Kokemuksen kuvaus
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Taustatiedot
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
NDE-elementit
Kokemuksesi aikana, oliko siihen liittyvä hengenvaarallinen tapahtuma?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Miten arvioisit kokemuksesi sisältöä?
Entirely pleasant
Kokemus sisälsi
Out of body experience
Tunsitko olosi eroavasi kehostasi?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Miten kokemusajan korkein tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasosi vertautui normaaliin päivittäiseen tietoisuuteen ja valppauteen?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Milloin kokemuksen aikana olit korkeimmalla tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasolla?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Olivatko ajatuksesi nopeutuneet?
Faster than usual
Tuntuiko ajankulku nopeutuvan tai hidastuvan?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Olivatko aistisi tavallista elävämpiä?
Incredibly more vivid
Vertaa kokemuksesi näkemistä tavalliseen näkökykyysi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Vertaa kokemuksesi kuuloa tavalliseen kuuloosi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Olitko tietoinen tapahtumista muualla?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Tunnel
Kuljitko tai läpi tunnelin?
Yes The hallway
Kokemus sisälsi
Presence of deceased persons
Näkyikö kokemuksessasi mitään olentoja?
I actually saw them
Kohtasitko tai tulitko tietoiseksi mistään edesmenneistä (tai elävistä) olennoista?
Yes No relatives
Kokemus sisälsi
Unearthly light
Näitkö tai tunsitko olevasi kirkkaan valon ympäröimä?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Näitkö epätavallisen valon?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Kokemus sisälsi
A landscape or city
Tuntuiko sinusta, että astuit johonkin toiseen, yliluonnolliseen maailmaan?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Kokemus sisälsi
Strong emotional tone
Mitä muita tunteita koit kokemuksen aikana?
Elated
Tunsitko rauhaa tai miellyttävyyttä?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Tunsitko iloa?
incredible joy
Tunsitko harmoniaa tai yhtenäisyyttä universumin kanssa?
I felt united or one with the world
Kokemus sisälsi
Special knowledge or purpose
Tuntuiko äkillisesti siltä, että ymmärsit kaiken?
No
Palasivatko kohtaukset menneisyydestäsi takaisin mieleesi?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Awareness of the future
Näkyivätkö tulevaisuuden kohtaukset sinulle?
Scenes from my personal future
Kokemus sisälsi
Boundary
Saavutko rajalle tai rajoittavaan fyysiseen rakenteeseen?
Yes
Tulitko rajalle tai pisteeseen, josta ei ole paluuta?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Jumala, hengellisyys ja uskonto
Mitä merkitystä annoit uskonnolliselle/hengelliselle elämäsi ennen kokemustasi
Greatly important to me
Mikä uskonto sinulla oli ennen kokemustasi?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Onko uskonnollinen käytäntösi muuttunut kokemuksesi jälkeen?
Yes They are more grounded.
Mitä merkitystä annat uskonnolliselle/hengelliselle elämäsi kokemuksesi jälkeen
Greatly important to me
Mikä on uskontoasi nyt?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Sisältyikö kokemukseesi piirteitä, jotka olivat linjassa maallisten uskomustesi kanssa?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Tuliko arvoihisi ja uskomuksiisi muutoksia kokemuksesi takia?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Kokemus sisälsi
Presence of unearthly beings
Tuntuiko sinusta, että kohtasit mystisen olennon tai läsnäolon, tai kuulit tunnistamattoman äänen?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Näkyikö sinulle vainajia tai hengellisiä henkiä?
I actually saw them
Kohtasitko tai tiedostitko minkään olentoja, jotka ovat aiemmin eläneet maapallolla ja jotka mainitaan nimeltä uskonnoissa (esimerkiksi: Jeesus, Muhammad, Buddha, jne?)
No
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa Jumalan olemassaolosta?
No
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa universaalista yhteydestä tai ykseydestä?
Yes
Uskotko Jumalan olemassaoloon ennen kokemustasi?
God definitely exists
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa Jumalan olemassaolosta?
Yes the love was in everything.
Uskotko Jumalan olemassaoloon kokemuksesi jälkeen?
God definitely exists
Maan päällisistä elämistä uskonnon ulkopuolella
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko erityistä tietoa tai tietoa tarkoituksestasi?
Yes
Uskotko, että maallinen elämämme on merkityksellistä ja tärkeää ennen kokemustasi
Are meaningful and significant
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa elämän merkityksestä?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Uskoitko tuonpuoleiseen ennen kokemustasi?
An afterlife definitely exists
Uskotko tuonpuoleiseen kokemuksesi jälkeen?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Pelkäätkö kuolemaa ennen kokemustasi?
I moderately feared death
Pelkäätkö kuolemaa kokemuksesi jälkeen
I do not fear death
Pelkäsitkö elää elämääsi ennen kokemustasi
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Pelkäsitkö elää elämääsi kokemuksesi jälkeen
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Uskotko, että maallinen elämämme on merkityksellistä ja tärkeää ennen kokemustasi
Are meaningful and significant
Uskotko, että maallinen elämämme on merkityksellistä ja tärkeää kokemuksesi jälkeen
Are meaningful and significant
Saitko tietoa siitä, miten elämme elämämme?
No
Saitko kokemuksesi aikana tietoa elämän vaikeuksista, haasteista ja koettelemuksista?
No
Olitko myötätuntoinen ennen kokemustasi
Moderately compassionate toward others
Saitko kokemuksesi aikana tietoa rakkaudesta?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Olitko myötätuntoinen kokemuksesi jälkeen
Greatly compassionate toward others
Mitä elämänmuutoksia tapahtui elämässäsi kokemuksesi jälkeen?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Ovatko ihmissuhteesi muuttuneet erityisesti kokemuksesi seurauksena?
No No
NDE:n jälkeen
Oliko kokemusta vaikea ilmaista sanoin?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Kuinka tarkasti muistat kokemuksen verrattuna muihin elämän tapahtumiin, jotka tapahtuivat kokemuksen aikana?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Onko sinulla kokemuksesi jälkeen psyykkisiä, epätavallisia tai muita erityisiä lahjoja, joita sinulla ei ollut ennen kokemusta?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Onko kokemuksessasi yksi tai useampi osa, joka on sinulle erityisen merkityksellinen tai tärkeä? Selitä.
The love
Oletko koskaan jakanut tätä kokemusta muiden kanssa?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Oliko sinulla tietoa kuolemanrajakokemuksista (NDE) ennen kokemustasi?
No
Mitä olit mieltä kokemuksesi todellisuudesta heti sen tapahtuessa (päivien tai viikkojen ajan)?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Mitä mieltä olet kokemuksesi todellisuudesta nyt?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Oletko koskaan elämäsi aikana kokenut mitään, mikä olisi toistanut osan kokemuksesta?
No
Onko jotain muuta, mitä haluaisit lisätä kokemuksestasi?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.