Jene B
NDE
Exceptional
Greyson Scale: 16
#33166
Experience Description
It was between 11:30 and noon. I was in my room in the labor and delivery unit. The anesthesiologist had come to administer the spinal anesthesia for childbirth. He did not read the paper that stated my allergies and how sensitive my body was to medication. As he was administering the anesthesia, he hit my spinal column and one of my legs jerked straight up. I asked the nurse what that was, because it felt like an electrical shock through my body. The medicine stunned me, as if I had taken a hard hit to the head. The nurse told me to stay still.
Then I believe he injected something into me making me feel light-headed and nauseous. I told the nurse. She began to lay me down on my side. I could hear the monitor beeping very fast, and then it slowed down. I could hear people running frantically around the room. I heard the nurse say, "Her blood pressure is dropping. We're losing her! We're losing her!" The last thing I remember was the nurse saying, "Her blood pressure is 30 over nothing. You killed her, you son of a b&tch!" My last thought was to my unborn child, "I'll see you on the other side."
Then it went completely dark. I vaguely remember leaving my body and seeing it on the bed. The next thing I remember is standing in an incredible park-like scene. I saw rolling hills, trees, grass, sidewalk, and flowers. The colors were so intense, beautiful and amazingly peaceful. The singing of the birds was like nothing I had ever heard before. All of it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen in my entire life.
A woman was standing next to me on my right side and talking to me. I remember looking at her and thinking I should know her, but I could not remember who she was. Then I realized it was my grandmother, who had died at age 55. She looked about 18 years old. I did not pay much attention to her as she spoke. I was looking around at the people and the angels flying around, listening to the sounds, and just being in awe. Out of the corner of my eye, in a place I should not have been able to see, I saw my sister who died as a baby. Now she was walking down to me and carrying my son. I heard my grandmother say, "She's bringing your baby to you." That was the only time I understood and actually paid attention to her. I was so in awe of everything, I completely tuned her out.
The singing got louder and louder. The music went around me, through me, and became a part of me. It was incredibly beautiful. They were singing, "He's coming, he's coming, he's coming." I looked around, wondering who was coming. I could see all around me. I still did not know who was coming. I could see my sister and my son getting closer, about 20 feet away. I was still looking around to see who was coming.
Then I was immersed in the most incredible feeling of love and peace that I have never felt before or since. I was at peace for the first time in my entire life, and I swooned. It was incredible! I felt a presence behind me; he was the one projecting the love. I immediately knew this was God, and I was so humbled and grateful. My sister and my son were now about 10 feet away, but they looked both close and yet far away. I could only think and focus on God's love. I heard him very clearly in my left ear, "Do you want to stay or do you want to go?"
I responded, "Heck yes, I want to stay." My sister stopped walking. I looked at my son in her arms, although I could not see his face. I said, "But that's not fair to him. I've lived. I'm happy not to go back. It's his decision if he wants to go back, but we either stay or go back together. You do not separate us."
The next thing I knew, I was back in my body; fully conscious and aware. For some reason, my body was on my right side. I could hear the nurses and doctors. I heard the doctor say, "She's dead." I heard the nurse say, "You son of a b&tch!" I started moving my finger, and the nurse must have noticed. She said, "We got her back, you lucky son of a b&tch."
I was angry that I was back. I was no longer immersed in that love. When I told the nurse I died and went to heaven, she believed me. Out of the people I told; the doctor, my husband, my parents, my brother did not believed me. My sister-in-law did believe me.
Background Information
Gender
Female
Date NDE Occurred
1/5/2000
Near Death Experience Elements
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event?
Yes, Childbirth, Drug or medication overdose, CPR was given (cardiopulmonary resuscitation), Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)
How do you consider the content of your experience?
Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body?
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal, I could see things from far away that I typically could never see due the limited vision of my earthly eyes. Here, I could see the blades of grass, the petals on the flowers, the angels' wings and each individual feather. The colors were extraordinarily vibrant, like I have never seen before. The sounds of the singing was music that I could actually feel and see. I could see so far away and so close at the same time. I could see everything except what was directly behind my head.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?
The entire time I saw the park (heaven).
Were your thoughts speeded up?
No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning, How far away my sister was to how close she got to me was impossible to do normally in this world.
Were your senses more vivid than usual?
Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience
At that time, I could not see far away past 20 feet; everything was blurry. When I drove, I could see blurry things and assumed it was either a car or a cow. I didn't want to hit either. But when I was in heaven, I could see a blade of grass 300 feet away.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience
My hearing was the same, I believe. But, everything was sweeter, louder, and beautiful.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere?
No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel?
Uncertain, I don't remember leaving my body and going to heaven. I vaguely have a sense of a blackness and a light, but I'm not sure what that means.
Did you see any beings in your experience?
I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Yes, I saw my mom's mom, my older baby sister, and I saw lots of angels and other people who looked like they had just died as well.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light?
No
Did you see an unearthly light?
Uncertain, I saw a pinpoint, and what I saw in heaven, the light was out of this world.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Love, peace, awe.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy?
Incredible Joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe?
I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did scenes from the future come to you?
No
Did you come to a border or point of no return?
I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life, God asked me if I wanted to stay or go. When I replied, "Hell, yeah, I want to stay," I left it up to my son to make the decision. I didn't even have a second after I said it was his decision before I was slammed back into my body.
God, Spiritual and Religion
What was your religion prior to your experience?
Unaffiliated- Agnostic, I believe in Jesus, just not religion.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience?
Uncertain, It didn't change for the first 25 years. But slowly I've been headed toward God; it's just hard when you're surrounded by non-god people who don't want you to be a believer.
What is your religion now?
Christian- Other Christian, I follow Christ.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience, I always believed in Jesus and I always believed in God, but more in the way I was raised in the Catholic religion. I didn't truly believe; I wouldn't go to my death over it. I wouldn't disagree with people if they called him a prophet and not the son of God. To each their own. I really didn't believe in Heaven and Hell; I just kind of thought you died and that was it.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience?
Yes, I believe there is a God, a heaven, and a hell, and that when I die I will go to heaven.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin, I met my grandmother. She was talking to me, but I really wasn't paying attention to her, and I spoke to God.
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc?)
Yes, I spoke to God. I did not see him, but I felt him and felt the love and peace. His voice was a deep, masculine voice that held pure love.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness?
No
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife?
No
Did you gain information about how to live our lives?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships?
No
During your experience, did you gain information about love?
Yes, I felt God's love. The moment I was there at the park, I could feel the peace and the love. I had never been at peace my entire life before that. Yet, I knew what peace was when I was there. Then when God actually arrived and spoke to me, it was a thousand times more peaceful. I can't describe it.
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience?
I came to realize people don't want to believe in God. People don't want to discuss something like death. I came to believe that when you have this type of encounter, people look at you like you're a religious nut, and I learned not to say anything. But I've also learned and reached out to people I know are going to die, and I talk to them about it. I've had quite a few people ask me about heaven, and those people are no longer here with us but are in heaven.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes, My family got meaner to me. They've made my life worse since this happened. They are dismissive, nasty, and act like I'm stupid and I'm lying, and that I have absolutely no value.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words?
Yes, The colors and the music; I can't describe them, there are no words. The feeling of the love was out of this world.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience, The only thing I question is the time between when I left my body and when I was in heaven. That's the only thing I'm fuzzy about, and I think it's because I didn't care that I was dead. I was worn off from being in heaven and feeling the love and peace. I can't wait to go back.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?
No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
Peace, the feeling of peace, and God's love. It was incredible, but mostly the feeling of peace.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Uncertain, I may have heard something in passing growing up, but I never really knew anything about it.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened?
Experience was definitely real, I knew it happened and I knew I couldn't talk about it, which crushed me.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now?
Experience was definitely real, I knew it happened. I've always known that when I die I get to go to heaven, and I know I will finally be at peace and loved. I can't wait.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?
It was beautiful and peaceful. I can't even begin to explain how peaceful it was, and the love and the colors—everything was so intense.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Uncertain, There are no words in the English language to describe what I saw.