Esperientziaren Deskribapena
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Aurrekarien informazioa
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
Heriotzatik Hurbileko Esperientzien Elementuak
Zure esperientziaren unean, ba al zegoen bizitza arriskuan jartzen zuen gertakari bat?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Nola hartzen duzu zure esperientziaren edukia?
Entirely pleasant
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Out of body experience
Zure gorputzetik bereizita sentitu al zara?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Nola alderatzen da esperientzian zehar kontzientzia eta erne maila gorena zure eguneroko kontzientzia eta erne mailarekin?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Esperientziako zein unetan egon zinen zure kontzientzia eta erne maila gorenean?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Zure pentsamenduak azkartu egin al ziren?
Faster than usual
Denbora bizkortu edo moteldu egin zela iruditu al zitzaizun?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Zure zentzumenak ohikoa baino biziagoak al ziren?
Incredibly more vivid
Konparatu mesedez esperientzian zehar izan zenuen ikusmena esperientzia izan baino lehen egunerokoan zenuenarekin
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Konparatu mesedez esperientzian zehar izan zenuen entzumena esperientzia izan baino lehen egunerokoan zenuenarekin
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Badirudi beste leku batzuetan gertatzen ari ziren gauzak ezagutzen zenituela?
No
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Tunnel
Tunel batean sartu al zinen?
Yes The hallway
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Presence of deceased persons
Ikusirik izan al duzu izakirik zure esperientzian?
I actually saw them
Hildako (edo bizirik) izakiekin topo egin al zenuen edo horien berri izan al zenuen?
Yes No relatives
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Unearthly light
Ikusgarri bat ikusi al zenuen, edo argi distiratsu batez inguratuta sentitu al zinen?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Argirik gabeko argirik ikusi al zenuen?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
A landscape or city
Beste mundu ez-lurtar batean sartu zarela zirudien?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Strong emotional tone
Zer beste emozio sentitu zenituen esperientzian zehar?
Elated
Bake edo atsegintasun sentsaziorik izan al zenuen?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Poz sentsaziorik izan al zenuen?
incredible joy
Unibertsoarekin harmonia edo batasun sentsazio bat sentitu al zenuen?
I felt united or one with the world
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Special knowledge or purpose
Bat-batean dena ulertzen zenuela iruditu al zitzaizun?
No
Zure iraganeko eszenak itzuli al zaizkizu?
No
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Awareness of the future
Etorkizuneko eszenak etorri al zitzaizkizun?
Scenes from my personal future
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Boundary
Muga edo egitura fisiko mugatzailerik aurkitu al zenuen?
Yes
Muga edo itzulerarik gabeko puntura iritsi al zara?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Jainkoa, espiritualtasuna eta erlijioa
Zer garrantzi ematen zenion zure erlijio/bizitza espiritualari zure esperientziaren aurretik?
Greatly important to me
Zein zen zure erlijioa esperientzia izan aurretik?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Aldatu al dira zure praktika erlijiosoak esperientzia izan zenuenetik?
Yes They are more grounded.
Zer garrantzi ematen diozu zure erlijio/bizitza espiritualari zure esperientziaren ondoren?
Greatly important to me
Zein da zure erlijioa orain?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Zure esperientziak zure lurreko sinesmenekin bat zetozen ezaugarriak barne hartu zituen?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Aldaketarik izan al duzu zure balioetan eta sinesmenetan zure esperientziaren ondorioz?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Esperientziak barne hartzen zuen
Presence of unearthly beings
Izaki edo presentzia mistiko bat topatu al zenuen, edo ahots identifikagaitza entzun al zenuen?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Hildako edo izpiritu erlijiosorik ikusi al zenuen?
I actually saw them
Erlijioetan izenez deskribatzen diren lurrean bizi izan ziren izakirik topatu edo jakin al duzu (adibidez: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etab.)?
No
Zure esperientzian zehar, informaziorik lortu al zenuen Jainkoaren existentziari buruz?
No
Zure esperientzian zehar, informaziorik lortu al zenuen konexio unibertsalari edo batasunari buruz?
Yes
Jainkoaren existentzian sinesten al zenuen zure esperientziaren aurretik?
God definitely exists
Zure esperientzian zehar, informaziorik lortu al zenuen Jainkoaren existentziari buruz?
Yes the love was in everything.
Jainkoaren existentzian sinesten al duzu zure esperientziaren ondoren?
God definitely exists
Gure Lurreko bizitzari buruz, erlijioaz gain
Zure esperientzian zehar, ezagutza edo informazio berezirik lortu al zenuen zure helburuari buruz?
Yes
Uste al zenuen gure lurreko bizitzak esanguratsuak eta esanguratsuak zirela zure esperientziaren aurretik?
Are meaningful and significant
Zure esperientzian zehar, bizitzaren esanahiaren inguruko informaziorik lortu al zenuen?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Sinesten al zenuen heriotzaren ondorengo bizitzan zure esperientziaren aurretik?
An afterlife definitely exists
Sinesten al duzu heriotzaren ondorengo bizitzan zure esperientziaren ondoren?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Heriotzari beldur al zenioten zure esperientziaren aurretik?
I moderately feared death
Heriotzari beldur al diozu zure esperientziaren ondoren?
I do not fear death
Beldurti zinen zure bizitza bizitzen zure esperientziaren aurretik?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Beldurti zinen zure bizitza bizitzen zure esperientziaren ondoren?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Uste al zenuen gure lurreko bizitzak esanguratsuak eta esanguratsuak zirela zure esperientziaren aurretik?
Are meaningful and significant
Uste al zenuen gure lurreko bizitzak esanguratsuak eta esanguratsuak direla zure esperientziaren ondoren?
Are meaningful and significant
Informaziorik lortu al duzu gure bizitza nola bizi buruz?
No
Zure esperientzian zehar, bizitzako zailtasunei, erronkei eta zailtasunei buruzko informaziorik lortu al zenuen?
No
Errukitsua al zinen zure esperientziaren aurretik?
Moderately compassionate toward others
Zure esperientzian zehar, maitasunari buruzko informaziorik lortu al zenuen?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Errukitsua al zara zure esperientziaren ondoren?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Zer bizitza aldaketa gertatu ziren zure bizitzan zure esperientziaren ondoren?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Zure harremanak aldatu al dira zehazki zure esperientziaren ondorioz?
No No
Heriotzatik Hurbileko Esperientziaren Ondoren
Zaila izan al zen esperientzia hitzez adieraztea?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Zein zehaztasunez oroitzen duzu esperientzia, esperientziaren garaian gertatu ziren beste bizitza-gertaerekin alderatuta?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Ba al duzu zure esperientziaren ondoren, aurretik ez zenituen dohain psikiko, ez-arrunt edo bestelakorik?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Ba al daude zure esperientziaren zati batzuk bereziki esanguratsuak edo garrantzitsuak direnak zuretzat? Mesedez, azaldu.
The love
Inoiz partekatu al duzu esperientzia hau besteekin?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Heriotza-esperientziari (HEE) buruzko ezagutzarik bazenuen zure esperientzia baino lehen?
No
Zer uste zenuen zure esperientziaren errealitateari buruz gertatu eta gutxira (egun batzuetatik aste batzuetara)?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Zer uste duzu orain zure esperientziaren errealitateari buruz?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Zure bizitzako edozein unetan, ezerk erreproduzitu al du inoiz esperientziaren zatirik?
No
Ba al dago zure esperientziari buruz gehitu nahiko zenukeen beste ezer?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.