Περιγραφή Εμπειρίας
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Πληροφορίες Υπόβαθρου
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
Στοιχεία NDE
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, υπήρχε κάποιο σχετιζόμενο γεγονός που απειλούσε τη ζωή;
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Πώς θεωρείτε το περιεχόμενο της εμπειρίας σας;
Entirely distressing
Νιώσατε ότι αποχωριστήκατε από το σώμα σας;
No
No
Πώς συγκρίθηκε το υψηλότερο επίπεδο συνείδησης και εγρήγορσης κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας με την κανονική καθημερινή σας συνείδηση και εγρήγορση;
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
Σε ποιο σημείο της εμπειρίας σας βρισκόσασταν στο υψηλότερο επίπεδο συνείδησης και εγρήγορσης;
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Οι σκέψεις σας επιταχύνθηκαν;
Incredibly fast
Φαινόταν ότι ο χρόνος επιταχυνόταν ή επιβραδυνόταν;
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Ήταν οι αισθήσεις σας πιο ζωντανές από το συνηθισμένο;
Incredibly more vivid
Παρακαλώ συγκρίνετε την όρασή σας κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας με την καθημερινή σας όραση που είχατε αμέσως πριν από τη στιγμή της εμπειρίας
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Παρακαλώ συγκρίνετε την ακοή σας κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας με την καθημερινή σας ακοή που είχατε αμέσως πριν από τη στιγμή της εμπειρίας
I don't know.
Φαινόταν ότι ήσασταν ενήμερος για γεγονότα που συνέβαιναν κάπου αλλού;
No
Περάσατε μέσα από ένα τούνελ;
No
Είδατε κανένα όν στην εμπειρία σας;
No
Συναντήσατε ή γίνατε ενήμεροι για οποιουσδήποτε θανόντες (ή ζωντανούς) beings;
No
Είδατε ή νιώσατε ότι περιβάλλεστε από ένα λαμπρό φως;
No
Είδατε ένα άλλου κόσμου φως;
No
Φαινόταν ότι εισήλθατε σε έναν άλλον, εξωκοσμικό κόσμο;
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Ποιες άλλες συναισθήματα νιώσατε κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας;
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Νιώσατε ένα αίσθημα ειρήνης ή ευχαρίστησης;
No
Νιώσατε ένα αίσθημα χαράς;
No
Αισθανθήκατε μια αίσθηση αρμονίας ή ενότητας με το σύμπαν;
No
Ξαφνικά φάνηκε να καταλαβαίνετε τα πάντα;
No
Σας ήρθαν πίσω σκηνές από το παρελθόν σας;
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Σας ήρθαν σκηνές από το μέλλον;
No
Φτάσατε σε ένα όριο ή σημείο χωρίς επιστροφή;
No
Θεός, Πνευματικότητα και Θρησκεία
Ποια ήταν η θρησκεία σας πριν από την εμπειρία σας;
Christian- Catholic
Έχουν αλλάξει οι θρησκευτικές σας πρακτικές από την εμπειρία σας;
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Ποια είναι η θρησκεία σας τώρα;
Buddhist
Η εμπειρία σας περιλάμβανε χαρακτηριστικά συμβατά με τις κοσμικές σας πεποιθήσεις;
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Είχατε αλλαγή στις αξίες και τις πεποιθήσεις σας λόγω της εμπειρίας σας;
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Φαινόταν ότι συναντήσατε ένα μυστικό ον ή παρουσία ή ακούσατε μία ακαθόριστη φωνή;
No
Είδατε αποθανόντες ή θρησκευτικά πνεύματα;
No
Συναντήσατε ή ενημερωθήκατε για οποιαδήποτε οντά που προηγουμένως έζησαν στη γη και περιγράφονται με όνομα σε θρησκείες (για παράδειγμα: Ιησούς, Μωάμεθ, Βούδας, κ.λπ.);
No
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, αποκτήσατε πληροφορίες σχετικά με την ύπαρξη του Θεού;
No
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, αποκτήσατε πληροφορίες σχετικά με την καθολική σύνδεση ή την ενότητα;
No
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, αποκτήσατε πληροφορίες σχετικά με την ύπαρξη του Θεού;
No
Σχετικά με τις κοσμικές μας ζωές εκτός από τη Θρησκεία
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, αποκτήσατε ειδικές γνώσεις ή πληροφορίες σχετικά με τον σκοπό σας;
No
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, αποκτήσατε πληροφορίες για το νόημα της ζωής;
No
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, αποκτήσατε πληροφορίες σχετικά με μια ζωή μετά θάνατον;
No
Αποκτήσατε πληροφορίες για το πώς να ζούμε τις ζωές μας;
No
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, αποκτήσατε πληροφορίες σχετικά με τις δυσκολίες, τις προκλήσεις και τις δοκιμασίες της ζωής;
No
Κατά τη διάρκεια της εμπειρίας σας, αποκτήσατε πληροφορίες σχετικά με την αγάπη;
No
Ποιες αλλαγές στη ζωή σας συνέβησαν μετά την εμπειρία σας;
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Μετά το NDE
Ήταν η εμπειρία δύσκολο να εκφραστεί με λέξεις;
No
Πόσο ακριβώς θυμάστε την εμπειρία σε σύγκριση με άλλα γεγονότα της ζωής που συνέβησαν γύρω από το χρόνο της εμπειρίας;
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Έχετε ψυχικές, ασυνήθιστες ή άλλες ειδικές ικανότητες μετά την εμπειρία σας που δεν είχατε πριν;
No
Υπάρχουν ένα ή περισσότερα μέρη της εμπειρίας σας που είναι ιδιαίτερα σημαντικά ή με νόημα για εσάς; Παρακαλώ εξηγήστε.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Έχετε μοιραστεί ποτέ αυτή την εμπειρία σας με άλλους;
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Είχατε κάποια γνώση για τις εμπειρίες κοντά στο θάνατο (NDE) πριν από την εμπειρία σας;
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Τι πιστεύατε για την πραγματικότητα της εμπειρίας σας λίγο (ημέρες έως εβδομάδες) μετά που συνέβη;
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Τι πιστεύετε για την πραγματικότητα της εμπειρίας σας τώρα;
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Σε οποιαδήποτε στιγμή της ζωής σας, έχει κάτι αναπαράγει οποιοδήποτε μέρος της εμπειρίας;
No
Υπάρχει κάτι άλλο που θα θέλατε να προσθέσετε για την εμπειρία σας;
No