Paula J
NDE
#20313
- MaaGreece
- SukupuoliF
- IkäAdult
Kokemus sisälsi
Aika menetti kaiken merkityksensäMenneisyytensä näkeminen (Elämän katsaus)Ymmärtää kaikki universumistaKEK, Ruumiista irtautumiskokemusHenkinen maailma on todellisempi kuin fyysinen todellisuusSelittää yksittäisten elämien tarkoitustaSelittää kaiken elämän tarkoitustaAika on harha eikä sitä ole olemassa henkisessä maailmassaPalasi tahtonsa vastaisesti
Kokemuksen kuvaus
I was aware that I was coming round from the operation. I began to hear the voices of the surgeon and staff first, and heard them say, 'Breathe Paul! Breathe!' I heard them saying that they would apply air via a tube but I was completely unable and unwilling to even try to breathe. My body was a dead weight, which seemed to have nothing to do with 'me'. What happened next seemed to me to last about an hour, although it was only seconds.
I felt that my mind was about four feet to the right of my head. I knew that I was still in the operating theatre, but I was no longer part of it. Suddenly, I felt as if someone was pushing me gently from behind. 'It's your turn,' said a voice and I was very surprised, as I'd had the impression that I was at the end of a long, long line of people (who I couldn't see but only sensed). The feeling was just like being sent to the front of the queue at a supermarket check in, I remember - pleasant surprise.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
Taustatiedot
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/10/02
NDE-elementit
Kokemuksesi aikana, oliko siihen liittyvä hengenvaarallinen tapahtuma?
Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death My throat closed up and I couldn't breathe.
Miten arvioisit kokemuksesi sisältöä?
Mixed
Kokemus sisälsi
Out of body experience
Tunsitko olosi eroavasi kehostasi?
Yes I was aware of my body lying there but didn't see it as I was looking elsewhere.
Milloin kokemuksen aikana olit korkeimmalla tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasolla?
Explained above.
Tuntuiko ajankulku nopeutuvan tai hidastuvan?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything was different, but the same. The 'here' and 'now' are one place. The same with time. It's all the same. There's no linear time. No space as we know it.
Eroiko kuuloasi millään tavoin normaalista?
The voices of the staff faded away, but there was no sound. I seemed to 'mind read' the words I heard and spoke.
Kuljitko tai läpi tunnelin?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Presence of deceased persons
Kohtasitko tai tulitko tietoiseksi mistään edesmenneistä (tai elävistä) olennoista?
Yes Someone was behind me, guiding me, but I never saw them. They were neither male or female, it was just 'someone'. I cannot describe the voice, as it was not audible. I 'mind read' their words.
Kokemus sisälsi
Darkness
Näitkö epätavallisen valon?
No The opposite. I saw a blackness, but it was welcoming and not frightening. The way you like the dark if you have a migraine.
Tuntuiko sinusta, että astuit johonkin toiseen, yliluonnolliseen maailmaan?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Described above.
Kokemus sisälsi
Strong emotional tone
Mitä muita tunteita koit kokemuksen aikana?
Surprise then utter bliss. Complete indifference to what was happening to my body. Confusion and disappointment at coming back.
Kokemus sisälsi
Special Knowledge
Tuntuiko äkillisesti siltä, että ymmärsit kaiken?
Everything about the universe There's a time for everything. A role for everyone. A reason for everything. The purpose of life is not just our own happiness.
Palasivatko kohtaukset menneisyydestäsi takaisin mieleesi?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I felt no power. Others had the power; I felt as if I was 'following orders' and was very happy to do so.
Näkyivätkö tulevaisuuden kohtaukset sinulle?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Boundary
Saavutko rajalle tai rajoittavaan fyysiseen rakenteeseen?
Uncertain Big open doorway, comforting soothing blackness beyond. No fear. I was going towards it, but came back.
Tulitko rajalle tai pisteeseen, josta ei ole paluuta?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I didn't want to return to my body, but was forced.
Jumala, hengellisyys ja uskonto
Mikä uskonto sinulla oli ennen kokemustasi?
Liberal
Mikä on uskontoasi nyt?
Liberal
Tuliko arvoihisi ja uskomuksiisi muutoksia kokemuksesi takia?
No
NDE:n jälkeen
Oliko kokemusta vaikea ilmaista sanoin?
Yes The sudden change of feelings and the sense that time was dislocated. I was not dead but I was out of my body.
Onko sinulla kokemuksesi jälkeen psyykkisiä, epätavallisia tai muita erityisiä lahjoja, joita sinulla ei ollut ennen kokemusta?
No
Onko kokemuksessasi yksi tai useampi osa, joka on sinulle erityisen merkityksellinen tai tärkeä? Selitä.
Best - bliss of being out of the body. Worst - being dragged back.
Oletko koskaan jakanut tätä kokemusta muiden kanssa?
Yes The doctors said it's just a symptom of the anesthesia. Some friends were obviously nervous about it, didn't like to talk about death etc.! My daughter was scared too. No one seems to feel like I do about it all.
Oletko koskaan elämäsi aikana kokenut mitään, mikä olisi toistanut osan kokemuksesta?
No Not since but BEFORE, when I was seven. During a tonsils operation, I could see the doctors and nurses working on my body as I hovered near the ceiling. I recalled that they wore green clothes (which they only wore in the theatre and which of course I'd never seen before).
Onko muita kysymyksiä, joita voisimme kysyä auttaaksemme sinua viestimään kokemuksesi?
If the person had had any similar experiences BEFORE the one they're relating.