Περιγραφή Εμπειρίας
This incident occurred at the end of a long period of abuse - about three years. My abuser isolated me while I was swimming in a pond behind his house. After a brief argument with the man, as I was trying to swim away from him, he pushed me underwater by my shoulders and held me there. I struggled against his hands on my shoulders, but was not able to come to the surface. When I was almost out of air, I looked up through the water at the face of my attacker. His expression was very frightening to me because he was smiling, but also appeared to be very angry.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
Πληροφορίες Υπόβαθρου
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
1981
Στοιχεία NDE
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, υπήρχε κάποιο σχετιζόμενο γεγονός που απειλούσε τη ζωή;
Yes Criminal attack Other near drowning
I was being held underwater by someone who intended to either scare me or kill me.
Πώς θεωρείτε το περιεχόμενο της εμπειρίας σας;
Wonderful
Η εμπειρία περιλάμβανε
Out of body experience
Νιώσατε ότι αποχωριστήκατε από το σώμα σας;
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Πώς συγκρίθηκε το υψηλότερο επίπεδο συνείδησης και εγρήγορσης κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας με την κανονική καθημερινή σας συνείδηση και εγρήγορση;
More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
Σε ποιο σημείο της εμπειρίας σας βρισκόσασταν στο υψηλότερο επίπεδο συνείδησης και εγρήγορσης;
When I had decided to, but before I had re-entered my body.
Οι σκέψεις σας επιταχύνθηκαν;
Incredibly fast
Φαινόταν ότι ο χρόνος επιταχυνόταν ή επιβραδυνόταν;
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time stopped and I felt like I was floating with no gravity.
Ήταν οι αισθήσεις σας πιο ζωντανές από το συνηθισμένο;
Incredibly more vivid
Παρακαλώ συγκρίνετε την όρασή σας κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας με την καθημερινή σας όραση που είχατε αμέσως πριν από τη στιγμή της εμπειρίας
The surface of the water glinted in the sun in a starburst effect and the appearance of my body was in a haze of the pond water. It was surreal.
Παρακαλώ συγκρίνετε την ακοή σας κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας με την καθημερινή σας ακοή που είχατε αμέσως πριν από τη στιγμή της εμπειρίας
I don't remember any sounds except for my attacker breathing heavily and the water slapping against his body.
Φαινόταν ότι ήσασταν ενήμερος για γεγονότα που συνέβαιναν κάπου αλλού;
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Περάσατε μέσα από ένα τούνελ;
No
Είδατε κανένα όν στην εμπειρία σας;
I actually saw them
Συναντήσατε ή γίνατε ενήμεροι για οποιουσδήποτε θανόντες (ή ζωντανούς) beings;
No
Η εμπειρία περιλάμβανε
Darkness
Η εμπειρία περιλάμβανε
Light
Είδατε ή νιώσατε ότι περιβάλλεστε από ένα λαμπρό φως;
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Είδατε ένα άλλου κόσμου φως;
Yes
Φαινόταν ότι εισήλθατε σε έναν άλλον, εξωκοσμικό κόσμο;
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The place surrounding the light was very comfortable and is not comparable to anything I have felt or seen since.
Ποιες άλλες συναισθήματα νιώσατε κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας;
Peace, absolute clarity and an absence of pain.
Νιώσατε ένα αίσθημα ειρήνης ή ευχαρίστησης;
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Νιώσατε ένα αίσθημα χαράς;
Happiness
Αισθανθήκατε μια αίσθηση αρμονίας ή ενότητας με το σύμπαν;
I felt united or one with the world
Η εμπειρία περιλάμβανε
Special Knowledge
Ξαφνικά φάνηκε να καταλαβαίνετε τα πάντα;
Everything about the universe
Σας ήρθαν πίσω σκηνές από το παρελθόν σας;
My past flashed before me, out of my control I understood a much broader picture while I was not in my body. It didn't flood back to me in a visual life passing before my eyes. I went from ignorance instantly to wide awareness - not just of my life circumstances, but also of emotions, my family circumstances, a sense of purpose that I didn't have before. There was no sense of time, just calm sense of knowing what was and also what I needed to do.
Σας ήρθαν σκηνές από το μέλλον;
Scenes from the world's future I knew my mom was not going to die from her illness.
Φτάσατε σε ένα όριο ή σημείο χωρίς επιστροφή;
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Θεός, Πνευματικότητα και Θρησκεία
Ποια ήταν η θρησκεία σας πριν από την εμπειρία σας;
Liberal None
Έχουν αλλάξει οι θρησκευτικές σας πρακτικές από την εμπειρία σας;
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Ποια είναι η θρησκεία σας τώρα;
Liberal None/Open minded
Είχατε αλλαγή στις αξίες και τις πεποιθήσεις σας λόγω της εμπειρίας σας;
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Φαινόταν ότι συναντήσατε ένα μυστικό ον ή παρουσία ή ακούσατε μία ακαθόριστη φωνή;
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Είδατε αποθανόντες ή θρησκευτικά πνεύματα;
I actually saw them
Σχετικά με τις κοσμικές μας ζωές εκτός από τη Θρησκεία
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, αποκτήσατε ειδικές γνώσεις ή πληροφορίες σχετικά με τον σκοπό σας;
Yes I understood my purpose on a different level. The string theory was a no-brainer for me. Somehow, I realized that we are all energy and that solid mass was an illusion.
Έχουν αλλάξει οι σχέσεις σας συγκεκριμένα ως αποτέλεσμα της εμπειρίας σας;
Yes My sister and I have a special connection now.
Μετά το NDE
Ήταν η εμπειρία δύσκολο να εκφραστεί με λέξεις;
No
Έχετε ψυχικές, ασυνήθιστες ή άλλες ειδικές ικανότητες μετά την εμπειρία σας που δεν είχατε πριν;
Yes I can pass easily into this area by choice and sometimes wake up after sleeping with memories of being there, flying effortlessly.
Υπάρχουν ένα ή περισσότερα μέρη της εμπειρίας σας που είναι ιδιαίτερα σημαντικά ή με νόημα για εσάς; Παρακαλώ εξηγήστε.
The experience changed my life. It ended the abuse and gave me a huge amount of empathy.
Έχετε μοιραστεί ποτέ αυτή την εμπειρία σας με άλλους;
Yes I started sharing the near drowning experience with my psychologist at age twenty-one. In the last few months, I have been processing the experience with an emergency doctor and have been able to describe the experience in more detail.
Είχατε κάποια γνώση για τις εμπειρίες κοντά στο θάνατο (NDE) πριν από την εμπειρία σας;
No
Τι πιστεύατε για την πραγματικότητα της εμπειρίας σας λίγο (ημέρες έως εβδομάδες) μετά που συνέβη;
Experience was definitely real I knew the experience was real. Soon after that experience, I began researching near death, out of body experiences, channeling and other forms of spirituality. I even did a report in high school where I interviewed a couple of psychics.
Τι πιστεύετε για την πραγματικότητα της εμπειρίας σας τώρα;
Experience was definitely real I view this experience as my life energy moving between planes of consciousness under duress. I view it along the lines of the law of conservation of energy. It states that the total amount of energy in an isolated system remains constant. A consequence of this law is that energy cannot be created or destroyed. The only thing that can happen with energy in an isolated system is that it can change form, that is to say for instance kinetic energy can become thermal energy. Because energy is associated with mass in the Einstein's theory of relativity, the conservation of energy also implies the conservation of mass in isolated systems (that is, the mass of a system cannot change, so long as energy is not permitted to enter or leave the system). Our psychic energy, soul, what have you, is just another form of energy.
Σε οποιαδήποτε στιγμή της ζωής σας, έχει κάτι αναπαράγει οποιοδήποτε μέρος της εμπειρίας;
No