Kokemuksen kuvaus
The reason I called 911 on March 5, 2014, was because over a period of four hours that morning (from 9:30am - 2:00pm). I had been having episodes of feeling like I was going to ‘pass out’, ‘die’, and the first few episodes involved only this feeling. I had no other symptoms until a tremendous flash of heat that shot through my body and felt like my blood was on fire accompanied the last two episodes. It was then I knew this was serious and I made the call. When I saw my Electro-cardio Gram (EKG) read-out go flat-line, I was instantly out of my body, not in the Emergency Room (ER).
Suddenly, I was totally aware I did not have an earthly body anymore. I knew it without question. The only sense I had was sight and mindfulness. It felt as if I was positioned centrally in a doorframe that opened into another realm straight in front of me. It was not a tunnel. It was a ‘space’ without defining borders. More like getting ready to leave one ‘room’ and enter into another. This ‘space’ I was looking into, was completely filled with white light. The only other defining feature was a black pathway that, in my mind, seemed to be about a foot wide, but extended out in front of me and went on without end. There were no people. Nobody spoke to me. There was no sound at all. As I'm looking at the pathway I'm feeling curiosity about it and asking myself some questions like: ’what is that for?’ ‘Where does it go?’ ‘Am I supposed to do something now?’ I said to myself, ‘this black pathway reminds me of the people mover devices you see in some airports.’ I was feeling a sense of what was happening was more real than my life in my body. It was an extremely pleasant state of mind in which to be. I had no fear or anxiety whatsoever. I was enjoying this immensely.
Suddenly I was ‘awake’ on the gurney in the Emergency Room with the Doctor and six other people around me attaching me to an external pacer device. There was frantic activity. As they attached the external pacer device, my EKG pattern returned on the telemetry monitor. The Emergency Room Doctor was ‘yelling’ (it felt like he was) to me at the foot of the gurney, ‘I'm so sorry this is happening to you, but, boy, am I glad you got here when it did.’ He was holding up a printout of the EKG strip, showing it to me at the same time. He went on, ‘We're sending you immediately to St. Joseph's Hospital, as a direct admit to Cardiac Care Unit, because you have complete heart block, need an internal pacemaker and we do not do that here.’ They loaded me into the ambulance, with the external pacer device attached and transferred me to St. Joseph's Hospital Heart Center.
Suddenly, I was totally aware I did not have an earthly body anymore. I knew it without question. The only sense I had was sight and mindfulness. It felt as if I was positioned centrally in a doorframe that opened into another realm straight in front of me. It was not a tunnel. It was a ‘space’ without defining borders. More like getting ready to leave one ‘room’ and enter into another. This ‘space’ I was looking into, was completely filled with white light. The only other defining feature was a black pathway that, in my mind, seemed to be about a foot wide, but extended out in front of me and went on without end. There were no people. Nobody spoke to me. There was no sound at all. As I'm looking at the pathway I'm feeling curiosity about it and asking myself some questions like: ’what is that for?’ ‘Where does it go?’ ‘Am I supposed to do something now?’ I said to myself, ‘this black pathway reminds me of the people mover devices you see in some airports.’ I was feeling a sense of what was happening was more real than my life in my body. It was an extremely pleasant state of mind in which to be. I had no fear or anxiety whatsoever. I was enjoying this immensely.
Suddenly I was ‘awake’ on the gurney in the Emergency Room with the Doctor and six other people around me attaching me to an external pacer device. There was frantic activity. As they attached the external pacer device, my EKG pattern returned on the telemetry monitor. The Emergency Room Doctor was ‘yelling’ (it felt like he was) to me at the foot of the gurney, ‘I'm so sorry this is happening to you, but, boy, am I glad you got here when it did.’ He was holding up a printout of the EKG strip, showing it to me at the same time. He went on, ‘We're sending you immediately to St. Joseph's Hospital, as a direct admit to Cardiac Care Unit, because you have complete heart block, need an internal pacemaker and we do not do that here.’ They loaded me into the ambulance, with the external pacer device attached and transferred me to St. Joseph's Hospital Heart Center.
Taustatiedot
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
3/5/14
NDE-elementit
Kokemuksesi aikana, oliko siihen liittyvä hengenvaarallinen tapahtuma?
Yes Life threatening event, but not clinical death
I was taken to the ER via ambulance from my home. I was on the gurney in the ER and had been attached to cardiac telemetry because of the symptoms I had been having. The telemetry monitor screen was positioned so I could see it at all times. While in the room alone at the time of the event, I saw my EKG readout suddenly go ‘flat line.’ My heart stopped beating. [Editor’s Note: Telemetry Monitor allows medical professionals to track measurements and data of the heart from a remote distance.]
Miten arvioisit kokemuksesi sisältöä?
Entirely pleasant
Kokemus sisälsi
Out of body experience
Tunsitko olosi eroavasi kehostasi?
No
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Miten kokemusajan korkein tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasosi vertautui normaaliin päivittäiseen tietoisuuteen ja valppauteen?
More consciousness and alertness than normal The entire time I felt more ‘real’, more ‘alive’, more ‘conscious’, more ‘mindful’: I felt, without question, better than being ‘alive’ in my body as we know it.
Milloin kokemuksen aikana olit korkeimmalla tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasolla?
This is difficult to answer because the entire experience was only 60 seconds in length. I can only answer it best by saying I felt at my highest level of consciousness and alertness during the entire time.
Olivatko ajatuksesi nopeutuneet?
No
Tuntuiko ajankulku nopeutuvan tai hidastuvan?
No
Olivatko aistisi tavallista elävämpiä?
More vivid than usual
Vertaa kokemuksesi näkemistä tavalliseen näkökykyysi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
Vision was the only sense I had. It was central, forward, no peripheral and clear, sharp, with a very pleasant white light. The only colors I saw was the white light and the black ‘pathway.’ It felt like pure, unadulterated vision.
Vertaa kokemuksesi kuuloa tavalliseen kuuloosi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
There was no sound, whatsoever, during the experience.
Olitko tietoinen tapahtumista muualla?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Tunnel
Kuljitko tai läpi tunnelin?
No
Näkyikö kokemuksessasi mitään olentoja?
No
Kohtasitko tai tulitko tietoiseksi mistään edesmenneistä (tai elävistä) olennoista?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Unearthly light
Näitkö tai tunsitko olevasi kirkkaan valon ympäröimä?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Näitkö epätavallisen valon?
Yes The light was not from any fixture anywhere. It was not like ‘sunlight’: it was a pure, white kind of light. Not sharply bright, but pleasant and embracing me.
Tuntuiko sinusta, että astuit johonkin toiseen, yliluonnolliseen maailmaan?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm In answering this question I have to say it felt like I was on the verge of actually entering into the space. When I was suddenly aware I was out of my earthly body, I had the sense of like a ‘door frame’ around me, but I was still in the center of this ‘door frame’ and only looking into the unearthly space I was looking at. I never did actually enter into it, but could only see it.
Mitä muita tunteita koit kokemuksen aikana?
I instantly felt weightless, unburdened, unencumbered with a body, free, light, airy, and almost like I could fly. I enjoyed it immensely. I felt like I wanted it to stay that way.
Tunsitko rauhaa tai miellyttävyyttä?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Tunsitko iloa?
Happiness
Tunsitko harmoniaa tai yhtenäisyyttä universumin kanssa?
I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Tuntuiko äkillisesti siltä, että ymmärsit kaiken?
No
Palasivatko kohtaukset menneisyydestäsi takaisin mieleesi?
No
Näkyivätkö tulevaisuuden kohtaukset sinulle?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Boundary
Saavutko rajalle tai rajoittavaan fyysiseen rakenteeseen?
No
Tulitko rajalle tai pisteeseen, josta ei ole paluuta?
No
Jumala, hengellisyys ja uskonto
Mitä merkitystä annoit uskonnolliselle/hengelliselle elämäsi ennen kokemustasi
Greatly important to me
Mikä uskonto sinulla oli ennen kokemustasi?
Christian- Protestant I am a non-denominational Christian and have been since the age of 12
Onko uskonnollinen käytäntösi muuttunut kokemuksesi jälkeen?
No
Mitä merkitystä annat uskonnolliselle/hengelliselle elämäsi kokemuksesi jälkeen
Greatly important to me
Mikä on uskontoasi nyt?
Christian- Protestant
Sisältyikö kokemukseesi piirteitä, jotka olivat linjassa maallisten uskomustesi kanssa?
Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Tuliko arvoihisi ja uskomuksiisi muutoksia kokemuksesi takia?
Yes I have absolutely no fear of death now: none, whatsoever. I now see death only as a transition, not something to fear.
Tuntuiko sinusta, että kohtasit mystisen olennon tai läsnäolon, tai kuulit tunnistamattoman äänen?
No
Näkyikö sinulle vainajia tai hengellisiä henkiä?
No
Kohtasitko tai tiedostitko minkään olentoja, jotka ovat aiemmin eläneet maapallolla ja jotka mainitaan nimeltä uskonnoissa (esimerkiksi: Jeesus, Muhammad, Buddha, jne?)
No
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa Jumalan olemassaolosta?
No
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa universaalista yhteydestä tai ykseydestä?
No
Uskotko Jumalan olemassaoloon ennen kokemustasi?
God definitely exists
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa Jumalan olemassaolosta?
No
Uskotko Jumalan olemassaoloon kokemuksesi jälkeen?
God definitely exists
Maan päällisistä elämistä uskonnon ulkopuolella
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko erityistä tietoa tai tietoa tarkoituksestasi?
No
Uskotko, että maallinen elämämme on merkityksellistä ja tärkeää ennen kokemustasi
Are meaningful and significant
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa elämän merkityksestä?
No
Uskoitko tuonpuoleiseen ennen kokemustasi?
An afterlife definitely exists
Uskotko tuonpuoleiseen kokemuksesi jälkeen?
An afterlife definitely exists No
Pelkäätkö kuolemaa ennen kokemustasi?
I slightly feared death
Pelkäätkö kuolemaa kokemuksesi jälkeen
I do not fear death
Pelkäsitkö elää elämääsi ennen kokemustasi
Not fearful in living my earthly life
Pelkäsitkö elää elämääsi kokemuksesi jälkeen
Not fearful in living my earthly life
Uskotko, että maallinen elämämme on merkityksellistä ja tärkeää ennen kokemustasi
Are meaningful and significant
Uskotko, että maallinen elämämme on merkityksellistä ja tärkeää kokemuksesi jälkeen
Are meaningful and significant
Saitko tietoa siitä, miten elämme elämämme?
No
Saitko kokemuksesi aikana tietoa elämän vaikeuksista, haasteista ja koettelemuksista?
No
Olitko myötätuntoinen ennen kokemustasi
Greatly compassionate toward others
Saitko kokemuksesi aikana tietoa rakkaudesta?
No
Olitko myötätuntoinen kokemuksesi jälkeen
Greatly compassionate toward others
Mitä elämänmuutoksia tapahtui elämässäsi kokemuksesi jälkeen?
No changes in my life No changes in my life. I'm still in a recovery phase since I had my pacemaker inserted. However, my experience has absolutely removed any fear whatsoever of death.
Ovatko ihmissuhteesi muuttuneet erityisesti kokemuksesi seurauksena?
No No
NDE:n jälkeen
Oliko kokemusta vaikea ilmaista sanoin?
Yes There was so much frantic activity going on around me, immediately after the event, and I was back in my body, with all my human senses again, I didn't even remember the event until several hours after I was admitted to St. Joseph's and all the commotion calmed. Eventually, I remembered: it was at first like a ‘picture’ in my mind and then I realized what had really happened to me.
Kuinka tarkasti muistat kokemuksen verrattuna muihin elämän tapahtumiin, jotka tapahtuivat kokemuksen aikana?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It has been only one month since my experience. But I can say that it's as if the entire event has been "burned" into my brain. I can recapture the entire event in my mind like looking at a photograph now.
Onko sinulla kokemuksesi jälkeen psyykkisiä, epätavallisia tai muita erityisiä lahjoja, joita sinulla ei ollut ennen kokemusta?
Uncertain It is still early since my experience, but I have a strange sense of heightened discernment about impending health related events. I guess I wouldn't categorize it as a ‘special gift’ so much as probably a normal state of mind considering the event was life threatening. I will soon turn 70 and at this age such events are more in the forefront of my thinking.
Onko kokemuksessasi yksi tai useampi osa, joka on sinulle erityisen merkityksellinen tai tärkeä? Selitä.
The entire event was significant to me because it confirms to me that my choice in belief is valid, true, and ‘yea though I walk through the shadow of the valley of death, thou art with me!’
Oletko koskaan jakanut tätä kokemusta muiden kanssa?
Yes It wasn't until several hours after I was transferred to St. Joseph's Hospital, that I remembered the event. I kept going over it, over it, over it in my own mind and it dawned on me, finally, that in those 60 seconds I had indeed had an NDE! I didn't share it with anyone in the hospital. It took me about a week to finally share it with my daughter who lives with me. I also shared with my very close, dear friend (male), and my three other children. All of them were accepting, wanting to hear about it, with a wide-eyed reaction.
Oliko sinulla tietoa kuolemanrajakokemuksista (NDE) ennen kokemustasi?
Yes I had a probable NDE when I was an infant of 3 months of age. I believe I submitted that account to this site several years ago. As a Registered Nurse, over my 41 years of practice I have had a few patients of mine who have shared their own NDE experiences with me. My previous knowledge of NDE did not seem to affect this experience. Comparing this one, with the ‘probable’ one I had: they are polar opposite in certain ways.
Mitä olit mieltä kokemuksesi todellisuudesta heti sen tapahtuessa (päivien tai viikkojen ajan)?
Experience was definitely real I viewed the reality of my experience as MORE real than the life/reality I feel, as I sit here typing this. My view of it is not fading or ‘going away’ or being dismissed in any sense. Why do I view it that way? Based on my life-long belief in the God I know and my relationship with Him across seven decades.
Mitä mieltä olet kokemuksesi todellisuudesta nyt?
Experience was definitely real My experience was more than the ‘real’ we are confined to in our body. Scripture teaches me that my life here on earth is ‘not my home.’ There is eternity: life after I leave this body.
Oletko koskaan elämäsi aikana kokenut mitään, mikä olisi toistanut osan kokemuksesta?
Yes Waking up each and every day reproduces the entire experience for me. I want it to come back because it was so pleasant.
Onko jotain muuta, mitä haluaisit lisätä kokemuksestasi?
Now that I've had it, I feel a sense of disappointment because I didn't get to enter the space, move along the pathway if that's what was intended. I'm more curious now.
Kokemuksen kuvaus 3540
From as far back as I can remember which takes me to the age of four, until I was nine or ten years old I eagerly looked forward to going to bed at night because of a repetitive 'dream'. This 'dream' was so beautiful, so unusual, and so peaceful, so filled with love; I couldn't wait to close my eyes. I would crawl into bed, lay on my back, close my eyes in the pitch-black darkness of my bedroom and wait. Without fail, it would come to me in exactly the same way. First, there is the blackness. The simple blackness of a darkened room seen through closed eyelids.
Next is an awareness of a blackness that's more than just closed eyes. It felt like liquid black, as if I had been submerged in a vat of ink, but it felt 'thick' like mercury. It is here I wait. Sure enough, there it is. A tiny speck of yellow light at the center of this liquid blackness, which felt like it was 'in front' of me, and very far away. I am aware of motion but I can't figure out whether I'm moving toward that light, or I'm still, and the light is coming to me. Whatever the case, the light gradually grows in size. It is a golden yellow and gives off a warmth and sense of peace, not to my body, but to my mind, heart, soul and spirit. As the light reaches me it engulfs me, takes me 'in', and I'm thrust forward like a rocket being shot off a launch pad - and I'm in my 'dream' world. A place where the word 'Technicolor' doesn't even come close.
There are no words to describe the colors. The sky is blue, but bluer than blue. It's the purity of the colors. I am suddenly aware that I have 360-degree vision. I can see all around myself. I don't have a physical body anymore. I am 'hovering' over the rooftop of my house. I'm looking at the shingles on our roof, which are old, weather beaten, in various stages of decay, and I'm thinking to myself, 'Dad needs to replace those sometime soon.' There is no sound. I see the rooftops of all of our neighbors' houses, for the full length of the street. The lawns are a lush, rich green. I see the three maple trees in our yard adorned in leaves of every shade of the rainbow. Yellow, golden, orange, rust, brown, reds, burgundy, greens, purple. So beautiful the sight feels like music could burst forth. I'm moving 'upward' now, like a helium filled balloon, rising. Now I see the entire valley we live in. Main Street, church steeples, my school, the old Paper Mill, Blum's Shoe Factory, F.A. Owen Publishing company, Kelly Brothers Nursery, the airport, Foster Wheeler Corporation, Bernard McFadden's Hotel on East Hill. And most striking of all, 'the flats' - at the North end of town. This is a ten-acre parcel of land that is pitch black with fine, silt-like soil and the site of an old Indian Reservation long since abandoned. I'm looking at our village and I feel like I'm a part of all of this. I belong here. I feel love rising from the very ground. The beauty of this place strikes me. There is harmony, purpose, reason for living here. And suddenly it's gone. I'm asleep.
I had this 'dream' in exactly the same way, every night, without fail, until I reached nine or ten years old. As a child, I believed it was just that, a 'dream'. Because it was a 'dream', it never occurred to me to share it with anybody. It was pleasant, joyful, and peaceful, a place of loving harmony and I eagerly embraced it. When it stopped happening I was very disappointed. I would go to bed trying to 'will' it to happen, come back, force it into my consciousness, but it never came back. To this day, it has not.
I never told anybody about it. I simply went on with my life but held onto my 'dream' as a wonderful 'memory'.
In 1986, I took my then five-year-old son on a vacation trip to visit his grandmother, my mother, on Marathon Key, in the Florida Keys. She had an Oceanside mobile home and one evening we sat out on the patio enjoying the ocean breeze and sharing memories of life. Suddenly she said to me, 'Bonnie, did I ever tell you about the time you died when you were three months old?' I nearly fell off my chair. She had never told me that. Ever. She went on to say, 'One day you had a high fever, were fussy, wouldn't eat, so I put you in your crib and you did fall asleep. About an hour later, I suddenly had this gut-wrenching urge to check on you. I went to your crib, you were completely blue, not breathing, not moving, and as limp as a wet dishrag. I grabbed you and ran to Dr. M's house across the street. He took you and began to blow air into you through your mouth. The office nurse called the ambulance. We went to the emergency room. It seemed like an eternity waiting. I was hysterical. Finally, Dr. M. came out. I watched his body language, the expression on his face. He came up to me, put his arms around me, hugged me and said, 'Mary, if there ever was a miracle, this is it. We had a dead baby, but she is ok now, thank God.'
I sat there in shock, listening to this. My mother had NEVER told me about that event. Then, suddenly - while sitting there in a state of shock - my 'dream' swept over me. She said I was 'three months old' - that would be in October of the year - Fall - the leaves on the Maple Trees! It hit me like a ton of bricks. It was no 'dream' at all. It couldn't have been a 'dream.' The empty slate of my infant brain had somehow recorded the transcendence of my soul, spirit, from my body to a journey beyond this earth that was interrupted by medical intervention.
In thinking back, before my mother gave me this information, as an adult I used to 'wonder' about my 'dream'. I would say to myself, 'How could I know what my neighborhood, the entire valley I lived in, looked like from a bird's eye view, having NEVER in my life been more than a few inches off the ground!?'
My mother answered many questions about my 'dream' that day. I then shared it with her. It was the first time in my life I had told anybody about it. As of this writing, it is now public knowledge. I've always been interested in NDE accounts, have read many of them, but have never heard one having to do with a three-month-old infant! My own! I am convinced beyond any doubt; I had died that day, just as my mother said.
Next is an awareness of a blackness that's more than just closed eyes. It felt like liquid black, as if I had been submerged in a vat of ink, but it felt 'thick' like mercury. It is here I wait. Sure enough, there it is. A tiny speck of yellow light at the center of this liquid blackness, which felt like it was 'in front' of me, and very far away. I am aware of motion but I can't figure out whether I'm moving toward that light, or I'm still, and the light is coming to me. Whatever the case, the light gradually grows in size. It is a golden yellow and gives off a warmth and sense of peace, not to my body, but to my mind, heart, soul and spirit. As the light reaches me it engulfs me, takes me 'in', and I'm thrust forward like a rocket being shot off a launch pad - and I'm in my 'dream' world. A place where the word 'Technicolor' doesn't even come close.
There are no words to describe the colors. The sky is blue, but bluer than blue. It's the purity of the colors. I am suddenly aware that I have 360-degree vision. I can see all around myself. I don't have a physical body anymore. I am 'hovering' over the rooftop of my house. I'm looking at the shingles on our roof, which are old, weather beaten, in various stages of decay, and I'm thinking to myself, 'Dad needs to replace those sometime soon.' There is no sound. I see the rooftops of all of our neighbors' houses, for the full length of the street. The lawns are a lush, rich green. I see the three maple trees in our yard adorned in leaves of every shade of the rainbow. Yellow, golden, orange, rust, brown, reds, burgundy, greens, purple. So beautiful the sight feels like music could burst forth. I'm moving 'upward' now, like a helium filled balloon, rising. Now I see the entire valley we live in. Main Street, church steeples, my school, the old Paper Mill, Blum's Shoe Factory, F.A. Owen Publishing company, Kelly Brothers Nursery, the airport, Foster Wheeler Corporation, Bernard McFadden's Hotel on East Hill. And most striking of all, 'the flats' - at the North end of town. This is a ten-acre parcel of land that is pitch black with fine, silt-like soil and the site of an old Indian Reservation long since abandoned. I'm looking at our village and I feel like I'm a part of all of this. I belong here. I feel love rising from the very ground. The beauty of this place strikes me. There is harmony, purpose, reason for living here. And suddenly it's gone. I'm asleep.
I had this 'dream' in exactly the same way, every night, without fail, until I reached nine or ten years old. As a child, I believed it was just that, a 'dream'. Because it was a 'dream', it never occurred to me to share it with anybody. It was pleasant, joyful, and peaceful, a place of loving harmony and I eagerly embraced it. When it stopped happening I was very disappointed. I would go to bed trying to 'will' it to happen, come back, force it into my consciousness, but it never came back. To this day, it has not.
I never told anybody about it. I simply went on with my life but held onto my 'dream' as a wonderful 'memory'.
In 1986, I took my then five-year-old son on a vacation trip to visit his grandmother, my mother, on Marathon Key, in the Florida Keys. She had an Oceanside mobile home and one evening we sat out on the patio enjoying the ocean breeze and sharing memories of life. Suddenly she said to me, 'Bonnie, did I ever tell you about the time you died when you were three months old?' I nearly fell off my chair. She had never told me that. Ever. She went on to say, 'One day you had a high fever, were fussy, wouldn't eat, so I put you in your crib and you did fall asleep. About an hour later, I suddenly had this gut-wrenching urge to check on you. I went to your crib, you were completely blue, not breathing, not moving, and as limp as a wet dishrag. I grabbed you and ran to Dr. M's house across the street. He took you and began to blow air into you through your mouth. The office nurse called the ambulance. We went to the emergency room. It seemed like an eternity waiting. I was hysterical. Finally, Dr. M. came out. I watched his body language, the expression on his face. He came up to me, put his arms around me, hugged me and said, 'Mary, if there ever was a miracle, this is it. We had a dead baby, but she is ok now, thank God.'
I sat there in shock, listening to this. My mother had NEVER told me about that event. Then, suddenly - while sitting there in a state of shock - my 'dream' swept over me. She said I was 'three months old' - that would be in October of the year - Fall - the leaves on the Maple Trees! It hit me like a ton of bricks. It was no 'dream' at all. It couldn't have been a 'dream.' The empty slate of my infant brain had somehow recorded the transcendence of my soul, spirit, from my body to a journey beyond this earth that was interrupted by medical intervention.
In thinking back, before my mother gave me this information, as an adult I used to 'wonder' about my 'dream'. I would say to myself, 'How could I know what my neighborhood, the entire valley I lived in, looked like from a bird's eye view, having NEVER in my life been more than a few inches off the ground!?'
My mother answered many questions about my 'dream' that day. I then shared it with her. It was the first time in my life I had told anybody about it. As of this writing, it is now public knowledge. I've always been interested in NDE accounts, have read many of them, but have never heard one having to do with a three-month-old infant! My own! I am convinced beyond any doubt; I had died that day, just as my mother said.
Taustatiedot
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
1948
NDE-elementit
Kokemuksesi aikana, oliko siihen liittyvä hengenvaarallinen tapahtuma?
Yes Illness Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
The life threatening event was a fever so high it was incompatible with life, I went into respiratory arrest, followed by cardiac arrest.
Miten arvioisit kokemuksesi sisältöä?
Wonderful
Kokemus sisälsi
Out of body experience
Tunsitko olosi eroavasi kehostasi?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Miten kokemusajan korkein tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasosi vertautui normaaliin päivittäiseen tietoisuuteen ja valppauteen?
More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
Milloin kokemuksen aikana olit korkeimmalla tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasolla?
As soon as I arrived in my 'world', when I was thrust through the golden yellow burst of light.
Olivatko ajatuksesi nopeutuneet?
Incredibly fast
Tuntuiko ajankulku nopeutuvan tai hidastuvan?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It felt 'fluid' to me. No sense of north, south, east, west. No sense of 'time' as we know it.
Olivatko aistisi tavallista elävämpiä?
Incredibly more vivid
Vertaa kokemuksesi näkemistä tavalliseen näkökykyysi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
All colors were as if they were 'liquid.' Brighter, pure, untainted, perfect, clearer, and as if music might flow out of them.
Vertaa kokemuksesi kuuloa tavalliseen kuuloosi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
There was no sound.
Olitko tietoinen tapahtumista muualla?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Kuljitko tai läpi tunnelin?
Uncertain It did not appear as, or 'feel' like a 'tunnel' to me. It felt more like a 'holding place' - I did not feel confined by any boundaries.
Näkyikö kokemuksessasi mitään olentoja?
I actually saw them
Kohtasitko tai tulitko tietoiseksi mistään edesmenneistä (tai elävistä) olennoista?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Void
Kokemus sisälsi
Darkness
Kokemus sisälsi
Light
Näitkö tai tunsitko olevasi kirkkaan valon ympäröimä?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Näitkö epätavallisen valon?
Yes At first, just a tiny, tiny speck of golden yellow, circular light - like the beam of a flashlight a million miles away in the blackness.
Kokemus sisälsi
A landscape or city
Tuntuiko sinusta, että astuit johonkin toiseen, yliluonnolliseen maailmaan?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Strong emotional tone
Mitä muita tunteita koit kokemuksen aikana?
No sense of gravity or weight at all. Unburdened. Lighter than a feather. Joy, harmony, peace, love, accepted, belonging, unity, hope are a few of the feelings.
Tunsitko rauhaa tai miellyttävyyttä?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Tunsitko iloa?
incredible joy
Tunsitko harmoniaa tai yhtenäisyyttä universumin kanssa?
I felt united or one with the world
Tuntuiko äkillisesti siltä, että ymmärsit kaiken?
Everything about the universe
Palasivatko kohtaukset menneisyydestäsi takaisin mieleesi?
My past flashed before me, out of my control
Näkyivätkö tulevaisuuden kohtaukset sinulle?
Scenes from the world's future
Tulitko rajalle tai pisteeseen, josta ei ole paluuta?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Jumala, hengellisyys ja uskonto
Mikä uskonto sinulla oli ennen kokemustasi?
Moderate Christian
Onko uskonnollinen käytäntösi muuttunut kokemuksesi jälkeen?
No
Mikä on uskontoasi nyt?
Moderate Christian
Tuliko arvoihisi ja uskomuksiisi muutoksia kokemuksesi takia?
No
Tuntuiko sinusta, että kohtasit mystisen olennon tai läsnäolon, tai kuulit tunnistamattoman äänen?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Näkyikö sinulle vainajia tai hengellisiä henkiä?
I actually saw them
Maan päällisistä elämistä uskonnon ulkopuolella
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko erityistä tietoa tai tietoa tarkoituksestasi?
Yes Overwhelming feeling of being conjoined with all of creation.
Ovatko ihmissuhteesi muuttuneet erityisesti kokemuksesi seurauksena?
No
NDE:n jälkeen
Oliko kokemusta vaikea ilmaista sanoin?
Yes The experience was so beyond all of our combined human senses that words in the English language become inadequate to convey this experience.
Onko sinulla kokemuksesi jälkeen psyykkisiä, epätavallisia tai muita erityisiä lahjoja, joita sinulla ei ollut ennen kokemusta?
Uncertain I can only tell you that now and then I have 'premonitions' about events that are going to take place, in advance of their happening. I have had 'dreams' showing me pictures of a piece of an event, which eventually appears, in the newspaper, or on TV. For example, one night I dreamed about a piece of an airplane, lying on the ground in a forest, revealing the call letters and numbers of the flight. I saw four or five of the letters and numbers in my dream. When I woke up it was as vivid as could be. Within a day or two, a picture appeared on the front page of the newspaper of a plane that had gone down. The picture was the same one I had in my 'dream' - the piece of the plane with the call letters and numbers and they were the same!
Onko kokemuksessasi yksi tai useampi osa, joka on sinulle erityisen merkityksellinen tai tärkeä? Selitä.
My experience did not take on special meaning until my mother verified some facts about which I was ignorant until I was forty-two years old. I am now sixty-three years old. What I believe today about the experience is that the experience itself was imprinted upon my body at a cellular, even DNA level, for whatever reason. I liken it to the 'transfiguration' of Jesus, just before He ascended into Heaven.
Oletko koskaan jakanut tätä kokemusta muiden kanssa?
Yes I shared it for the first time ever, with my mother on that day when she told me about my death as an infant. I was forty-two years old when I told her.
Oliko sinulla tietoa kuolemanrajakokemuksista (NDE) ennen kokemustasi?
Yes I have always been interested in NDEs. Especially as a nurse. I have been with hundreds, maybe thousands of people at the time of their death and successful resuscitation. It was a subject I had always wanted to research as a bedside nurse, but never did.
Mitä olit mieltä kokemuksesi todellisuudesta heti sen tapahtuessa (päivien tai viikkojen ajan)?
Experience was definitely real Of course it happened when I was an infant. There is no question whatsoever in my own mind concerning the reality of my experience. It is the single most experience in my entire life that transcends reality, as we know it. This was 'pure reality'.
Mitä mieltä olet kokemuksesi todellisuudesta nyt?
Experience was definitely real I view it as evidence of life after the body dies. As Judge Judy always says, 'If it doesn't make sense, it's not true!' It makes no sense to me whatsoever that we are gifted with this life; in it's present form that our body dies, and that's it! We are not just 'physical'. Who kills the spirit? Who kills the soul? Nobody. They go on living somewhere, somehow.
Oletko koskaan elämäsi aikana kokenut mitään, mikä olisi toistanut osan kokemuksesta?
No It now remains as a 'memory' only. But it is as vivid a 'memory' as if it happened last night. The experience itself has not occurred since I was nine or ten years old.
Onko jotain muuta, mitä haluaisit lisätä kokemuksestasi?
I consider my experience a 'death' experience based on my mother's information. I believe I died on that day. I believe my spirit and soul, had left my infant body, and was leaving this earth on a journey to some other dimension not known to us. What impresses me the most about it is there were no negative feelings or emotions at all, it was as if fear did not exist.
Onko muita kysymyksiä, joita voisimme kysyä auttaaksemme sinua viestimään kokemuksesi?
I believe you have covered it very well.