Izzy
Probable NDE
Greyson Scale: 28
#33040
Experience Description
Having general anesthesia in the past with no complications, the anesthesiologist gave me Percocet and then handed my case over to the CRNA. For unknown reasons at the time, the CRNA gave me Versed, fentanyl, and then Dilaudid in the wrong dosage, miscalculating my body weight in kilograms. I woke up much later after surgery. I found out later that they had to do resuscitation efforts, including Narcan and other measures to revive me. I spoke to the post-op nurse about it, and she became emotional. The anesthesiologist, whom I’d never met before, confirmed the overdose and apologized six months later.
I had an experience during this time. I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I felt the presence of God, and also felt like I was a part of Him. I felt the presence of my brother and loved ones who had passed, but the conversations were nonverbal.
Background Information
Gender
Female
Date NDE Occurred
5/17/2022
Near Death Experience Elements
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event?
Yes, Surgery-related, Drug or medication overdose, While under general anesthesia, Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)
How do you consider the content of your experience?
Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body?
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal, I feel it mostly in my gut.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?
During general anesthesia, there was no recollection whatsoever. At a subconscious level, everything changed. I woke up after resuscitation with a totally different view on my brother’s death that occurred in 2004, and other loved ones who had passed away.
Were your thoughts speeded up?
Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning, Time and space felt negotiable
Were your senses more vivid than usual?
Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience
I still experience colors and sounds a lot more intensely than before my experience. Two years after my experience, I took medication for anxiety. By reducing anxiety, I experienced life even more. I felt music deeply and was more present in my body. Anxiety related to my experience was due to the CRNA overdosing me. I am now finally processing my experience, that was helped along with the medication.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience
I can still intensely hear and am sometimes overwhelmed by some sounds.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel?
No
Did you see any beings in your experience?
I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Yes, My brother, who passed away 18 years prior.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light?
Yes, I cannot describe it in words because I was part of the light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm, I was part of the light and love
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
God equals love, joy, peace, kindness, mercy, smiles, forgiveness, deep knowledge and understanding of many things in past, present, and future.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy?
Incredible Joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe?
I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything about myself or others, Mostly everything about God, myself, others, and this world
Did scenes from your past come back to you?
I felt the past and understood much more about it.
Did scenes from the future come to you?
Scenes from my personal future, Yes, and much more, not just about myself. I still dream of future scenes. The experience increased my dream experiences tenfold. Dreams about past, present, and future
Did you come to a border or point of no return?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will, Very unpleasant and devastating to be back in my body until I was willing to understand my purpose
God, Spiritual and Religion
What was your religion prior to your experience?
Christian- Other Christian, Pentecostal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience?
Yes, Much closer to God's presence, less performance.
What is your religion now?
Christian- Other Christian, Pentecostal
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience, I had to leave behind beliefs that no longer aligned with God or myself. I understood love and acceptance, but also justice and the importance of setting boundaries. I gained wisdom, courage, and mental stability.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience?
Yes, I became more certain about God, the afterlife, and my brother’s passing.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin, Feeling the presence of God, being part of Him.
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc?)
Yes, Feeling His presence.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness?
Yes, God, only as being part of him
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose?
Yes, I gained awareness about the past, present, and future.
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life?
Yes, I had to be willing to understand my purpose back on earth.
During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife?
Yes, There's more life after this earthly life
Did you gain information about how to live our lives?
Uncertain, It’s hard to explain. Words come as I still experience life here. In some way, the understanding I received from my experience reveals itself as life unfolds.
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships?
Yes, After coming back, I found the courage to talk about the abuse I’ve experienced and heal, along with others willing to heal, including those who hurt me. I also gained the strength to fight for justice.
During your experience, did you gain information about love?
Yes, I felt part of love. God is love.
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience?
My perspective on death changed significantly after experiencing my loved ones in my experience, especially my brother.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes, I don't people-please as I used to. I've developed a voice, meaning I now speak my mind.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes, Extremely difficult, I cannot express it in words. I can feel the experience. Shock perhaps, because it is so different from this world.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?
I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events that occurred around the time of the experience, It’s based on feelings rather than conscious memory.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?
Yes, My gifts were amplified.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
The feeling of the experience remains within me. I'm still part of love. I cannot undo what was done. This is who I am for the rest of my life on this earth.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes, I woke up the morning of my surgery and felt immense fear. I prayed and it went away. I felt peace and knew I had to be in surgery and then had an experience.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened?
Experience was definitely real, But I didn't really want to talk about it. I felt intense grief; most likely for being overdosed. Even after 3 years, I am just now deciding to explore it further.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now?
Experience was definitely real, More acceptance than grief, finally processing and talking about it makes it all better.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes, Yes, in dreams very often, but also my feelings are often intense, though likely not as much as during the experience, which was real life.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?
God is not abuse; God is love. Love is not abuse. Due to personal experience.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Uncertain, Part of it.