Kokemuksen kuvaus
It was my birthday and my parents let me have a small party. One of my girlfriends was staying the night. My parents went out to dinner and I decided that I was a teenager and wanted to try drinking alcohol like my father did. I filled up a tall glass with Gin held my nose and consumed all of it. The equivalent of at least fifteen shots of straight alcohol.
I quickly became disoriented and then fell unconscious. My sister and my friend put me in my bed and when my parents came home and went in to check on me my mother noticed I wouldn't wake up. At this point, they told me they tried to carry me to the car. My father was so mad, he wouldn't help and I was at this point dead-weight. This is the point when I remember lifting out of my body and floating mid-air over my body, which was lying in the dining room floor. I left my body. I was no longer intoxicated; I was completely clear and could see everything at once. I realized that I was almost dead and became very upset and began to cry for Jesus to help me.
At this moment, I was aware of a light enveloping me. I was the light and it was me. There was another Being with me. The Being let me know that I was going to die and I must leave this body for good. I remember arguing with the Being explaining that I didn't want to because it was so hard going through the childhood years and I didn't want to have to go through this again. The Being indicated that my body was severely damaged and I couldn't go back. I became very adamant at this point that God was all powerful and could fix the body. At some point, the decision was made to let me re-enter my body on my faith or will, whatever one may call it.
The next phase was like an evaluation. I was taken back through my past, beginning with my birth and we went over what had already happened. Then I was shown an overview of key points in my life that was to come. One of these key experiences was that I would have a child at a very early age and it would be a boy. It was explained to me that from this point forward I would do everything earlier than most, including my older sister. I would marry first, bear children first and generally have more responsibility than my sisters and other friends and family members. I was told that I would soon leave my church and have a short period of rebellion and drug experimentation but this would end fairly soon and I would begin to climb out of it. I was told that I was going to be a writer and that my words would touch many people. I was instructed to write a book on or around the age of forty and that after I had fulfilled my life plans I would eventually die before my two sisters.
All of a sudden... I opened my eyes and I was in a hospital bed in the intensive care unit. The preacher from my church was there praying for me. I actually thought at this point that I had died when I saw him there with my mother who was crying. I gradually woke up and asked what had happened? My mother said I had been in a coma for three days and I had almost died.
I quickly became disoriented and then fell unconscious. My sister and my friend put me in my bed and when my parents came home and went in to check on me my mother noticed I wouldn't wake up. At this point, they told me they tried to carry me to the car. My father was so mad, he wouldn't help and I was at this point dead-weight. This is the point when I remember lifting out of my body and floating mid-air over my body, which was lying in the dining room floor. I left my body. I was no longer intoxicated; I was completely clear and could see everything at once. I realized that I was almost dead and became very upset and began to cry for Jesus to help me.
At this moment, I was aware of a light enveloping me. I was the light and it was me. There was another Being with me. The Being let me know that I was going to die and I must leave this body for good. I remember arguing with the Being explaining that I didn't want to because it was so hard going through the childhood years and I didn't want to have to go through this again. The Being indicated that my body was severely damaged and I couldn't go back. I became very adamant at this point that God was all powerful and could fix the body. At some point, the decision was made to let me re-enter my body on my faith or will, whatever one may call it.
The next phase was like an evaluation. I was taken back through my past, beginning with my birth and we went over what had already happened. Then I was shown an overview of key points in my life that was to come. One of these key experiences was that I would have a child at a very early age and it would be a boy. It was explained to me that from this point forward I would do everything earlier than most, including my older sister. I would marry first, bear children first and generally have more responsibility than my sisters and other friends and family members. I was told that I would soon leave my church and have a short period of rebellion and drug experimentation but this would end fairly soon and I would begin to climb out of it. I was told that I was going to be a writer and that my words would touch many people. I was instructed to write a book on or around the age of forty and that after I had fulfilled my life plans I would eventually die before my two sisters.
All of a sudden... I opened my eyes and I was in a hospital bed in the intensive care unit. The preacher from my church was there praying for me. I actually thought at this point that I had died when I saw him there with my mother who was crying. I gradually woke up and asked what had happened? My mother said I had been in a coma for three days and I had almost died.
Taustatiedot
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
August 15, 1973
NDE-elementit
Kokemuksesi aikana, oliko siihen liittyvä hengenvaarallinen tapahtuma?
Yes Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I had an accidental overdose.
Miten arvioisit kokemuksesi sisältöä?
Mixed
Tunsitko olosi eroavasi kehostasi?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Miten kokemusajan korkein tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasosi vertautui normaaliin päivittäiseen tietoisuuteen ja valppauteen?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was different in a sense that I seemed to understand more clearly the process of life and death, it is no longer a mystery. I now understand that we actively participate in our own destiny by the choices we make at every given moment no matter how minute. We are not simply puppets of clay entertaining the gods. I would say that my consciousness was different during the experience in that I felt lighter, I could see as well, if not better and communication was instant or timeless, it's hard to describe, but it definitely didn't involve sound waves or physical sensations. It was a very emotional experience, much more intense than any other event in my life. I knew the chips were down and I could not allow myself to fail by succumbing to an untimely death as a child in this life.
Milloin kokemuksen aikana olit korkeimmalla tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasolla?
As soon as I floated up and out of my body.
Olivatko ajatuksesi nopeutuneet?
Neither
Tuntuiko ajankulku nopeutuvan tai hidastuvan?
Everything seemed to be happening all at once
It was as if everything was in one place. Whatever we were discussing seemed to appear instantly.
Olivatko aistisi tavallista elävämpiä?
More so than usual
Vertaa kokemuksesi näkemistä tavalliseen näkökykyysi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
Everything seemed to be in a haze of light. At some points during my review it was like watching a movie.
Vertaa kokemuksesi kuuloa tavalliseen kuuloosi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
As I stated earlier it was apparent that what we determine as a 'sound' was instantly registered and understood. The 'sounds' were limited to communication with the being who was helping me. In other words I couldn't hear my family and what was going on with my body at the time; I could only communicate with the light being.
Olitko tietoinen tapahtumista muualla?
Neither
Kuljitko tai läpi tunnelin?
No
Näkyikö kokemuksessasi mitään olentoja?
Neither
Kohtasitko tai tulitko tietoiseksi mistään edesmenneistä (tai elävistä) olennoista?
Yes I did not know him. It felt like a male presence, I had cried out for Jesus, but the being didn't introduce himself or give me a name. It did feel like we knew each other though, like that feeling when you see someone and you know them but can't recall from where.
Näitkö tai tunsitko olevasi kirkkaan valon ympäröimä?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Näitkö epätavallisen valon?
Yes As I stated earlier, I was the light, the light was with me and I could perceive it both visually and also I felt an integral part of it; like if several beings were turned into a vapor and mixed together.
Tuntuiko sinusta, että astuit johonkin toiseen, yliluonnolliseen maailmaan?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Mitä muita tunteita koit kokemuksen aikana?
The first emotion was when I looked down and saw my body and realized I was dead. I became very upset and cried hysterically. I called out for Jesus. I was scared because I had inadvertently done this to myself and I felt I would somehow be punished; like when a teenager wrecks the car and it has to be totaled. When the being in the light communicated to me that I was indeed going to die I became defiant and emotionally charged with conviction that I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that God could raise a body from dust and that I should be given a chance to go back in and finish this life I had started.
Tunsitko rauhaa tai miellyttävyyttä?
Neither
Tunsitko iloa?
Neither
Tunsitko harmoniaa tai yhtenäisyyttä universumin kanssa?
United, one with the world
Tuntuiko äkillisesti siltä, että ymmärsit kaiken?
Everything about the universe
Palasivatko kohtaukset menneisyydestäsi takaisin mieleesi?
Past flashed before me, out of my control I was given a sum up of what had happened thus far in my short life, I was only thirteen. I had a horrible relationship with my father but that didn't come up in the review. In fact, I don't recall any negativity during my review. The most vivid recollection was the actual moment of birth, which began with bright lights and noises that startled me. It felt like I was watching a movie yet in it at the same time.
I also learned not to fear death if you choose to live and go forward setting and working to accomplish goals.
Näkyivätkö tulevaisuuden kohtaukset sinulle?
From personal future
The future events that I was attuned to only had to do with my life plan, in other words these events were not on a global or historical scale but a personal level.
Tulitko rajalle tai pisteeseen, josta ei ole paluuta?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
Jumala, hengellisyys ja uskonto
Mikä uskonto sinulla oli ennen kokemustasi?
Moderate Southern Baptist
Onko uskonnollinen käytäntösi muuttunut kokemuksesi jälkeen?
Yes As I stated, I left the Southern Baptist church of my youth never to return. Then I went on an eleven year self-imposed journey into theological and comparative religion studies. After my experience, I understood that there are many paths to the same destination. No one right way, and each is like a facet of a diamond without which a diamond would not be the end result.
Mikä on uskontoasi nyt?
Liberal Comparative Religion studies and Philosophy
Tuliko arvoihisi ja uskomuksiisi muutoksia kokemuksesi takia?
Yes As I stated, I left the Southern Baptist church of my youth never to return. Then I went on an eleven year self-imposed journey into theological and comparative religion studies. After my experience, I understood that there are many paths to the same destination. No one right way, and each is like a facet of a diamond without which a diamond would not be the end result.
Tuntuiko sinusta, että kohtasit mystisen olennon tai läsnäolon, tai kuulit tunnistamattoman äänen?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Näkyikö sinulle vainajia tai hengellisiä henkiä?
Neither
Maan päällisistä elämistä uskonnon ulkopuolella
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko erityistä tietoa tai tietoa tarkoituksestasi?
Yes I understood that the death process is, for lack of a better term, normal. That death is simply a threshold to a never ending procession of life and learning how to love one another while simultaneously escaping the traps and pitfalls of our fragile physical make up. We are all encouraged to get back up after our falls, recoup and move forward to a destiny we have co-created.
Ovatko ihmissuhteesi muuttuneet erityisesti kokemuksesi seurauksena?
Uncertain It's hard to say what paths I would have crossed (or not crossed) had I not gone through this and how it might have changed my inter-personal relationships. I do speak up on certain subjects that others may just wonder about. It's hard to tell others just how one knows with absolute conviction certain things without going into how you received this information. I often prefer not to talk about this experience and others that followed because I feel that it challenges many people's belief systems.
NDE:n jälkeen
Oliko kokemusta vaikea ilmaista sanoin?
Yes Describing the way in which the other intelligence that was present communicated with me.
Onko sinulla kokemuksesi jälkeen psyykkisiä, epätavallisia tai muita erityisiä lahjoja, joita sinulla ei ollut ennen kokemusta?
Yes I have had numerous precognitive experiences. I am currently able to remote view locations. I am able to hear in ranges that most people can't hear. I can read people very well. I can look at a photo and determine whether the person is living. I have had numerous paranormal experiences since the NDE.
Onko kokemuksessasi yksi tai useampi osa, joka on sinulle erityisen merkityksellinen tai tärkeä? Selitä.
The most meaningful part of the experience is the direct knowledge that we do survive death and those beings who help us are present at all times.
Oletko koskaan jakanut tätä kokemusta muiden kanssa?
Yes I didn't tell anyone about the experience for many years. When I did tell my family, my sisters in particular ridiculed me and didn't seem to believe me. My mother believes me because I was able to describe the scene wherein I was laying in our dining room floor when I was completely unconscious and near death at the time.
Oliko sinulla tietoa kuolemanrajakokemuksista (NDE) ennen kokemustasi?
No
Mitä olit mieltä kokemuksesi todellisuudesta heti sen tapahtuessa (päivien tai viikkojen ajan)?
Experience was definitely real I was only a kid so I was bewildered. I began to challenge the belief system we were being taught at my church. It all came to a head one afternoon during a youth group meeting at my church. Our group leader, an older woman in the church, was explaining to several children from the ages of seven years old to teenagers that all the Chinese people were going to hell because they did not know Jesus Christ. I challenged her and said that was not true. She became upset with me and refused to answer my pointed questions. I stumped her by inquiring what happened to all the souls who were born before Jesus then. I then explained to her that I was only a mere human being and I would never send anyone to hell because they didn't happen to live in a region that practiced Christianity. I also told her that I had concluded that God had much more compassion than a kid such as myself did so it didn't make any sense what she was telling us. She became infuriated and ordered me to leave the church and go home. I never went back to the church I had attended since I was two years old. Mainly because I understood at the deepest level that what they were teaching the children was far from the truth.
Mitä mieltä olet kokemuksesi todellisuudesta nyt?
Experience was definitely real I have come to realize that nothing can be proved or disproved when it comes to this type of thing. Each person forms their opinion or belief system through direct experience or by reading about others who have had these experiences. Judging by the countless numbers of people who have come forward and told about their NDE's a pattern emerges that can't be denied. Now deciding what this empirical evidence actually means is a very personal decision left up to each individual.
Oletko koskaan elämäsi aikana kokenut mitään, mikä olisi toistanut osan kokemuksesta?
No
Onko jotain muuta, mitä haluaisit lisätä kokemuksestasi?
I highly recommend that anyone reading this 'never try this at home' simply to induce the experience. All truth comes in it's own time.
Onko muita kysymyksiä, joita voisimme kysyä auttaaksemme sinua viestimään kokemuksesi?
You might ask the experiencer to describe the process of leaving and entering their bodies in detail. I think this would be an interesting subject.