Marijan H

I got bacterial pneumonia. It was an unknown bacterium in Croatia and they could not identify it. Doctors at the hospital for lung diseases said that the disease develops from it several times faster than the known strains. When I arrived at the hospital the lungs were working with less than 10% capacity because they were full of pus and only the top of the right lung was visible on the x-ray.

I arrived at the hospital around 9 p.m. That part of the bed where the headboard was raised, so I was, in fact, in a half-lying and half-sitting position. I was completely awake and didn’t even close my eyes. I looked at my watch and it was five minutes past midnight.

AND THEN IT HAPPENED !!!

On the opposite side of the room, on the left side of the wall I was looking at, was a closet, and next to it a table and two chairs. Suddenly, a lighted hallway appeared where the closet, table, and chairs had been. The hallway was about four feet high, floor to ceiling, and just as wide. It was completely flat and so long that it looked like it ended at a point. The light did not come from any lighting, but all four surfaces, the left and right walls, and the ceiling and floor, were illuminated. They looked like they were made of some milky white glass lit by yellowish neon tubes. The light began to go out in segments of about ten meters, from the beginning of the corridor to the other end, which was visible only as a distant point.

At first, I got scared and mechanically cursed.

'What is this!? Well, I don’t dream, I’m fully awake! Am I crazy!?'

The lighted hallway was still sinking into darkness in segments, and in the part that was no longer lit, only a dark outline remained.

After the initial shock passed me by, I embarked on an action to shed light on that phenomenon. I first checked that I hadn’t accidentally fallen asleep for a while so I dream about it.

But I didn't! There was still noise in the hallway and a light was on. I looked around the room and everything was in place. Nothing else changed except that lighted hallway appeared.

The hallway was still there. The lights had already gone out very far away, so that it was barely noticeable that they were still going out. But the outlines of the dark hallway were clearly visible.

Before the lights went out completely, I had already recovered from the initial shock and tried to think rationally. In this, extremely shocking and incredible fact, I was looking for a logical cause. Meanwhile, as I regained my composure and began to think rationally, the hallway lit up again in full splendor and began to turn off again on the same principle as before.

There was no doubt that I was awake and fully aware. Everything but the half wall that now occupied the hallway was in place. They are still shouting in the hospital hallway. I think rationally now without panic, but I can still see quite clearly that lighted corridor that is going out again. So the only logical fact came to my mind. The process of extinguishing life has begun, and the brain is sending a signal that I see as that infinitely long corridor sinking into darkness! I didn’t have the feeling that I needed to walk down that hallway, but that it was a depiction of the process of my dying.

Then I had a strong feeling that part of me was trying to separate from my body. As time went on, I had a growing feeling that he had already partially separated. I could even guess the outline of my body, but as a completely transparent figure, slowly coming out of my body and straightening into a sitting position. It was more visible in the slightly distorted background image, because I was looking through it.

'Well, it's not possible that I'm going to die now !? Me, who until a few days ago was completely healthy and strong as a bull. And from some pneumonia, from which people don't even die anymore. However, again, that is the only logical solution to this dual situation that I see and experience.'

The lights were still off and only the farthest part of the hallway was still lit.

'I am fifty-nine years old and it is not yet time to die. Especially not for a healthy person. I would definitely like to live more, but again, even if I die, it is a consolation to me that I have lived a really intense and diverse social, private and business life, which few people have.'

Hell

While I was feverishly thinking about my situation convinced that I was dying, because the soul was already leaving the body, the lighting in the hallway went out again. But now the situation has changed drastically. The shock I experienced when I saw the lighted hallway was a pale shadow over the shock I experienced then and which shook me as if I had touched a million-volt current.

I was no longer in the room, but in a completely different location. The feeling of being in the middle of a flame struck me like lightning. I was in a space that at first glance looked like a large cave filled with flames! HELL!!!??? The colors were mixed, and ranged in shades of darker red, brighter red, orange, and yellow, just what the colors of a strong fire are. I was standing on an elevated part of that huge cave, which was descending and forking below me, and it was all filled with flames. Below, on one plateau, were several black figures.

I swore fiercely. 'So is there really a hell !? Did I die and go to hell !? Are those black characters servants in hell !? And why did I, who all my life tried to live honestly and not hurt anyone, end up in hell?' By the way, I didn't believe in that kind of hell.

It took a while until I came to myself from the shock. I first noticed that it is not hot at all, but the temperature is normal. Then I took a closer look and found that these bright colors are no flames, but the environment looks like. Not even those black characters stab the glowing fairies of some sinful soul, as they trumpeted to me in my childhood describing hell, but talk. In the meantime, not to walk, I approached those black characters.

It was only then that I looked at where I actually was. I stood on a smooth but uneven light brown rock, and in front and to the left were also vertical rocks, so that above them nothing more could be seen. The rocks were in the colors described and after I got rid of the hellish shock, they looked really beautiful. These were the warm colors that are most beautiful to me.

Then I paid attention to the people in black. One, I call him Boss, was standing about three feet and a little to the right in front of me, and three were standing about ten feet away, straight ahead. They were dressed in cloaks, which reached almost to the ground, and had large hoods on their heads. These cloaks looked like those worn by the Franciscan friars, but they were almost completely black, only a faint shade of brown was noticeable.

I looked at the boss a little askance from behind, but I looked the three of them directly in the face. Why face? They didn't have faces at all! Where their faces were supposed to be, there was absolute blackness, without the slightest outline, so black that it bounced hard from their black clothes. Their sleeves were long and their fists were not visible.

The boss spoke and gestured with his hands, and the three of them stood still and listened. Even though I was standing near the Boss I didn’t hear anything he was saying.

Suddenly it became clear to me where I was !!! Here is the boundary across which one passes into another dimension, another reality, another form, another world, another life. I don’t know how to define it exactly. I even moved to that border for a while and looked at it. It was like a light gray silk curtain, reaching infinitely in height and constantly swaying slightly. I have no knowledge of what it looks like beyond that limit, but I have learned that there is nothing wrong with it. Rather, there is a more sublime continuation of existing life. My death will not happen and it will be the end, but only the body, which was my host in this life, will die, while I will experience a transformation into another form and continue the continuity that lasts forever. For a short time, I also had a vision of the eternal flow, in which all existing life moves. I could clearly see that this flow had several levels, between which a gap could be seen. There were about ten levels and somehow I knew that those levels were not the same, but that it was, in fact, a gradation, and that the highest level was the best. In that course is everything that has been and will be. Earthly life is only a short-lived excursion from that flow. But even this flicker in relation to eternity determines at what level, after the physical death of the body, the continuity of life of man will continue.

I also knew that if I crossed the border there was no going back to this life. Crossing the border is a one-way street! But I also knew that even though I had reached the limit, and the soul had already left the body, it was not yet over with my earthly life. The boss decides to switch and may decide to return. I knew there weren’t very good chances for that, but the possibility exists. I clung to that possibility! I knew crystal clear that across the border, let’s call it that, a more perfect world, so I wasn’t the least bit afraid.

I went back to where the Boss had been talking to those three for a while. This encouraged me greatly because I hoped that the Chief would still bring me back to my earthly life, since I had come to him again from the very border. I had time to think and I was fully aware of my situation. The body is on the bed in the hospital, and I am waiting here for the Chief to finish the conversation and make a decision about my further fate. I didn’t have the feeling that the body was on the bed and I was an immaterial spirit or soul. I was there in full body shape and not dressed in a T-shirt and pajama bottoms, like a body on a bed, but in my everyday clothes, jeans and a T-shirt.

I was already thinking completely rationally and with a cool head. 'I have nothing to complain about. I myself did not cause a situation that resulted in the most likely death. I did not drive too fast or carelessly, to cause an accident in which I would be killed, nor did I do anything else recklessly, which would result in this situation in which I find myself. I just picked up a bacterium I got sick from somewhere in the air. Most likely at some busy airport, where people from all over the world crowd. I didn't even wait to go to the doctor (which would certainly have happened if I hadn't coughed up blood).'

'I would definitely still like to live the existing life, I am still in full strength, all bodily functions serve me well and, as ridiculous as it sounds, I feel young. I have time to cross the border, I will not escape anywhere. The continuity of being, which I am now convinced of, lasts forever, and earthly life is short, so I could live it a little longer. But if the Chief decides otherwise, what can I do?'

Although I still wanted to live the life I had already left, it was not the most important thing to me. I’ve really lived and experienced things that the vast majority of people don’t even come close to experiencing. By then, I had traveled to about fifty countries. I’ve seen unimaginable beauties and experienced wonderful moments, so if I really have to die and I’m not too sorry. But I am terribly sorry for my wife, and especially my daughter. My daughter is preparing to take over the running of the company from me, but she is still far from taking over the reins on her own. If I die so suddenly, it will be an unspeakable shock for them, and they will have to take over the running of the company immediately, and perform even more complicated procedures of official takeover and transfer of property. They will have no idea that I will continue to exist, but will reckon that I have died and that this is the end and mourn for me.

That thinking made me very sad and I anxiously waited for the decision of the Boss, who was just finishing the conversation. He crossed his arms at waist height and then waved them outward, which was a sign that he was done.

And then I came to the agenda.

The character who stood closest to me pointed to me and said, 'What are we going to do with him?'

The boss turned to me and measured me twice from head to toe. I could study him well now, for he was facing me, and he was close. There was not the slightest outline of the face, only complete blackness. I had a feeling like I was looking into infinite dark depths.

'Let it stay,' said the Chief.

I was overwhelmed with euphoric joy and gratitude. I will still live my life, I will not shock and sadden the family and I will help my daughter to fully prepare and take over the firm!

'Let him think for as long as he can,' I thought.

Jesus

I found myself on the shores of the Sea of Galilee !!! Since I also traveled to the Holy Land, I knew exactly where I was. It was in the vicinity of the present-day town of Tabgha. There are the Church of the Loaves and Fish and the Church of the Primacy of Saint Peter. But the time was not present, but two thousand years ago.

In the open space a few feet in front and again a little to the right, Jesus stood and spoke to the crowd, as it is always mentioned in the Bible. The crowd was some thirty, forty people. Now free from the burden of the certainty of death, I felt great joy, that I have the good fortune and privilege to personally attend such an event, although I cannot call myself a believer in the classical sense.

I studied Jesus carefully, trying to remember every detail. Jesus was my height or a few centimeters lower, so between one hundred and seventy-five and one hundred and eighty centimeters. He was dressed in a robe of unpainted linen, but not white, but a slightly yellowish hue. He had dark brown sandals on his feet. His hair was light brown and reached to his shoulders, so I immediately thought that in pictures and movies he is always shown with long hair, and he is not there at all. He was of normal body constitution, perhaps even a little thin. The audience was very different from him in appearance. They were all shorter, of stronger constitution, dark-skinned, and had black hair. They were dressed in tunics that reached just below their knees, made of coarser material and even darker shades, and some were even colored.

Jesus spoke of the need to believe in God, in God's order, in other people, and in love and understanding among people. He emphasized the need to believe in the good, but not only to believe but to do good deeds and live accordingly. Words themselves or declarations in accordance with the enumerated nonsense do not mean anything without deeds. One should do good deeds and live according to these principles. One should live in love and harmony with other people, and spread positive energy through words and deeds. He said that all people are equal before God and should act accordingly. He kept repeating that only faith in God, faith in love among people, living by these principles, doing good deeds, and showing love to others bring reward at the end of life. All who adhere to these principles will be rewarded for their good deeds, and especially those who still in this life experience the knowledge of connection with God. He has mentioned many times that life is eternal and that the position of every man after death depends on the behavior and deeds done in this life.

He talked about all people being connected to God, they just need to experience the knowledge of it. Everyone will experience it, but only at the moment of death. Those who come to this realization while they are still alive are extremely lucky, but in order to reach this realization they must deserve it with their faith, effort and deeds.

He constantly emphasized that people should behave in accordance with the principles he spoke of in order to receive a reward for those deeds when the time came.

One of the audience asked: 'And will it really be like that?'

'It will be when I say so,' Jesus said in a slightly raised voice.

After that we found ourselves in another place. Again Jesus was giving a similar speech, and the schedule as we stood was the same as the first time. Again, someone, who was not entirely convinced of what Jesus was saying, asked a similar question. Jesus also answered him in a slightly raised voice and we found ourselves in a new location again.

After the third case, in which the scenario from the first two was repeated, it became clear to me that I was always attending the same segment of Jesus ’speech. Jesus describes how people should behave, what to believe, and how to live in order to be rewarded at the end of life, and someone in the audience doubts the truth of those words and asks a similar, suspicious question.

'Well, these parts of Jesus' speech that I attend seem to be meant for me, because I don't literally believe in those descriptions and interpretations, as religions present them,' I thought.

Jesus turned to it and looked at me for a few moments! Then I could study it better. He had light blue eyes and a mild, enigmatic, somewhat dreamy look. His face was straight, framed by a youthful beard, three or four centimeters long. It was not overgrown in the chin, but a narrow band of chin ran down the ears to the jaws, where it widened a little and merged with that part on the chin itself, which was thicker and a little longer. The mustache was connected to the chin in a thin line, and below the lower lip was a slightly wider tuft, also connected to the chin. On each side of that tuft was an overgrown white skin. His skin was extremely light and bounced strongly from the dark skin of the listener.

After that, we moved to new locations twice more, and the scenario was always similar. The event took place outdoors and was attended by between twenty and fifty people. Jesus spoke of slightly different things each time, but in the same context. He kept repeating that all people are connected to God, they just need to experience the knowledge of it. Everyone will experience it, but only at the moment of death. Those who come to this realization while they are still alive are extremely lucky, but in order to reach this realization they must deserve it with their faith, effort and deeds. He also spoke about the importance of love and understanding among people, about the equality of all people, about the need to do good deeds, the need to live in harmony with people and nature, belief in God and God’s order. All who adhere to these principles will be rewarded for their good deeds, and especially those who still in this life experience the knowledge of connection with God. He mentioned every time that life is eternal and that his position after death depends on the behavior and deeds of every man.

He always mentioned negative things as well. He spoke of the hypocrisy and hypocrisy of people, who say one thing and do another, of falsely portraying their person to gain a reputation in society or material things. The worst are those who loudly point out that they adhere to certain beliefs and virtues, and even call for the condemnation of others, when in reality they do the opposite themselves. But God, who knows more about man than he himself, cannot be deceived. At the end of life, the real truth will be known. That is why it is important that life, behavior and actions be in accordance with positive principles, because this will bring a reward at the end of life.

In no speech did Jesus mention any punishment for those who do not behave as he preached. He always just emphasized that those who live according to what he narrated will be rewarded. He never once mentioned any restrictions that people should adhere to. Exactly the opposite. All his speeches were imbued with statements that people should strive to spend their lives in pleasure, because only a satisfied man has positive energy. But not to strive for some selfish pleasure, which man will enjoy without regard to the environment, but for pleasure that includes others, which has a positive effect on others, with whom in communion man creates positive energy. He also never once mentioned any religious characteristics or the need to respect some religious regulations. He did not mention any connection with God at all. He kept repeating about the need to believe in God, in God's order, to believe in the good, to believe in the continuation of this earthly life. But not only about the need to believe, but also to live accordingly and do good deeds for life, and then there will be a reward for that.

Jesus spoke in much more detail about the things I am describing, but I did not even bother to remember those minor details. First of all, at the beginning I was so fascinated by the fact that I was attending Jesus' speech live that I did not pay too much attention to the facts themselves. With repeated sequences, I remembered all the important facts well. Probably because of that I also attended more events. Even the ancient Romans had the saying 'repetitio est mater studiorum', 'repetition is the mother of learning'. It did not occur to me then that I would write about it and that it would be interesting to have as many details as possible. All I had in mind was to tell my experience to as many people as possible and to convey to them the meaning of Jesus' statements. First that all people are connected with God and that at the moment of death everyone will realize this. Secondly that they should adhere to certain principles, and these are faith in God and love of God, love of people, kindness, honesty, positive energy, harmony with people and nature. Those who will strive in life to adhere to these principles as much as possible and live in accordance with them will be rewarded.

Since it all took time together, I had time to think about both what I was listening to and what I had experienced while waiting for the Chief’s decision. I could now clearly illuminate the mystery of those levels of eternal flow, the vision I had. After death, everyone goes into that flow, but it depends on their level. Those who live a more positive life and are filled with positive energy will go to a higher level than they were before, and those with negative energy to a lower one. I was not shown the difference between these levels, but I clearly knew that there was a difference and that "higher levels are more valuable". It has also not been shown to me in what form further existence continues, whether as an individual, bringing with it memories or merging with the energy of its level. I conclude that it still exists as an individual in that whole, because in my vision it was indicated to me that there is a possibility of moving to a higher level and being in it.

Return

When the fifth sequence of my presence to the teachings of Jesus was over, I found myself in the hospital room again.

It goes without saying that the experiences described earlier caused a storm in my psyche. Experiencing such amazing things, which I have never heard anyone would experience, caused a real avalanche of emotions.

Although the doctor, a few months later when I told him this, said that these were hallucinations due to lack of oxygen, I am sure I really experienced them. Why am I so sure? Because I embarked on this adventure fully awake, I was awake all the time and fully aware of my real situation, but also the situation I was going through. At no point during the events described did I lose sight of the fact that I was on the verge of death in a hospital room or that I had, perhaps, passed that edge. Apart from those shocking moments, when a lighted hallway appeared to me or when I found myself in a place that at first I thought was hell, all the rest of the time I thought completely soberly, aware of the parallel unfolding of reality. In full consciousness, I experienced these amazing events. From shock and panicky fear when I saw the tunnel or when I thought I had come to hell, to complete calm when I realized that human existence does not end in death but transforms into another reality, ardent desire to return to the present life and huge joy when I attended Jesus ’speeches. And why couldn’t that happen? I was just an observer, and someone in whose power it was a performer. And what do we humans know at all about the origin and functioning of the world and life. What do we know about the reality of the universe? Our knowledge is less than a grain of dust in the endless desert.

Countless times I turn these events in my head and analyze. If that teleportation had happened to me immediately, I would surely have thought that I was dreaming it, because I would not connect what I experienced with reality. But when I first looked at the lighted hallway, and everything else was normal and in place, I undoubtedly found in full consciousness that I was awake, that my brain was functioning normally, however the hallway was also completely real. I didn’t have any urge or call to go down that hallway, but it made me think that life was starting to fade. I am therefore convinced that the apparition of the lighted corridor was only an introduction with the aim of preparing me for the events that followed. To the fact that the process of dying has begun and to come to terms with that fact. My mind then opened up and I was able to move into another reality.

For a long time I wondered to myself how I remained calm and thought in cold blood in such a situation. I got the answer from the results of DNA analysis. I have a gene that is colloquially called warrior. Contrary to the name, this gene does not stimulate any warrior moods, but in difficult and dangerous situations allows a person to act rationally and in cold blood. But there are also warrior gene flaws. Everyday routines and jobs for such warriors are very boring and tiring.

Maybe the doctor is partially right. But not in the sense that these were hallucinations caused by a lack of oxygen, but that the lack of oxygen opened a portal to another level of consciousness. The most famous prophecies from history took place in locations where there was a lack of oxygen in the air due to the evaporation of other gases. Death always begins with the act of stopping the heart and the flow of oxygen to the brain. But the act of dying itself does not happen on the principle of a power switch, so you turn off life with one click. Brain death occurs gradually, even if it is a matter of a few minutes. During this period, processes unknown to people occur. When the level of oxygen in the brain needed to sustain life exceeds a critical limit, portals open up towards some other realities and dimensions. Those who, like me, are lucky to return from that area to the local reality, can witness these supernatural experiences.