Beskrivelse af oplevelsen
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Baggrundsinformation
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
NDE Elementer
Var der på tidspunktet for din oplevelse en tilknyttet livstruende begivenhed?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Hvordan betragter du indholdet af din oplevelse?
Entirely pleasant
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Out of body experience
Følte du dig adskilt fra din krop?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hvordan var dit højeste niveau af bevidsthed og årvågenhed under oplevelsen sammenlignet med din normale hverdagsbevidsthed og årvågenhed?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
På hvilket tidspunkt under oplevelsen var du på dit højeste niveau af bevidsthed og årvågenhed?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Gik dine tanker hurtigere?
Faster than usual
Virker det som om tiden gik hurtigere eller langsommere?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Var dine sanser mere levende end normalt?
Incredibly more vivid
Sammenlign venligst dit syn under oplevelsen med dit almindelige syn, som du havde umiddelbart før oplevelsen startede
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Sammenlign venligst din hørelse under oplevelsen med din almindelige hørelse der du havde umiddelbart før oplevelsen startede
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Syntes du at være opmærksom på ting, der foregik andre steder?
No
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Tunnel
Passerede du ind i eller gennem en tunnel?
Yes The hallway
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Presence of deceased persons
Så du nogen væsener i din oplevelse?
I actually saw them
Mødte eller blev du opmærksom på afdøde (eller levende) væsener?
Yes No relatives
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Unearthly light
Så du eller følte du dig omgivet af et strålende lys?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Så du et overjordisk lys?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
A landscape or city
Syntes du at træde ind i en anden, overjordisk verden?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Strong emotional tone
Hvilke andre følelser følte du under oplevelsen?
Elated
Følte du en følelse af fred eller behag?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Følte du en følelse af glæde?
incredible joy
Følte du en følelse af harmoni eller enhed med universet?
I felt united or one with the world
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Special knowledge or purpose
Virker det som om du pludselig forstod alting?
No
Kom scener fra din fortid tilbage til dig?
No
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Awareness of the future
Kom scener fra fremtiden til dig?
Scenes from my personal future
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Boundary
Nåede du en grænse eller en begrænsende fysisk struktur?
Yes
Kom du til en grænse eller et punkt uden retur?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Gud, spiritualitet og religion
Hvilken betydning tillagde du dit religiøse/spirituelle liv før din oplevelse?
Greatly important to me
Hvad var din religion før din oplevelse?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Har dine religiøse praksisser ændret sig siden din oplevelse?
Yes They are more grounded.
Hvilken betydning tillægger du dit religiøse/spirituelle liv efter din oplevelse?
Greatly important to me
Hvad er din religion nu?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Inkluderede din oplevelse elementer, der var i overensstemmelse med din jordiske overbevisning?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Har du oplevet en ændring i dine værdier og overbevisninger på grund af din oplevelse?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Oplevelsen inkluderede
Presence of unearthly beings
Mødte du et mystisk væsen eller tilstedeværelse, eller hørte du en uidentificerbar stemme?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Så du afdøde eller religiøse ånder?
I actually saw them
Mødte du eller blev du opmærksom på væsener, der tidligere har levet på jorden, og som er beskrevet ved navn i religioner (for eksempel: Jesus, Muhammed, Buddha osv.)?
No
Fik du under din oplevelse information om Guds eksistens?
No
Fik du under din oplevelse information om universel forbindelse eller samhørighed?
Yes
Troede du på Guds eksistens før din oplevelse?
God definitely exists
Fik du under din oplevelse information om Guds eksistens?
Yes the love was in everything.
Tror du på Guds eksistens efter din oplevelse?
God definitely exists
Vedrørende vores jordiske liv bortset fra religion
Fik du under din oplevelse særlig viden eller information om dit formål?
Yes
Troede du, at vores jordiske liv er meningsfulde og betydningsfulde før din oplevelse?
Are meaningful and significant
Fik du under din oplevelse information om meningen med livet?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Troede du på et liv efter døden før din oplevelse?
An afterlife definitely exists
Tror du på et liv efter døden efter din oplevelse?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Frygtede du døden før din oplevelse?
I moderately feared death
Frygter du døden efter din oplevelse?
I do not fear death
Var du bange for at leve dit liv før din oplevelse?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Var du bange for at leve dit liv efter din oplevelse?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Troede du, at vores jordiske liv er meningsfulde og betydningsfulde før din oplevelse?
Are meaningful and significant
Troede du, at vores jordiske liv er meningsfulde og betydningsfulde efter din oplevelse?
Are meaningful and significant
Fik du information om, hvordan vi skal leve vores liv?
No
Fik du under din oplevelse information om livets vanskeligheder, udfordringer og strabadser?
No
Var du medfølende før din oplevelse?
Moderately compassionate toward others
Fik du under din oplevelse information om kærlighed?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Var du medfølende efter din oplevelse?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Hvilke livsændringer er der sket i dit liv efter din oplevelse?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Har dine forhold ændret sig specifikt som følge af din oplevelse?
No No
Efter Nær Døden Oplevelsen
Var oplevelsen vanskelig at udtrykke med ord?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Hvor præcist husker du oplevelsen sammenlignet med andre livsbegivenheder, der fandt sted omkring tidspunktet for oplevelsen?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Har du nogen psykiske, usædvanlige eller andre specielle gaver efter din oplevelse, som du ikke havde før oplevelsen?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Er der en eller flere dele af din oplevelse, der er særligt meningsfulde eller betydningsfulde for dig? Forklar venligst.
The love
Har du nogensinde delt denne oplevelse med andre?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Havde du kendskab til nærdødsoplevelser (NDE) før din oplevelse?
No
Hvad troede du om realiteten af din oplevelse kort tid (dage til uger) efter den skete?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Hvad tror du nu om virkeligheden af din oplevelse?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Har noget på noget tidspunkt i dit liv reproduceret nogen del af oplevelsen?
No
Er der andet, du gerne vil tilføje om din oplevelse?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.