Beskrivelse af oplevelsen
1995 - In the intensive care unit, curtain surrounding the bathroom area, light began emitting from behind the curtain (sort of 'Wizard of Oz'-like - no noise, just light and vibration). Knew a presence wished to come into room. Knew by the indescribable quality and feeling of light it was God, as I know him. I asked him 'not now', please my children (I am single parent of two, one disabled through leukemia at four, no family but me. I asked for more time, responsibility of visit too frightening. He/she/it immediately acquiesced. I always regretted it.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
Baggrundsinformation
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
(2) in 2000
NDE Elementer
Var der på tidspunktet for din oplevelse en tilknyttet livstruende begivenhed?
Yes Heart attack Open heart surgery, 3 open hearts in three days in April and In November Complete cardiac and respiratory arrest due to CHF Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Had heart attack in 1995. Had experience in the intensive care unit but willed it away, too scary, always regretted it but had children who needed me. In 2005 had multiple bypass, which did not go well, three open heart surgeries in three days due to hemorrhaging. On respirator for forty-five days. Many journeys and experiences throughout that period in April/May. In November had complete respiratory and cardiac arrest. Another experience.
Hvordan betragter du indholdet af din oplevelse?
Mixed
Følte du dig adskilt fra din krop?
Yes
I lost awareness of my body
Hvordan var dit højeste niveau af bevidsthed og årvågenhed under oplevelsen sammenlignet med din normale hverdagsbevidsthed og årvågenhed?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was much more real. I know that doesn't make much sense.
På hvilket tidspunkt under oplevelsen var du på dit højeste niveau af bevidsthed og årvågenhed?
In presence of the main God, light, vibration. But most of all in tunnel when choice had to be made. I was tired.
Gik dine tanker hurtigere?
Neither
Virker det som om tiden gik hurtigere eller langsommere?
Neither I have what I call 'Swiss cheese for brains'. Some things are missing or dropped.
Var dine sanser mere levende end normalt?
Neither
Sammenlign venligst dit syn under oplevelsen med dit almindelige syn, som du havde umiddelbart før oplevelsen startede
Colors perfect, things and places seen without flaw, almost undisturbed. Every petal of every flower perfect. No decay of any kind. Transparency somehow changed and music without time. Couldn't explain that one in a million years wouldn't know where to begin.
Sammenlign venligst din hørelse under oplevelsen med din almindelige hørelse der du havde umiddelbart før oplevelsen startede
It was hearing but not auditory exactly all the time.
Syntes du at være opmærksom på ting, der foregik andre steder?
Neither
Passerede du ind i eller gennem en tunnel?
Yes Already described.
Så du nogen væsener i din oplevelse?
Saw them
Mødte eller blev du opmærksom på afdøde (eller levende) væsener?
Yes Already described.
Så du eller følte du dig omgivet af et strålende lys?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Så du et overjordisk lys?
Yes Already described.
Syntes du at træde ind i en anden, overjordisk verden?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm already described some. many more, lots of travel and sights
Hvilke andre følelser følte du under oplevelsen?
Wonder, joy, fear, trust, grateful, small, big, powerful, powerless, amazed, graced, light, open, peaceful, inquisitive and loved and loving. Perfectly in tune.
Følte du en følelse af fred eller behag?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Følte du en følelse af glæde?
Incredible joy
Følte du en følelse af harmoni eller enhed med universet?
United, one with the world
Virker det som om du pludselig forstod alting?
Everything about the universe
Kom scener fra din fortid tilbage til dig?
Remembered many past events Life review takes place through the feelings and emotions of others in any given moment in time. We experience and feel whatever we created in that moment for them. I am much more sensitive.
Kom scener fra fremtiden til dig?
From the world's future
Very private.
Kom du til en grænse eller et punkt uden retur?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
Gud, spiritualitet og religion
Hvad var din religion før din oplevelse?
Moderate Raised catholic, believe in collective unconscious, a higher power have had unusual, unexplainable experiences throughout life making conservative organized religious experience not acceptable.
Har dine religiøse praksisser ændret sig siden din oplevelse?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Hvad er din religion nu?
Liberal Have conscious contact w/ higher power daily, pray and meditate daily, use Native American Medicine Wheel for healing/teaching. Use ancient esoteric teachings from stones crystals given by Native American grandma turned good catholic when she was a young
Har du oplevet en ændring i dine værdier og overbevisninger på grund af din oplevelse?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Mødte du et mystisk væsen eller tilstedeværelse, eller hørte du en uidentificerbar stemme?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Så du afdøde eller religiøse ånder?
Saw them
Vedrørende vores jordiske liv bortset fra religion
Fik du under din oplevelse særlig viden eller information om dit formål?
Yes Very private.
Har dine forhold ændret sig specifikt som følge af din oplevelse?
Yes I am much more willing just to be me without pretense, walls or protections that we humans erect to protect ourselves from REALLY being seen.
Efter Nær Døden Oplevelsen
Var oplevelsen vanskelig at udtrykke med ord?
Yes We don't have words in our vocabulary that express the 'energetic colors of vibration' emitted by 'higher being'. The emotional quality of 'feeling state' beyond measure or words. Information received so simple, yet so complicated it would take hours to verbalize. Recognition of persons in tunnel already 'passed over' (I think) so familiar, yet didn't recognize a one. Saw my grandma no words. Couldn't see 'God', but saw energy emitting and felt enormous vibration and felt emotional presence and vibration throughout life review.
Har du nogen psykiske, usædvanlige eller andre specielle gaver efter din oplevelse, som du ikke havde før oplevelsen?
Yes Personal.
Er der en eller flere dele af din oplevelse, der er særligt meningsfulde eller betydningsfulde for dig? Forklar venligst.
Oh my God, are you kidding? Too personal for a computer screen.
Har du nogensinde delt denne oplevelse med andre?
Yes Immediately. Sure, reactions were mixed. I hope they were influenced.
Havde du kendskab til nærdødsoplevelser (NDE) før din oplevelse?
Uncertain After my mother died I had and my son had a 'dreamlike' waking encounter.
Hvad troede du om realiteten af din oplevelse kort tid (dage til uger) efter den skete?
Experience was definitely real It was more real that what's here in my consciousness on a daily basis and I stay as connected as possible daily.
Hvad tror du nu om virkeligheden af din oplevelse?
Experience was definitely real It affects me in every moment.
Har noget på noget tidspunkt i dit liv reproduceret nogen del af oplevelsen?
No