Becki R
ADC
Greyson Scale: 7
#33116
- CountryUnited States
- GenderF
- AgeOlder Child
- Date Experienced9/4/2000
- Date Submitted9/3/2025
The experience included
See a bright unearthly lightDevelop psychic abilities
Experience Description
I was thirteen years old and sickly from asthma. Asthma attacks would hit me so hard that I would throw up. I had recently had my tonsils and adenoids removed and got sick again while I was recovering. I was on steroids at this time, pills and shots, so much that I felt like I was turning into a man. I gained weight, got black body hair, and acne. Because of these steroids, it messed with my sleep. So many nights, I would lie awake and wish to just sleep already. One night I was finally asleep, and this is when my experience happened, and I do not think I died.
All of a sudden, I awoke. I was still in my bedroom, in my bed. The room was very bright, and it felt extremely peaceful. It was so peaceful that it was like I could feel angels around me. There was someone spooning me; we were both in the fetal position. It was my deceased maternal grandfather who had been dead for eight years. I have no idea how I knew it was him, I just did. There were no words spoken aloud, but telepathically. He kept saying, "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," and that "everything will be ok."
Now, in real life, this would not have been okay because he was the family pedophile. While he never molested me, he did molest most of my aunts, uncles, and cousins, and even my mom. He was a disgusting person, and my mom made sure he was never alone with us kids.
During the event, I was never scared at all. It was very peaceful. It seems to have lasted twenty or so minutes if I had to guess. When I woke the next morning I told my mom about it.
It was creepy as I spoke about it only because of my grandfather being a pedophile; everything else was blissful.
My mom went to some sort of psychic lady and told her what happened. She told her if I did not want these things to happen, to just let God or whoever know to stop, so I did. She also got this crystal to hang between our front and back door to "keep the spirits away."
Afterwards, I definitely felt different, knowing this type of event does not happen to everyone. Oddly, I have never been sick again with the asthma that plagued my life for thirteen years. I chalked it up to taking out my tonsils, but I am really not sure what to think.
I have had other things happen and I always fight it and ask whoever it is to stop and that I do not want this gift. For instance, age twenty, I was coming home one very late night and passed a really bad wreck, one where I could just feel that someone had died. I got home, went to sleep, then woke a few hours later and the person who had just died in that wreck was standing in my room looking at me. It was not peaceful to me, it was quite scary, and I closed my eyes and told them that they died and need to go, they cannot stay here. So again I told God or whoever that I am not interested in being someone that has this gift.
Background Information
Gender
Female
Date NDE Occurred
9/4/2000
Near Death Experience Elements
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event?
Uncertain, Illness, Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening
How do you consider the content of your experience?
Both pleasant AND distressing
Did you feel separated from your body?
No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal, It was like there was nothing else in the entire world happening except the experience.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?
The entire time
Were your thoughts speeded up?
No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
No
Were your senses more vivid than usual?
More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience
My vision during the experience was bright and crisp. I was asleep immediately prior, and it was also the middle of the night.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience
The fact that I could hear my dead grandfather speaking to me without actually using words is 100% different than everyday hearing.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere?
No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel?
No
Did you see any beings in your experience?
I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Yes, My maternal grandfather. He died eight years prior.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light?
An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light?
Yes, My room was bright, so bright. It was the middle of the night and no lights were on.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Peace, only peace.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy?
No
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe?
No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did scenes from the future come to you?
No
Did you come to a border or point of no return?
No
God, Spiritual and Religion
What was your religion prior to your experience?
Christian- Catholic, I was only 13 years old. I called myself a Catholic, but was not religious at all.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience?
No
What is your religion now?
Unaffiliated- Agnostic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs?
Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience?
No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin, I heard my grandfather's voice, but not with my ears. It was telepathic.
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc?)
No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness?
No
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife?
No
Did you gain information about how to live our lives?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about love?
No
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience?
I thought maybe my grandfather was saying sorry because he had asthma and maybe it carried down to me genetically. But years after, I realized he was apologizing for giving so much trauma to my mom, which affected me greatly.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words?
No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?
Yes, I wrote about this on the main experience page.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
It definitely made me feel different from others.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened?
Experience was definitely real, I believe my grandfather was apologetic for molesting my mom during her childhood, which caused her enormous trauma and shaped her for the rest of her life.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now?
Experience was definitely real, It is still on my mind.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?
No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes, It was thorough.