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This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
Baggrundsinformation
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
03/29/2001 4:20 pm Pacific time
NDE Elementer
Var der på tidspunktet for din oplevelse en tilknyttet livstruende begivenhed?
No. Other: Healthy, Stayed conscious.
Hvordan betragter du indholdet af din oplevelse?
Entirely pleasant
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Out of body experience
Følte du dig adskilt fra din krop?
Yes My physical body stayed conscious while operating my vehicle. I have subsequently had veridical OBEs.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hvordan var dit højeste niveau af bevidsthed og årvågenhed under oplevelsen sammenlignet med din normale hverdagsbevidsthed og årvågenhed?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
På hvilket tidspunkt under oplevelsen var du på dit højeste niveau af bevidsthed og årvågenhed?
When I was the vast void, let’s say: normal is 11 or so lines of coded information. The vast void had a millions lines of coded information.
Gik dine tanker hurtigere?
Incredibly fast
Virker det som om tiden gik hurtigere eller langsommere?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Slowed, stopped and went outside of time.
Var dine sanser mere levende end normalt?
Incredibly more vivid
Sammenlign venligst dit syn under oplevelsen med dit almindelige syn, som du havde umiddelbart før oplevelsen startede
I could see 720 degrees and through time and space. I was outside of time and space. Layers and layers of visual information like Photoshop by seeing the image the information of all the layers is self-evident. Also, emotional and other types of information were available.
Sammenlign venligst din hørelse under oplevelsen med din almindelige hørelse der du havde umiddelbart før oplevelsen startede
The sound also contained layers of additional information and emotion and intensity: it still does.
Syntes du at være opmærksom på ting, der foregik andre steder?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Tunnel
Passerede du ind i eller gennem en tunnel?
Uncertain I saw a beam of white. It came out of the sky and touched me on the shoulder. I felt the tangible touch. I became one with the beam. This beam transitioned me from my body. This was an experience that seems to be functionally equivalent to ‘the tunnel’.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Presence of deceased persons
Så du nogen væsener i din oplevelse?
I sensed their presence
Mødte eller blev du opmærksom på afdøde (eller levende) væsener?
No Not in this particular experience, but in many others.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Void
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Darkness
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Unearthly light
Så du eller følte du dig omgivet af et strålende lys?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Så du et overjordisk lys?
Yes The Beam was diffused at the top and sharp on the edges and came to a point at my shoulder. Then my body glowed in a bluish white from inside. The field of particles was also sort of light.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
A landscape or city
Syntes du at træde ind i en anden, overjordisk verden?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The field of particles and the vast void.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Hellish imagery
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Strong emotional tone
Hvilke andre følelser følte du under oplevelsen?
Immense Love
Følte du en følelse af fred eller behag?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Følte du en følelse af glæde?
incredible joy
Følte du en følelse af harmoni eller enhed med universet?
I felt united or one with the world
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Special knowledge or purpose
Virker det som om du pludselig forstod alting?
Everything about the universe
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Life review
Kom scener fra din fortid tilbage til dig?
I remembered many past events
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Awareness of the future
Kom scener fra fremtiden til dig?
Scenes from the world's future Why is this an either or question? I received much information about the future.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Boundary
Nåede du en grænse eller en begrænsende fysisk struktur?
Yes There was an event horizon between the fields of particle, and then I went beyond to the vast void.
Kom du til en grænse eller et punkt uden retur?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will This is a little vague but I did feel like the topic came up and was decided.
Gud, spiritualitet og religion
Hvilken betydning tillagde du dit religiøse/spirituelle liv før din oplevelse?
Not important to me
Hvad var din religion før din oplevelse?
Unaffiliated- Atheist Formerly Catholic but never really believed it during the time I was going through a period of atheism then agnosticism and I was conducting an experiment to experience God.
Har dine religiøse praksisser ændret sig siden din oplevelse?
Yes From doubt to certainty.
Hvilken betydning tillægger du dit religiøse/spirituelle liv efter din oplevelse?
Greatly important to me
Hvad er din religion nu?
Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated My knowledge now is beyond all religious limitations. I understand the value of them for others.
Inkluderede din oplevelse elementer, der var i overensstemmelse med din jordiske overbevisning?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience The name "God of Abraham" is obviously from my culture and the beam does show up in the bible several places, but the whole experience is so far beyond anything that is taught in Catholicism it is inconsistent.
Har du oplevet en ændring i dine værdier og overbevisninger på grund af din oplevelse?
Yes God does exist and loves me. My actions matter. I am more aware of my actions and feelings.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Presence of unearthly beings
Mødte du et mystisk væsen eller tilstedeværelse, eller hørte du en uidentificerbar stemme?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard several voices from different locations around me and within me. One said ‘everything will be alright.’ One responding to my unasked question ‘who are you?’ The response: ‘God of Abraham.’
Så du afdøde eller religiøse ånder?
I sensed their presence
Mødte du eller blev du opmærksom på væsener, der tidligere har levet på jorden, og som er beskrevet ved navn i religioner (for eksempel: Jesus, Muhammed, Buddha osv.)?
No Not in this particular experience but in many other expereinces.
Fik du under din oplevelse information om Guds eksistens?
Yes I, as God am uncreated, eternal, have been before this and will remain after.
Fik du under din oplevelse information om universel forbindelse eller samhørighed?
Yes We are one!
Troede du på Guds eksistens før din oplevelse?
God probably does not exist
Fik du under din oplevelse information om Guds eksistens?
Yes God Exists. We are in fact God but we chose to forget ourselves.
Tror du på Guds eksistens efter din oplevelse?
God definitely exists
Vedrørende vores jordiske liv bortset fra religion
Fik du under din oplevelse særlig viden eller information om dit formål?
Yes Omniscient!
Troede du, at vores jordiske liv er meningsfulde og betydningsfulde før din oplevelse?
Are meaningful and significant
Fik du under din oplevelse information om meningen med livet?
Yes We exist to experience. All of creation exists to experience.
Troede du på et liv efter døden før din oplevelse?
An afterlife probably does not exist
Tror du på et liv efter døden efter din oplevelse?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes We are so much more that this fluff of biomatter.
Frygtede du døden før din oplevelse?
I greatly feared death
Frygter du døden efter din oplevelse?
I do not fear death
Var du bange for at leve dit liv før din oplevelse?
Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Var du bange for at leve dit liv efter din oplevelse?
Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Troede du, at vores jordiske liv er meningsfulde og betydningsfulde før din oplevelse?
Are meaningful and significant
Troede du, at vores jordiske liv er meningsfulde og betydningsfulde efter din oplevelse?
Are meaningful and significant
Fik du information om, hvordan vi skal leve vores liv?
Yes From the higher perspective it all makes sense, frustrating as it is that we don't remember. It does help to know that.
Fik du under din oplevelse information om livets vanskeligheder, udfordringer og strabadser?
Yes Suffering is a mechanism for spiritual evolution which is one of the most valuable experiences to have the experience of learning growing and evolving and we remember who we really are and return home.
Var du medfølende før din oplevelse?
Slightly compassionate toward others
Fik du under din oplevelse information om kærlighed?
Yes Love is the basis of all creation. Love is God. God is Love.
Var du medfølende efter din oplevelse?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Hvilke livsændringer er der sket i dit liv efter din oplevelse?
Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I felt horrible working for corrupt corporations and challenged their behavior. That did not go over very well. I have a difficult time receiving money now. It is a work in progress.
Har dine forhold ændret sig specifikt som følge af din oplevelse?
Uncertain Uncertain I am still a hot mess when it comes to relationships. But I hope there is a much stronger connection with some.
Efter Nær Døden Oplevelsen
Var oplevelsen vanskelig at udtrykke med ord?
Yes There is creation beyond anything in the physical universe.
Hvor præcist husker du oplevelsen sammenlignet med andre livsbegivenheder, der fandt sted omkring tidspunktet for oplevelsen?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It's more clear and more intense as a memory than reality is as reality.
Har du nogen psykiske, usædvanlige eller andre specielle gaver efter din oplevelse, som du ikke havde før oplevelsen?
Yes I can talk to the sun and the sun answers. I can feel solar flares and other fluctuations in the magnetic field. I have prophetic dreams and visions. I’m hugely empathic.
Er der en eller flere dele af din oplevelse, der er særligt meningsfulde eller betydningsfulde for dig? Forklar venligst.
The field of particles that is the substructure of the universe has not yet been validated by science, but it will. In 2013, UCLA imaged the atoms of platinum and it looks the same as the field I saw. I feel that is because atomic structure is built on the framework of the field.
Har du nogensinde delt denne oplevelse med andre?
Yes A couple of days after, I told my friend who believed me because she had already had an OBE.
Havde du kendskab til nærdødsoplevelser (NDE) før din oplevelse?
Yes I had seen this awesome site; and read a few of the stories. I had also seen TV show about it.
Hvad troede du om realiteten af din oplevelse kort tid (dage til uger) efter den skete?
Experience was definitely real It was absolutely real but I still wanted to meet someone else who had experienced it.
Hvad tror du nu om virkeligheden af din oplevelse?
Experience was definitely real Validation, Validation, Validation. Other people have experienced similar and almost identical experiences.
Har noget på noget tidspunkt i dit liv reproduceret nogen del af oplevelsen?
Yes I have since had many OBEs: Fully through layers of heaven, hell and the vast void.
Er der andet, du gerne vil tilføje om din oplevelse?
I never was close to death but it is still an NDE because of the spiritual elements. Also it is not enlightenment because I did not have spiritual guides and community. It is not just an OBE from sleeping because I was fully conscious. It does not really fit any category. I also felt most at home with NDE, as opposed to any other group.