Esperientziaren Deskribapena
I was aware that I was coming round from the operation. I began to hear the voices of the surgeon and staff first, and heard them say, 'Breathe Paul! Breathe!' I heard them saying that they would apply air via a tube but I was completely unable and unwilling to even try to breathe. My body was a dead weight, which seemed to have nothing to do with 'me'. What happened next seemed to me to last about an hour, although it was only seconds.
I felt that my mind was about four feet to the right of my head. I knew that I was still in the operating theatre, but I was no longer part of it. Suddenly, I felt as if someone was pushing me gently from behind. 'It's your turn,' said a voice and I was very surprised, as I'd had the impression that I was at the end of a long, long line of people (who I couldn't see but only sensed). The feeling was just like being sent to the front of the queue at a supermarket check in, I remember - pleasant surprise.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
Aurrekarien informazioa
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/10/02
Heriotzatik Hurbileko Esperientzien Elementuak
Zure esperientziaren unean, ba al zegoen bizitza arriskuan jartzen zuen gertakari bat?
Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death My throat closed up and I couldn't breathe.
Nola hartzen duzu zure esperientziaren edukia?
Mixed
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Out of body experience
Zure gorputzetik bereizita sentitu al zara?
Yes I was aware of my body lying there but didn't see it as I was looking elsewhere.
Esperientziako zein unetan egon zinen zure kontzientzia eta erne maila gorenean?
Explained above.
Denbora bizkortu edo moteldu egin zela iruditu al zitzaizun?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything was different, but the same. The 'here' and 'now' are one place. The same with time. It's all the same. There's no linear time. No space as we know it.
Zure entzumena modu batean desberdindu al zen normaltasunetik?
The voices of the staff faded away, but there was no sound. I seemed to 'mind read' the words I heard and spoke.
Tunel batean sartu al zinen?
No
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Presence of deceased persons
Hildako (edo bizirik) izakiekin topo egin al zenuen edo horien berri izan al zenuen?
Yes Someone was behind me, guiding me, but I never saw them. They were neither male or female, it was just 'someone'. I cannot describe the voice, as it was not audible. I 'mind read' their words.
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Darkness
Argirik gabeko argirik ikusi al zenuen?
No The opposite. I saw a blackness, but it was welcoming and not frightening. The way you like the dark if you have a migraine.
Beste mundu ez-lurtar batean sartu zarela zirudien?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Described above.
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Strong emotional tone
Zer beste emozio sentitu zenituen esperientzian zehar?
Surprise then utter bliss. Complete indifference to what was happening to my body. Confusion and disappointment at coming back.
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Special Knowledge
Bat-batean dena ulertzen zenuela iruditu al zitzaizun?
Everything about the universe There's a time for everything. A role for everyone. A reason for everything. The purpose of life is not just our own happiness.
Zure iraganeko eszenak itzuli al zaizkizu?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I felt no power. Others had the power; I felt as if I was 'following orders' and was very happy to do so.
Etorkizuneko eszenak etorri al zitzaizkizun?
No
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Boundary
Muga edo egitura fisiko mugatzailerik aurkitu al zenuen?
Uncertain Big open doorway, comforting soothing blackness beyond. No fear. I was going towards it, but came back.
Muga edo itzulerarik gabeko puntura iritsi al zara?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I didn't want to return to my body, but was forced.
Jainkoa, espiritualtasuna eta erlijioa
Zein zen zure erlijioa esperientzia izan aurretik?
Liberal
Zein da zure erlijioa orain?
Liberal
Aldaketarik izan al duzu zure balioetan eta sinesmenetan zure esperientziaren ondorioz?
No
Heriotzatik Hurbileko Esperientziaren Ondoren
Zaila izan al zen esperientzia hitzez adieraztea?
Yes The sudden change of feelings and the sense that time was dislocated. I was not dead but I was out of my body.
Ba al duzu zure esperientziaren ondoren, aurretik ez zenituen dohain psikiko, ez-arrunt edo bestelakorik?
No
Ba al daude zure esperientziaren zati batzuk bereziki esanguratsuak edo garrantzitsuak direnak zuretzat? Mesedez, azaldu.
Best - bliss of being out of the body. Worst - being dragged back.
Inoiz partekatu al duzu esperientzia hau besteekin?
Yes The doctors said it's just a symptom of the anesthesia. Some friends were obviously nervous about it, didn't like to talk about death etc.! My daughter was scared too. No one seems to feel like I do about it all.
Zure bizitzako edozein unetan, ezerk erreproduzitu al du inoiz esperientziaren zatirik?
No Not since but BEFORE, when I was seven. During a tonsils operation, I could see the doctors and nurses working on my body as I hovered near the ceiling. I recalled that they wore green clothes (which they only wore in the theatre and which of course I'd never seen before).
Ba al dago zure esperientzia komunikatzen laguntzeko egin genezakeen beste galderarik?
If the person had had any similar experiences BEFORE the one they're relating.