Amber W
NDE
Greysonin mittakaava: 23
#9632
- MaaUnited States
- SukupuoliF
- IkäToddler
- Kokemuspäivämäärä2/24/1998
- Lähetetty päivämäärä8/22/2023
Kokemus sisälsi
Aika menetti kaiken merkityksensäNähdä kirkas maallinen valoaKehittää psyykkisiä kykyjäYmmärtää kaikki universumistaKEK, Ruumiista irtautumiskokemusTodennäköisesti koki kliinisen kuolemanPalasi tahtonsa vastaisesti
Kokemuksen kuvaus
I had a near-death-experience at age three years old. I am 28 years old. My own personal memory over the years of this experience has faded over time, but my family members remember it as if it were just yesterday.
We lived in a rural area on the outskirts of town in a trailer park. It was February and I was dressed in warm clothes, boots, and a jacket. The property had several man-made cisterns dug into the ground. Cisterns are holes that catch rainwater, and can be hazardous to small children.
I was with my mother at the time. My mother was in the middle of a dissociative disorder episode. I made my way out of the house because I wanted to play and she couldn't play with me.
My father was a medic in the Navy before my birth, so he knew CPR. My father had just run out to get some work tools near our house. Luckily, he was close by.
I drowned from getting trapped in a cistern and died. I was in that cistern for at least ten minutes. To me, it seems like I was probably in that water, unconscious and without a heartbeat, for well over five minutes.
When my father returned home after getting some tools, he asked my mother, 'Where is Amber?' She replied, 'I thought she was outside with you.'
My father tells me that he was frantic. He started running all over the property, searching for me. Five minutes had already passed, and he was going to stop searching in the area and start searching someplace else. He told me that as he was going past the cistern, a force that hit him hard in the chest. He had an instant knowing that I was in there. The water was dark, dirty, and mucky. The water soaked into my clothes The added water weight of my clothes caused me to the bottom of the cistern.
My father pulled me out. He immediately started CPR.
In a poem he had written shortly after my drowning, he called this 'The Fat Tuesday Incident.' He wrote that I was 'as close to death' as humanly possible. After I was breathing again, I was airlifted to the hospital.
My grandmother was the only one in the hospital room when I woke from a 3-day coma. I told her what happened and then my grandmother later, reminded me what I said (paraphrased):
I was floating above my body. I could see and hear my daddy yelling my name. He repeatedly was telling me to breathe. I saw myself lying there, but I chose to go further away from it. I was following the 'bright white light' that I saw. As I grew closer to the light, my dad's voice got my distant. I then heard a voice tell me that I have to return to my body because it is not my time yet. And I needed to listen to my daddy. I told my grandmother, that I heard the voice of her mother, Mary. She asks me, 'The mother Mary? Jesus' mother?' I said, 'No, your mother. Mary. The woman in the picture by your bed.'
My grandmother was startled and a bit afraid. A three year old cannot make this stuff up. I wouldn't have known my great-grandmother's name because I never heard her speak and was never told her name. Perhaps she was an angel who was disguised as my departed ancestor? Perhaps this angel did not want to scare me as she helped me back to my body?
I do believe in an afterlife, as I have seen a smidgen of the possibilities of life after death. Or.. life after, life?
We lived in a rural area on the outskirts of town in a trailer park. It was February and I was dressed in warm clothes, boots, and a jacket. The property had several man-made cisterns dug into the ground. Cisterns are holes that catch rainwater, and can be hazardous to small children.
I was with my mother at the time. My mother was in the middle of a dissociative disorder episode. I made my way out of the house because I wanted to play and she couldn't play with me.
My father was a medic in the Navy before my birth, so he knew CPR. My father had just run out to get some work tools near our house. Luckily, he was close by.
I drowned from getting trapped in a cistern and died. I was in that cistern for at least ten minutes. To me, it seems like I was probably in that water, unconscious and without a heartbeat, for well over five minutes.
When my father returned home after getting some tools, he asked my mother, 'Where is Amber?' She replied, 'I thought she was outside with you.'
My father tells me that he was frantic. He started running all over the property, searching for me. Five minutes had already passed, and he was going to stop searching in the area and start searching someplace else. He told me that as he was going past the cistern, a force that hit him hard in the chest. He had an instant knowing that I was in there. The water was dark, dirty, and mucky. The water soaked into my clothes The added water weight of my clothes caused me to the bottom of the cistern.
My father pulled me out. He immediately started CPR.
In a poem he had written shortly after my drowning, he called this 'The Fat Tuesday Incident.' He wrote that I was 'as close to death' as humanly possible. After I was breathing again, I was airlifted to the hospital.
My grandmother was the only one in the hospital room when I woke from a 3-day coma. I told her what happened and then my grandmother later, reminded me what I said (paraphrased):
I was floating above my body. I could see and hear my daddy yelling my name. He repeatedly was telling me to breathe. I saw myself lying there, but I chose to go further away from it. I was following the 'bright white light' that I saw. As I grew closer to the light, my dad's voice got my distant. I then heard a voice tell me that I have to return to my body because it is not my time yet. And I needed to listen to my daddy. I told my grandmother, that I heard the voice of her mother, Mary. She asks me, 'The mother Mary? Jesus' mother?' I said, 'No, your mother. Mary. The woman in the picture by your bed.'
My grandmother was startled and a bit afraid. A three year old cannot make this stuff up. I wouldn't have known my great-grandmother's name because I never heard her speak and was never told her name. Perhaps she was an angel who was disguised as my departed ancestor? Perhaps this angel did not want to scare me as she helped me back to my body?
I do believe in an afterlife, as I have seen a smidgen of the possibilities of life after death. Or.. life after, life?
Taustatiedot
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
February 24, 1998
NDE-elementit
Kokemuksesi aikana, oliko siihen liittyvä hengenvaarallinen tapahtuma?
Yes Accident Drowning CPR given Life threatening event, but not clinical death
My heart was not beating. I was blue and unresponsive when I was pulled from the water. I needed a couple of rounds of CPR to get my heart beating again.
Miten arvioisit kokemuksesi sisältöä?
Both pleasant AND distressing
Tunsitko olosi eroavasi kehostasi?
Yes I heard my father yelling for me to breathe, while I was floating above my body. I saw my body lying there and my father crying for me to wake up.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Miten kokemusajan korkein tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasosi vertautui normaaliin päivittäiseen tietoisuuteen ja valppauteen?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was able to tap into otherworldly sensations, heard a deceased loved one's voice telling me to go back to my body. I saw a heavenly light. I felt safe, loved, and was no longer afraid.
Milloin kokemuksen aikana olit korkeimmalla tietoisuuden ja valppauden tasolla?
Middle
Olivatko ajatuksesi nopeutuneet?
Faster than usual
Tuntuiko ajankulku nopeutuvan tai hidastuvan?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Olivatko aistisi tavallista elävämpiä?
Incredibly more vivid
Vertaa kokemuksesi näkemistä tavalliseen näkökykyysi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
I was told that I became more aware, hyper-aware almost; and also, overly protective of my loved ones. I became more sensitive and empathic to everything and everyone around me. I felt more deeply and more intensely.
Vertaa kokemuksesi kuuloa tavalliseen kuuloosi, joka sinulla oli välittömästi ennen kokemusta
I heard an almost ringing sensation, followed by the voice of a deceased loved one. It was a calm, guiding voice. I was not afraid of it. The voice came from above me.
Olitko tietoinen tapahtumista muualla?
Yes, but the facts have not been checked out
Kuljitko tai läpi tunnelin?
No
Näkyikö kokemuksessasi mitään olentoja?
I actually saw them
Kohtasitko tai tulitko tietoiseksi mistään edesmenneistä (tai elävistä) olennoista?
Yes
Näitkö tai tunsitko olevasi kirkkaan valon ympäröimä?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Näitkö epätavallisen valon?
Yes It was a bright light that looked like it was followed by a tunnel-like shape.
Tuntuiko sinusta, että astuit johonkin toiseen, yliluonnolliseen maailmaan?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Mitä muita tunteita koit kokemuksen aikana?
I felt content, safe, warm, loved, enveloped, calm, and apprehensive.
Tunsitko rauhaa tai miellyttävyyttä?
Relief or calmness
Tunsitko iloa?
Happiness
Tunsitko harmoniaa tai yhtenäisyyttä universumin kanssa?
I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Tuntuiko äkillisesti siltä, että ymmärsit kaiken?
Everything about the universe
Palasivatko kohtaukset menneisyydestäsi takaisin mieleesi?
No
Näkyivätkö tulevaisuuden kohtaukset sinulle?
No
Tulitko rajalle tai pisteeseen, josta ei ole paluuta?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Jumala, hengellisyys ja uskonto
Mikä uskonto sinulla oli ennen kokemustasi?
Do not know. I was only three years old without religious indoctrination.
Onko uskonnollinen käytäntösi muuttunut kokemuksesi jälkeen?
Yes
Mikä on uskontoasi nyt?
Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated I am not currently in practice with this faith, but I am going through what feels like a spiritual awakening, and I've been more open-minded to learning about all types of different religions. Right now, I'd consider myself non-denominational.
Sisältyikö kokemukseesi piirteitä, jotka olivat linjassa maallisten uskomustesi kanssa?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Tuliko arvoihisi ja uskomuksiisi muutoksia kokemuksesi takia?
Yes
Tuntuiko sinusta, että kohtasit mystisen olennon tai läsnäolon, tai kuulit tunnistamattoman äänen?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin My great grandma I who I described as being the voice of the entity I heard.
Näkyikö sinulle vainajia tai hengellisiä henkiä?
I actually saw them
Kohtasitko tai tiedostitko minkään olentoja, jotka ovat aiemmin eläneet maapallolla ja jotka mainitaan nimeltä uskonnoissa (esimerkiksi: Jeesus, Muhammad, Buddha, jne?)
No
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa Jumalan olemassaolosta?
Uncertain
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa universaalista yhteydestä tai ykseydestä?
Yes
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa Jumalan olemassaolosta?
No
Maan päällisistä elämistä uskonnon ulkopuolella
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko erityistä tietoa tai tietoa tarkoituksestasi?
Yes
Kokemuksesi aikana, saiko tietoa elämän merkityksestä?
No
Saitko kokemuksesi aikana tietoa tuonpuoleisesta?
Yes
Saitko tietoa siitä, miten elämme elämämme?
Uncertain
Saitko kokemuksesi aikana tietoa elämän vaikeuksista, haasteista ja koettelemuksista?
No
Saitko kokemuksesi aikana tietoa rakkaudesta?
Uncertain
Mitä elämänmuutoksia tapahtui elämässäsi kokemuksesi jälkeen?
Large changes in my life
Ovatko ihmissuhteesi muuttuneet erityisesti kokemuksesi seurauksena?
Yes. My mother and father lost their parental rights to me following my drowning.
NDE:n jälkeen
Oliko kokemusta vaikea ilmaista sanoin?
Yes I was so young, that now my memory is fading.
Kuinka tarkasti muistat kokemuksen verrattuna muihin elämän tapahtumiin, jotka tapahtuivat kokemuksen aikana?
I remember the experience less accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Onko sinulla kokemuksesi jälkeen psyykkisiä, epätavallisia tai muita erityisiä lahjoja, joita sinulla ei ollut ennen kokemusta?
Yes
Onko kokemuksessasi yksi tai useampi osa, joka on sinulle erityisen merkityksellinen tai tärkeä? Selitä.
Yes. I find it important and special that I was able to sense everything going on around my physical body and what was happening in the unearthly plane, after departing from my body.
Oletko koskaan jakanut tätä kokemusta muiden kanssa?
Yes I told everyone immediately, and continued to tell my story throughout my childhood years, but one day I stopped telling it so often because I was sometimes called a liar.
Oliko sinulla tietoa kuolemanrajakokemuksista (NDE) ennen kokemustasi?
No
Mitä olit mieltä kokemuksesi todellisuudesta heti sen tapahtuessa (päivien tai viikkojen ajan)?
Experience was definitely real
Mitä mieltä olet kokemuksesi todellisuudesta nyt?
Experience was definitely real
Oletko koskaan elämäsi aikana kokenut mitään, mikä olisi toistanut osan kokemuksesta?
Yes I sometimes get snippets of far-away memories, almost like mini-snapshots of a past life, yet it is my current life.
Onko jotain muuta, mitä haluaisit lisätä kokemuksestasi?
No thank you.