Susan A
NDE
Greysonin mittakaava: 15
#2587
- MaaUnited States
- SukupuoliF
- IkäAdult
- Kokemuspäivämäärä1/1/2000
- Lähetetty päivämäärä4/29/2006
Kokemus sisälsi
Menneisyytensä näkeminen (Elämän katsaus)Näkeminen heidän tulevaisuutensaNähdä kirkas maallinen valoaKehittää psyykkisiä kykyjäYmmärtää kaikki universumistaKEK, Ruumiista irtautumiskokemusTodennäköisesti koki kliinisen kuolemanHenkinen maailma on todellisempi kuin fyysinen todellisuusVahvisti ruumiistairtautumiskokemuksen lääketieteen ammattilaisen kanssaSelittää yksittäisten elämien tarkoitustaKuvailee JumalaaKohtasi henkioppaansa kokemuksessaTunsivat sen, mitä muut tunsivat elämänkatsauksessaNäkivät värejä, joita eivät ole koskaan ennen nähneetPäätti palata elämään
Kokemuksen kuvaus
1995 - In the intensive care unit, curtain surrounding the bathroom area, light began emitting from behind the curtain (sort of 'Wizard of Oz'-like - no noise, just light and vibration). Knew a presence wished to come into room. Knew by the indescribable quality and feeling of light it was God, as I know him. I asked him 'not now', please my children (I am single parent of two, one disabled through leukemia at four, no family but me. I asked for more time, responsibility of visit too frightening. He/she/it immediately acquiesced. I always regretted it.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
Taustatiedot
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
(2) in 2000
NDE-elementit
Kokemuksesi aikana, oliko siihen liittyvä hengenvaarallinen tapahtuma?
Yes Heart attack Open heart surgery, 3 open hearts in three days in April and In November Complete cardiac and respiratory arrest due to CHF Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Had heart attack in 1995. Had experience in the intensive care unit but willed it away, too scary, always regretted it but had children who needed me. In 2005 had multiple bypass, which did not go well, three open heart surgeries in three days due to hemorrhaging. On respirator for forty-five days. Many journeys and experiences throughout that period in April/May. In November had complete respiratory and cardiac arrest. Another experience.
Miten arvioisit kokemuksesi sisältöä?
Mixed
Tunsitko olosi eroavasi kehostasi?
Yes
I lost awareness of my body
Miten kokemusajan korkein tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasosi vertautui normaaliin päivittäiseen tietoisuuteen ja valppauteen?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was much more real. I know that doesn't make much sense.
Milloin kokemuksen aikana olit korkeimmalla tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasolla?
In presence of the main God, light, vibration. But most of all in tunnel when choice had to be made. I was tired.
Olivatko ajatuksesi nopeutuneet?
Neither
Tuntuiko ajankulku nopeutuvan tai hidastuvan?
Neither I have what I call 'Swiss cheese for brains'. Some things are missing or dropped.
Olivatko aistisi tavallista elävämpiä?
Neither
Vertaa kokemuksesi näkemistä tavalliseen näkökykyysi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
Colors perfect, things and places seen without flaw, almost undisturbed. Every petal of every flower perfect. No decay of any kind. Transparency somehow changed and music without time. Couldn't explain that one in a million years wouldn't know where to begin.
Vertaa kokemuksesi kuuloa tavalliseen kuuloosi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
It was hearing but not auditory exactly all the time.
Olitko tietoinen tapahtumista muualla?
Neither
Kuljitko tai läpi tunnelin?
Yes Already described.
Näkyikö kokemuksessasi mitään olentoja?
Saw them
Kohtasitko tai tulitko tietoiseksi mistään edesmenneistä (tai elävistä) olennoista?
Yes Already described.
Näitkö tai tunsitko olevasi kirkkaan valon ympäröimä?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Näitkö epätavallisen valon?
Yes Already described.
Tuntuiko sinusta, että astuit johonkin toiseen, yliluonnolliseen maailmaan?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm already described some. many more, lots of travel and sights
Mitä muita tunteita koit kokemuksen aikana?
Wonder, joy, fear, trust, grateful, small, big, powerful, powerless, amazed, graced, light, open, peaceful, inquisitive and loved and loving. Perfectly in tune.
Tunsitko rauhaa tai miellyttävyyttä?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Tunsitko iloa?
Incredible joy
Tunsitko harmoniaa tai yhtenäisyyttä universumin kanssa?
United, one with the world
Tuntuiko äkillisesti siltä, että ymmärsit kaiken?
Everything about the universe
Palasivatko kohtaukset menneisyydestäsi takaisin mieleesi?
Remembered many past events Life review takes place through the feelings and emotions of others in any given moment in time. We experience and feel whatever we created in that moment for them. I am much more sensitive.
Näkyivätkö tulevaisuuden kohtaukset sinulle?
From the world's future
Very private.
Tulitko rajalle tai pisteeseen, josta ei ole paluuta?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
Jumala, hengellisyys ja uskonto
Mikä uskonto sinulla oli ennen kokemustasi?
Moderate Raised catholic, believe in collective unconscious, a higher power have had unusual, unexplainable experiences throughout life making conservative organized religious experience not acceptable.
Onko uskonnollinen käytäntösi muuttunut kokemuksesi jälkeen?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Mikä on uskontoasi nyt?
Liberal Have conscious contact w/ higher power daily, pray and meditate daily, use Native American Medicine Wheel for healing/teaching. Use ancient esoteric teachings from stones crystals given by Native American grandma turned good catholic when she was a young
Tuliko arvoihisi ja uskomuksiisi muutoksia kokemuksesi takia?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Tuntuiko sinusta, että kohtasit mystisen olennon tai läsnäolon, tai kuulit tunnistamattoman äänen?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Näkyikö sinulle vainajia tai hengellisiä henkiä?
Saw them
Maan päällisistä elämistä uskonnon ulkopuolella
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko erityistä tietoa tai tietoa tarkoituksestasi?
Yes Very private.
Ovatko ihmissuhteesi muuttuneet erityisesti kokemuksesi seurauksena?
Yes I am much more willing just to be me without pretense, walls or protections that we humans erect to protect ourselves from REALLY being seen.
NDE:n jälkeen
Oliko kokemusta vaikea ilmaista sanoin?
Yes We don't have words in our vocabulary that express the 'energetic colors of vibration' emitted by 'higher being'. The emotional quality of 'feeling state' beyond measure or words. Information received so simple, yet so complicated it would take hours to verbalize. Recognition of persons in tunnel already 'passed over' (I think) so familiar, yet didn't recognize a one. Saw my grandma no words. Couldn't see 'God', but saw energy emitting and felt enormous vibration and felt emotional presence and vibration throughout life review.
Onko sinulla kokemuksesi jälkeen psyykkisiä, epätavallisia tai muita erityisiä lahjoja, joita sinulla ei ollut ennen kokemusta?
Yes Personal.
Onko kokemuksessasi yksi tai useampi osa, joka on sinulle erityisen merkityksellinen tai tärkeä? Selitä.
Oh my God, are you kidding? Too personal for a computer screen.
Oletko koskaan jakanut tätä kokemusta muiden kanssa?
Yes Immediately. Sure, reactions were mixed. I hope they were influenced.
Oliko sinulla tietoa kuolemanrajakokemuksista (NDE) ennen kokemustasi?
Uncertain After my mother died I had and my son had a 'dreamlike' waking encounter.
Mitä olit mieltä kokemuksesi todellisuudesta heti sen tapahtuessa (päivien tai viikkojen ajan)?
Experience was definitely real It was more real that what's here in my consciousness on a daily basis and I stay as connected as possible daily.
Mitä mieltä olet kokemuksesi todellisuudesta nyt?
Experience was definitely real It affects me in every moment.
Oletko koskaan elämäsi aikana kokenut mitään, mikä olisi toistanut osan kokemuksesta?
No