Jessica G
NDE
Greysonin mittakaava: 15
#3972
- MaaUnited States
- SukupuoliF
- IkäOlder Child
- Kokemuspäivämäärä1/18/1981
- Lähetetty päivämäärä5/2/2009
Kokemus sisälsi
Aika menetti kaiken merkityksensäMenneisyytensä näkeminen (Elämän katsaus)Näkeminen heidän tulevaisuutensaNähdä kirkas maallinen valoaKehittää psyykkisiä kykyjäYmmärtää kaikki universumistaKEK, Ruumiista irtautumiskokemusTodennäköisesti koki kliinisen kuolemanSelittää yksittäisten elämien tarkoitustaOpittiin kvanttifysiikan ominaisuuksistaMuistaa yksityiskohdat siitä, mitä he oppivat kvanttifysiikastaAika on harha eikä sitä ole olemassa henkisessä maailmassaJoutui kaltoinkohdelluksi lapsuudessaPäätti palata elämään
Kokemuksen kuvaus
This incident occurred at the end of a long period of abuse - about three years. My abuser isolated me while I was swimming in a pond behind his house. After a brief argument with the man, as I was trying to swim away from him, he pushed me underwater by my shoulders and held me there. I struggled against his hands on my shoulders, but was not able to come to the surface. When I was almost out of air, I looked up through the water at the face of my attacker. His expression was very frightening to me because he was smiling, but also appeared to be very angry.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
Taustatiedot
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
1981
NDE-elementit
Kokemuksesi aikana, oliko siihen liittyvä hengenvaarallinen tapahtuma?
Yes Criminal attack Other near drowning
I was being held underwater by someone who intended to either scare me or kill me.
Miten arvioisit kokemuksesi sisältöä?
Wonderful
Kokemus sisälsi
Out of body experience
Tunsitko olosi eroavasi kehostasi?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Miten kokemusajan korkein tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasosi vertautui normaaliin päivittäiseen tietoisuuteen ja valppauteen?
More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
Milloin kokemuksen aikana olit korkeimmalla tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasolla?
When I had decided to, but before I had re-entered my body.
Olivatko ajatuksesi nopeutuneet?
Incredibly fast
Tuntuiko ajankulku nopeutuvan tai hidastuvan?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time stopped and I felt like I was floating with no gravity.
Olivatko aistisi tavallista elävämpiä?
Incredibly more vivid
Vertaa kokemuksesi näkemistä tavalliseen näkökykyysi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
The surface of the water glinted in the sun in a starburst effect and the appearance of my body was in a haze of the pond water. It was surreal.
Vertaa kokemuksesi kuuloa tavalliseen kuuloosi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
I don't remember any sounds except for my attacker breathing heavily and the water slapping against his body.
Olitko tietoinen tapahtumista muualla?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Kuljitko tai läpi tunnelin?
No
Näkyikö kokemuksessasi mitään olentoja?
I actually saw them
Kohtasitko tai tulitko tietoiseksi mistään edesmenneistä (tai elävistä) olennoista?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Darkness
Kokemus sisälsi
Light
Näitkö tai tunsitko olevasi kirkkaan valon ympäröimä?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Näitkö epätavallisen valon?
Yes
Tuntuiko sinusta, että astuit johonkin toiseen, yliluonnolliseen maailmaan?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The place surrounding the light was very comfortable and is not comparable to anything I have felt or seen since.
Mitä muita tunteita koit kokemuksen aikana?
Peace, absolute clarity and an absence of pain.
Tunsitko rauhaa tai miellyttävyyttä?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Tunsitko iloa?
Happiness
Tunsitko harmoniaa tai yhtenäisyyttä universumin kanssa?
I felt united or one with the world
Kokemus sisälsi
Special Knowledge
Tuntuiko äkillisesti siltä, että ymmärsit kaiken?
Everything about the universe
Palasivatko kohtaukset menneisyydestäsi takaisin mieleesi?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I understood a much broader picture while I was not in my body. It didn't flood back to me in a visual life passing before my eyes. I went from ignorance instantly to wide awareness - not just of my life circumstances, but also of emotions, my family circumstances, a sense of purpose that I didn't have before. There was no sense of time, just calm sense of knowing what was and also what I needed to do.
Näkyivätkö tulevaisuuden kohtaukset sinulle?
Scenes from the world's future I knew my mom was not going to die from her illness.
Tulitko rajalle tai pisteeseen, josta ei ole paluuta?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Jumala, hengellisyys ja uskonto
Mikä uskonto sinulla oli ennen kokemustasi?
Liberal None
Onko uskonnollinen käytäntösi muuttunut kokemuksesi jälkeen?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Mikä on uskontoasi nyt?
Liberal None/Open minded
Tuliko arvoihisi ja uskomuksiisi muutoksia kokemuksesi takia?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Tuntuiko sinusta, että kohtasit mystisen olennon tai läsnäolon, tai kuulit tunnistamattoman äänen?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Näkyikö sinulle vainajia tai hengellisiä henkiä?
I actually saw them
Maan päällisistä elämistä uskonnon ulkopuolella
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko erityistä tietoa tai tietoa tarkoituksestasi?
Yes I understood my purpose on a different level. The string theory was a no-brainer for me. Somehow, I realized that we are all energy and that solid mass was an illusion.
Ovatko ihmissuhteesi muuttuneet erityisesti kokemuksesi seurauksena?
Yes My sister and I have a special connection now.
NDE:n jälkeen
Oliko kokemusta vaikea ilmaista sanoin?
No
Onko sinulla kokemuksesi jälkeen psyykkisiä, epätavallisia tai muita erityisiä lahjoja, joita sinulla ei ollut ennen kokemusta?
Yes I can pass easily into this area by choice and sometimes wake up after sleeping with memories of being there, flying effortlessly.
Onko kokemuksessasi yksi tai useampi osa, joka on sinulle erityisen merkityksellinen tai tärkeä? Selitä.
The experience changed my life. It ended the abuse and gave me a huge amount of empathy.
Oletko koskaan jakanut tätä kokemusta muiden kanssa?
Yes I started sharing the near drowning experience with my psychologist at age twenty-one. In the last few months, I have been processing the experience with an emergency doctor and have been able to describe the experience in more detail.
Oliko sinulla tietoa kuolemanrajakokemuksista (NDE) ennen kokemustasi?
No
Mitä olit mieltä kokemuksesi todellisuudesta heti sen tapahtuessa (päivien tai viikkojen ajan)?
Experience was definitely real I knew the experience was real. Soon after that experience, I began researching near death, out of body experiences, channeling and other forms of spirituality. I even did a report in high school where I interviewed a couple of psychics.
Mitä mieltä olet kokemuksesi todellisuudesta nyt?
Experience was definitely real I view this experience as my life energy moving between planes of consciousness under duress. I view it along the lines of the law of conservation of energy. It states that the total amount of energy in an isolated system remains constant. A consequence of this law is that energy cannot be created or destroyed. The only thing that can happen with energy in an isolated system is that it can change form, that is to say for instance kinetic energy can become thermal energy. Because energy is associated with mass in the Einstein's theory of relativity, the conservation of energy also implies the conservation of mass in isolated systems (that is, the mass of a system cannot change, so long as energy is not permitted to enter or leave the system). Our psychic energy, soul, what have you, is just another form of energy.
Oletko koskaan elämäsi aikana kokenut mitään, mikä olisi toistanut osan kokemuksesta?
No