Kokemuksen kuvaus
I had been sick and I was going to have my gall bladder removed because that is what was thought to be the problem. My doctor had just gotten off the phone with me and I told her I felt like I was going to pass out. I sat up and filled a small waste can with blood. I managed to put on my coat and make it to my husband's vehicle where I collapsed in the front seat. It was a cold, gray winter day, but I remember seeing a beautiful blue sky.
I vaguely remember arriving at the emergency room and the nurses trying to get me in a wheel chair. That is when the indescribable feeling of peace came over me. I remember looking down and seeing my glasses lying in the seat of the wheel chair and wondered how I was able to do that. I had no pain. I then remember my husband sitting in the chair. I was holding his face in my hands and he was crying.
Then I don't know where I was, but it was a very, very intense blue. I was aware of a presence that spoke to me without using words. Although I did not see the presence, I felt it was male. I was told everything would be okay. I tried to protest, saying I had bills, a husband, and my children. Again, it was as if those thoughts just couldn’t happen.
I had a feeling of unconditional love and it was if all of a sudden I knew everything. I knew we were here to help one another and to love one another. The bad things that happen are because we are given free will and it is a choice as to what we make of it. After passing on in this life, there is no judgement against you no matter what you did in this life.
I remember seeing and speaking to my ex-husband who had died a few months earlier of cancer. 'Yes' I know it was he. Our marriage was not a good one and that is being kind. My ex-husband spoke to me and said, 'We have a date...' My reply was, 'With you? Hell No!' That is when I came back.
My son was on one side of me and my daughter was on the other. Later, after being released from the hospital I tried to tell my husband what had happened, but all he could do was cry. He told me he knew I was gone. I asked him how long I was without any life signs. He said it was about 15 to 30 minutes.
I vaguely remember arriving at the emergency room and the nurses trying to get me in a wheel chair. That is when the indescribable feeling of peace came over me. I remember looking down and seeing my glasses lying in the seat of the wheel chair and wondered how I was able to do that. I had no pain. I then remember my husband sitting in the chair. I was holding his face in my hands and he was crying.
Then I don't know where I was, but it was a very, very intense blue. I was aware of a presence that spoke to me without using words. Although I did not see the presence, I felt it was male. I was told everything would be okay. I tried to protest, saying I had bills, a husband, and my children. Again, it was as if those thoughts just couldn’t happen.
I had a feeling of unconditional love and it was if all of a sudden I knew everything. I knew we were here to help one another and to love one another. The bad things that happen are because we are given free will and it is a choice as to what we make of it. After passing on in this life, there is no judgement against you no matter what you did in this life.
I remember seeing and speaking to my ex-husband who had died a few months earlier of cancer. 'Yes' I know it was he. Our marriage was not a good one and that is being kind. My ex-husband spoke to me and said, 'We have a date...' My reply was, 'With you? Hell No!' That is when I came back.
My son was on one side of me and my daughter was on the other. Later, after being released from the hospital I tried to tell my husband what had happened, but all he could do was cry. He told me he knew I was gone. I asked him how long I was without any life signs. He said it was about 15 to 30 minutes.
Taustatiedot
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
12/10/2014
NDE-elementit
Kokemuksesi aikana, oliko siihen liittyvä hengenvaarallinen tapahtuma?
Yes Illness. Life threatening event, but not clinical death.
I had a gastrointestinal hemmorage from a bleeding ulcer. I had no blood pressure and was not expected to make it.
Miten arvioisit kokemuksesi sisältöä?
Entirely pleasant
Kokemus sisälsi
Out of body experience
Tunsitko olosi eroavasi kehostasi?
Yes. I could hear the nurses telling me to wake up, and I could hear my husband crying.
I lost awareness of my body.
Miten kokemusajan korkein tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasosi vertautui normaaliin päivittäiseen tietoisuuteen ja valppauteen?
Normal consciousness and alertness It was much higher
Milloin kokemuksen aikana olit korkeimmalla tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasolla?
the entire time
Olivatko ajatuksesi nopeutuneet?
No
Tuntuiko ajankulku nopeutuvan tai hidastuvan?
No
Olivatko aistisi tavallista elävämpiä?
More vivid than usual
Vertaa kokemuksesi näkemistä tavalliseen näkökykyysi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
It was if it were magnified a hundred fold.
Vertaa kokemuksesi kuuloa tavalliseen kuuloosi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
No difference
Olitko tietoinen tapahtumista muualla?
No
Kuljitko tai läpi tunnelin?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Presence of deceased persons
Näkyikö kokemuksessasi mitään olentoja?
No
Kohtasitko tai tulitko tietoiseksi mistään edesmenneistä (tai elävistä) olennoista?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Void
Kokemus sisälsi
Darkness
Näitkö tai tunsitko olevasi kirkkaan valon ympäröimä?
No
Näitkö epätavallisen valon?
No
Tuntuiko sinusta, että astuit johonkin toiseen, yliluonnolliseen maailmaan?
Some unfamiliar and strange place it was a beautiful blue with different colors. It was like something I would compare to what deep space would look like
Kokemus sisälsi
Strong emotional tone
Mitä muita tunteita koit kokemuksen aikana?
I felt peace, love, and forgiveness.
Tunsitko rauhaa tai miellyttävyyttä?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Tunsitko iloa?
incredible joy
Tunsitko harmoniaa tai yhtenäisyyttä universumin kanssa?
I felt united or one with the world
Kokemus sisälsi
Special knowledge or purpose
Tuntuiko äkillisesti siltä, että ymmärsit kaiken?
Everything about the universe. It was like I just suddenly understood and knew everything. I knew why we were here, I knew where I would be going, and I knew death is not the end.
Palasivatko kohtaukset menneisyydestäsi takaisin mieleesi?
No
Näkyivätkö tulevaisuuden kohtaukset sinulle?
No
Tulitko rajalle tai pisteeseen, josta ei ole paluuta?
No
Jumala, hengellisyys ja uskonto
Mitä merkitystä annoit uskonnolliselle/hengelliselle elämäsi ennen kokemustasi
Not important to me
Mikä uskonto sinulla oli ennen kokemustasi?
Unaffiliated- Atheist I have never believed Jesus was real or that anything in the Bible was real
Onko uskonnollinen käytäntösi muuttunut kokemuksesi jälkeen?
No
Mitä merkitystä annat uskonnolliselle/hengelliselle elämäsi kokemuksesi jälkeen
Not important to me
Mikä on uskontoasi nyt?
Unaffiliated- Atheist
Sisältyikö kokemukseesi piirteitä, jotka olivat linjassa maallisten uskomustesi kanssa?
Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Tuliko arvoihisi ja uskomuksiisi muutoksia kokemuksesi takia?
No
Kokemus sisälsi
Presence of unearthly beings
Tuntuiko sinusta, että kohtasit mystisen olennon tai läsnäolon, tai kuulit tunnistamattoman äänen?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. A male presence spoke to me without words
Näkyikö sinulle vainajia tai hengellisiä henkiä?
No
Kohtasitko tai tiedostitko minkään olentoja, jotka ovat aiemmin eläneet maapallolla ja jotka mainitaan nimeltä uskonnoissa (esimerkiksi: Jeesus, Muhammad, Buddha, jne?)
No
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa Jumalan olemassaolosta?
No
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa universaalista yhteydestä tai ykseydestä?
No
Uskotko Jumalan olemassaoloon ennen kokemustasi?
God does not exist
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa Jumalan olemassaolosta?
Yes, the person that greeted me was a supreme being.
Uskotko Jumalan olemassaoloon kokemuksesi jälkeen?
Unknown
Maan päällisistä elämistä uskonnon ulkopuolella
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko erityistä tietoa tai tietoa tarkoituksestasi?
No
Uskotko, että maallinen elämämme on merkityksellistä ja tärkeää ennen kokemustasi
Are not meaningful and significant
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa elämän merkityksestä?
Yes We are put here to grow, to love and help each other
Uskoitko tuonpuoleiseen ennen kokemustasi?
I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Uskotko tuonpuoleiseen kokemuksesi jälkeen?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes you just know that there is
Pelkäätkö kuolemaa ennen kokemustasi?
I slightly feared death
Pelkäätkö kuolemaa kokemuksesi jälkeen
I do not fear death
Pelkäsitkö elää elämääsi ennen kokemustasi
Not fearful in living my earthly life
Pelkäsitkö elää elämääsi kokemuksesi jälkeen
Not fearful in living my earthly life
Uskotko, että maallinen elämämme on merkityksellistä ja tärkeää ennen kokemustasi
Are not meaningful and significant
Uskotko, että maallinen elämämme on merkityksellistä ja tärkeää kokemuksesi jälkeen
Are possibly meaningful and significant
Saitko tietoa siitä, miten elämme elämämme?
No
Saitko kokemuksesi aikana tietoa elämän vaikeuksista, haasteista ja koettelemuksista?
No
Olitko myötätuntoinen ennen kokemustasi
Greatly compassionate toward others
Saitko kokemuksesi aikana tietoa rakkaudesta?
Yes Love is the beginning, the middle and the end.
Olitko myötätuntoinen kokemuksesi jälkeen
Not compassionate toward others
Mitä elämänmuutoksia tapahtui elämässäsi kokemuksesi jälkeen?
No changes in my life. I have a hard time being sad when someone dies. I know that where they are going is so much better than here.
Ovatko ihmissuhteesi muuttuneet erityisesti kokemuksesi seurauksena?
No
NDE:n jälkeen
Oliko kokemusta vaikea ilmaista sanoin?
Yes I didn't know if it really happened and the feelings were just beyond description
Kuinka tarkasti muistat kokemuksen verrattuna muihin elämän tapahtumiin, jotka tapahtuivat kokemuksen aikana?
I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Onko sinulla kokemuksesi jälkeen psyykkisiä, epätavallisia tai muita erityisiä lahjoja, joita sinulla ei ollut ennen kokemusta?
No
Onko kokemuksessasi yksi tai useampi osa, joka on sinulle erityisen merkityksellinen tai tärkeä? Selitä.
Just the overwhelming feeling of peace
Oletko koskaan jakanut tätä kokemusta muiden kanssa?
Yes I told my granddaughter when I was out of the hospital. She was very supportive and 'no' she did not influence me in any way
Oliko sinulla tietoa kuolemanrajakokemuksista (NDE) ennen kokemustasi?
No
Mitä olit mieltä kokemuksesi todellisuudesta heti sen tapahtuessa (päivien tai viikkojen ajan)?
Experience was definitely real. Because the feeling was just too real
Mitä mieltä olet kokemuksesi todellisuudesta nyt?
Experience was definitely real. My feeling have not waivered even though it was two years ago
Oletko koskaan elämäsi aikana kokenut mitään, mikä olisi toistanut osan kokemuksesta?
No
Onko jotain muuta, mitä haluaisit lisätä kokemuksestasi?
No