and the sense that time was dislocated. I was not dead but I was out of my body.
Har du nogen psykiske, usædvanlige eller andre specielle gaver efter din oplevelse, som du ikke havde før oplevelsen?
No
Er der en eller flere dele af din oplevelse, der er særligt meningsfulde eller betydningsfulde for dig? Forklar venligst.
Best - bliss of being out of the body. Worst - being dragged back.
Har du nogensinde delt denne oplevelse med andre?
Yes The doctors said it's just a symptom of the anesthesia. Some friends were obviously nervous about it, didn't like to talk about death etc.! My daughter was scared too. No one seems to feel like I do about it all.
Har noget på noget tidspunkt i dit liv reproduceret nogen del af oplevelsen?
No Not since but BEFORE, when I was seven. During a tonsils operation, I could see the doctors and nurses working on my body as I hovered near the ceiling. I recalled that they wore green clothes (which they only wore in the theatre and which of course I'd never seen before).
Er der andre spørgsmål, vi kan stille for at hjælpe dig med at kommunikere din oplevelse?
If the person had had any similar experiences BEFORE the one they're relating.