Meghan H
Possible NDE
Greyson Scale: 11
#33007
- CountryUnited States
- GenderF
- AgeAdult
- Date Experienced10/14/2020
- Date Submitted5/10/2025
The experience included
See a bright unearthly lightDevelop psychic abilitiesLikely experienced clinical death
Experience Description
What memory this came to me at a later date, within a meditative state.
I had open heart surgery, which included perfusion and the stopping of my heart.
My memory of this was a feeling of being far below myself (my mind felt that movement). What I experienced was a feeling and a place.
The feeling was similar to what one might feel in the mind, sinking into a hot bath, or an orgasm, it was pure pleasure, warmth, ease.
The place was a room, enclosed but not (I could tell there was physical space, but undefined).
This memory lasted several seconds, and my minds eye was not distinctly with me physically in that moment. I felt I emerged from somewhere else, unlike how it feels to remember something distinct.
Prior to my surgery and after I had strong premonition of what was to happen (e.g., that my original date was to be cancelled; it was), and this was accompanied by a black-light behind my eyes, and a voice separate from mine which was not male or female, heard as if said directly in my ear. I can not explain it any better than that.
Background Information
Gender
Female
Date NDE Occurred
10/14/2020
Near Death Experience Elements
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event?
No, Surgery-related, Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)
How do you consider the content of your experience?
Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body?
No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal, I was hyper-aware of my physical being, like I was experiencing it as I never had before. It was like saying, "This is what you are in this existence." My mind felt above and disconnected from what was happening in preparation for the surgery. It made me think of WW1 soldiers as they were about to go over the top of the trench and into certain death.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?
I was at my highest level of consciousness in the day leading up to my surgery. I was aware I was about to have a close form of death. My consciousness felt tethered to my physical body, and in what felt to be a psychic experience of knowing my surgery was canceled. I acknowledge this question could be for what people experienced within their near-death experience, but as mine was a known event ahead of time, I did feel in a very different place mentally in this timeframe.
Were your thoughts speeded up?
No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
No
Were your senses more vivid than usual?
Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience
My mind's eye was not what it usually is—my brain felt different in the area of my forehead. The voice physically jolted me during the moment of premonition before the canceled surgery.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience
My hearing was centered on my brain, not what was around me.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere?
No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel?
Uncertain, I felt I was moving rapidly downward, as if there was a hidden force pulling me far below.
Did you see any beings in your experience?
No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light?
No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Pleasure, warmth, ease
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy?
Incredible Joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe?
No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything about myself or others, After surgery, I felt like I could see connections and truths that were not apparent before. Everything seemed easier.
Did scenes from the future come to you?
No
Did you come to a border or point of no return?
No
God, Spiritual and Religion
What was your religion prior to your experience?
Christian- Catholic, Non-practicing Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience?
No
What is your religion now?
Christian- Catholic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience, I was unsure what the experience would be, but I felt that, despite that, something must happen.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience?
Yes, I am not afraid; I do what I feel is right; I now have a calm space within my mind and body.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin, In my premonition before surgery, the voice was loud, distinct, not mine, and neither male nor female, saying, "you are not having surgery today."
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc?)
No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness?
No
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife?
Uncertain, My memory of my experience suggested there was something more than just nothingness.
Did you gain information about how to live our lives?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about love?
No
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience?
Regarding the experience questions, all of them applied positively to what I experienced after heart surgery (fully conscious living), rather than during the experience.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes, I am stronger in myself and my needs and goals.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words?
No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?
Yes, I have these experiences in dreams. For example, I had a nightmare about someone I hadn’t seen in years, and months later, they called to say their boyfriend killed their baby at the time of the nightmare. Other times, I dream of people I haven’t seen or spoken to in a long time and wake up to an email from them.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
It has changed how I feel about my place in the world and the universe—that I am nothing and I am everything.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened?
Experience was definitely real, I know my mind and I know there can be explanations, but I can speak to what I actually experienced in my memory.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now?
Experience was definitely real, Same as question 56.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes, Orgasm, hot baths.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?
I am not afraid to die.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
No, My experience was planned, and I feel that there is something to this. I felt in my premonition before surgery that the connection of human minds (what else could that be?) is like seeing light on a knife’s edge—blinding and brief. The impact on my outlook on life happened in the months after my experience, not immediately surrounding that event.