תיאור החוויה
It was my birthday and my parents let me have a small party. One of my girlfriends was staying the night. My parents went out to dinner and I decided that I was a teenager and wanted to try drinking alcohol like my father did. I filled up a tall glass with Gin held my nose and consumed all of it. The equivalent of at least fifteen shots of straight alcohol.
I quickly became disoriented and then fell unconscious. My sister and my friend put me in my bed and when my parents came home and went in to check on me my mother noticed I wouldn't wake up. At this point, they told me they tried to carry me to the car. My father was so mad, he wouldn't help and I was at this point dead-weight. This is the point when I remember lifting out of my body and floating mid-air over my body, which was lying in the dining room floor. I left my body. I was no longer intoxicated; I was completely clear and could see everything at once. I realized that I was almost dead and became very upset and began to cry for Jesus to help me.
At this moment, I was aware of a light enveloping me. I was the light and it was me. There was another Being with me. The Being let me know that I was going to die and I must leave this body for good. I remember arguing with the Being explaining that I didn't want to because it was so hard going through the childhood years and I didn't want to have to go through this again. The Being indicated that my body was severely damaged and I couldn't go back. I became very adamant at this point that God was all powerful and could fix the body. At some point, the decision was made to let me re-enter my body on my faith or will, whatever one may call it.
The next phase was like an evaluation. I was taken back through my past, beginning with my birth and we went over what had already happened. Then I was shown an overview of key points in my life that was to come. One of these key experiences was that I would have a child at a very early age and it would be a boy. It was explained to me that from this point forward I would do everything earlier than most, including my older sister. I would marry first, bear children first and generally have more responsibility than my sisters and other friends and family members. I was told that I would soon leave my church and have a short period of rebellion and drug experimentation but this would end fairly soon and I would begin to climb out of it. I was told that I was going to be a writer and that my words would touch many people. I was instructed to write a book on or around the age of forty and that after I had fulfilled my life plans I would eventually die before my two sisters.
All of a sudden... I opened my eyes and I was in a hospital bed in the intensive care unit. The preacher from my church was there praying for me. I actually thought at this point that I had died when I saw him there with my mother who was crying. I gradually woke up and asked what had happened? My mother said I had been in a coma for three days and I had almost died.
I quickly became disoriented and then fell unconscious. My sister and my friend put me in my bed and when my parents came home and went in to check on me my mother noticed I wouldn't wake up. At this point, they told me they tried to carry me to the car. My father was so mad, he wouldn't help and I was at this point dead-weight. This is the point when I remember lifting out of my body and floating mid-air over my body, which was lying in the dining room floor. I left my body. I was no longer intoxicated; I was completely clear and could see everything at once. I realized that I was almost dead and became very upset and began to cry for Jesus to help me.
At this moment, I was aware of a light enveloping me. I was the light and it was me. There was another Being with me. The Being let me know that I was going to die and I must leave this body for good. I remember arguing with the Being explaining that I didn't want to because it was so hard going through the childhood years and I didn't want to have to go through this again. The Being indicated that my body was severely damaged and I couldn't go back. I became very adamant at this point that God was all powerful and could fix the body. At some point, the decision was made to let me re-enter my body on my faith or will, whatever one may call it.
The next phase was like an evaluation. I was taken back through my past, beginning with my birth and we went over what had already happened. Then I was shown an overview of key points in my life that was to come. One of these key experiences was that I would have a child at a very early age and it would be a boy. It was explained to me that from this point forward I would do everything earlier than most, including my older sister. I would marry first, bear children first and generally have more responsibility than my sisters and other friends and family members. I was told that I would soon leave my church and have a short period of rebellion and drug experimentation but this would end fairly soon and I would begin to climb out of it. I was told that I was going to be a writer and that my words would touch many people. I was instructed to write a book on or around the age of forty and that after I had fulfilled my life plans I would eventually die before my two sisters.
All of a sudden... I opened my eyes and I was in a hospital bed in the intensive care unit. The preacher from my church was there praying for me. I actually thought at this point that I had died when I saw him there with my mother who was crying. I gradually woke up and asked what had happened? My mother said I had been in a coma for three days and I had almost died.
מידע רקע
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
August 15, 1973
מרכיבי NDE
בזמן החוויה שלך, האם הייתה אירוע מסכן חיים הקשור?
Yes Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I had an accidental overdose.
איך אתה תופס את תוכן החוויה שלך?
Mixed
האם הרגשת מנותק מגופך?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
כיצד השווית את רמת ההכרה והערנות הגבוהה ביותר שלך במהלך החווייה לרמת ההכרה והערנות הרגילות שלך ביום יום?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was different in a sense that I seemed to understand more clearly the process of life and death, it is no longer a mystery. I now understand that we actively participate in our own destiny by the choices we make at every given moment no matter how minute. We are not simply puppets of clay entertaining the gods. I would say that my consciousness was different during the experience in that I felt lighter, I could see as well, if not better and communication was instant or timeless, it's hard to describe, but it definitely didn't involve sound waves or physical sensations. It was a very emotional experience, much more intense than any other event in my life. I knew the chips were down and I could not allow myself to fail by succumbing to an untimely death as a child in this life.
באיזה שלב בחווייה היית ברמת ההכרה והערנות הגבוהה ביותר שלך?
As soon as I floated up and out of my body.
האם מחשבותיך היו מהירות יותר?
Neither
האם הזמן נדמה שהוא מאיץ או מאט?
Everything seemed to be happening all at once
It was as if everything was in one place. Whatever we were discussing seemed to appear instantly.
האם החושים שלך היו חדים וברורים מהרגיל?
More so than usual
אנא השווה את הראייה שלך במהלך החוויה לראייה היומיומית שלך שהייתה לך ישירות לפני הזמן של החוויה
Everything seemed to be in a haze of light. At some points during my review it was like watching a movie.
אנא השווה את השמיעה שלך במהלך החוויה לשמיעה היומיומית שלך שהייתה לך ישירות לפני הזמן של החוויה
As I stated earlier it was apparent that what we determine as a 'sound' was instantly registered and understood. The 'sounds' were limited to communication with the being who was helping me. In other words I couldn't hear my family and what was going on with my body at the time; I could only communicate with the light being.
האם נדמה היה לך שאתה מודע לדברים שמתרחשים במקומות אחרים?
Neither
האם עברת דרך מנהרה או מנהרה?
No
האם ראית ישויות כלשהן בחוויה שלך?
Neither
האם פגשת או היית מודע ליצורים שנפטרו (או חיים)?
Yes I did not know him. It felt like a male presence, I had cried out for Jesus, but the being didn't introduce himself or give me a name. It did feel like we knew each other though, like that feeling when you see someone and you know them but can't recall from where.
האם ראית או הרגשת מוקף באור מבהיק?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
האם ראית אור בלתי רגיל?
Yes As I stated earlier, I was the light, the light was with me and I could perceive it both visually and also I felt an integral part of it; like if several beings were turned into a vapor and mixed together.
האם נדמה לך שנכנסת לעולם אחר, לא ארצי?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm
אילו רגשות נוספים חווית במהלך החוויה?
The first emotion was when I looked down and saw my body and realized I was dead. I became very upset and cried hysterically. I called out for Jesus. I was scared because I had inadvertently done this to myself and I felt I would somehow be punished; like when a teenager wrecks the car and it has to be totaled. When the being in the light communicated to me that I was indeed going to die I became defiant and emotionally charged with conviction that I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that God could raise a body from dust and that I should be given a chance to go back in and finish this life I had started.
האם היה לך תחושת שלווה או נעימות?
Neither
האם היה לך תחושת שמחה?
Neither
האם הרגשת תחושת הרמוניה או אחדות עם היקום?
United, one with the world
האם נראה פתאום שהבנת הכל?
Everything about the universe
האם סצנות מהעבר שלך חזרו אליך?
Past flashed before me, out of my control I was given a sum up of what had happened thus far in my short life, I was only thirteen. I had a horrible relationship with my father but that didn't come up in the review. In fact, I don't recall any negativity during my review. The most vivid recollection was the actual moment of birth, which began with bright lights and noises that startled me. It felt like I was watching a movie yet in it at the same time.
I also learned not to fear death if you choose to live and go forward setting and working to accomplish goals.
האם הגיעו אליך סצנות מהעתיד?
From personal future
The future events that I was attuned to only had to do with my life plan, in other words these events were not on a global or historical scale but a personal level.
האם הגעת לגבול או לנקודת אל חזור?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
אלוהים, רוחניות ודת
מה הייתה דתך לפני החוויה שלך?
Moderate Southern Baptist
האם פרקטיקות הדת שלך השתנו מאז החוויה שלך?
Yes As I stated, I left the Southern Baptist church of my youth never to return. Then I went on an eleven year self-imposed journey into theological and comparative religion studies. After my experience, I understood that there are many paths to the same destination. No one right way, and each is like a facet of a diamond without which a diamond would not be the end result.
מה היא דתך עכשיו?
Liberal Comparative Religion studies and Philosophy
האם היה לך שינוי בערכים ובאמונות שלך בעקבות החוויה שלך?
Yes As I stated, I left the Southern Baptist church of my youth never to return. Then I went on an eleven year self-imposed journey into theological and comparative religion studies. After my experience, I understood that there are many paths to the same destination. No one right way, and each is like a facet of a diamond without which a diamond would not be the end result.
האם נדמה לך שנפגשת עם ישות מיסטית או נוכחות מיסטית, או שמעת קול לא ניתן לזיהוי?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
האם ראית רוחות של נפטרים או רוחניות?
Neither
בנוגע לחיים הארציים שלנו מעבר לדת
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת ידע מיוחד או מידע על מטרתך?
Yes I understood that the death process is, for lack of a better term, normal. That death is simply a threshold to a never ending procession of life and learning how to love one another while simultaneously escaping the traps and pitfalls of our fragile physical make up. We are all encouraged to get back up after our falls, recoup and move forward to a destiny we have co-created.
האם מערכות היחסים שלך השתנו במיוחד כתוצאה מהחוויה שלך?
Uncertain It's hard to say what paths I would have crossed (or not crossed) had I not gone through this and how it might have changed my inter-personal relationships. I do speak up on certain subjects that others may just wonder about. It's hard to tell others just how one knows with absolute conviction certain things without going into how you received this information. I often prefer not to talk about this experience and others that followed because I feel that it challenges many people's belief systems.
אחרי ה-NDE
האם היה קשה להביע את החווייה במילים?
Yes Describing the way in which the other intelligence that was present communicated with me.
האם יש לכם כישורים נפשיים, לא רגילים או אחרים לאחר חווייתכם שלא היו לכם לפני החוויה?
Yes I have had numerous precognitive experiences. I am currently able to remote view locations. I am able to hear in ranges that most people can't hear. I can read people very well. I can look at a photo and determine whether the person is living. I have had numerous paranormal experiences since the NDE.
האם ישנם חלק אחד או מספר חלקים בחווייתכם שהם בעלי משמעות או חשובים במיוחד עבורכם? אנא הסבירו.
The most meaningful part of the experience is the direct knowledge that we do survive death and those beings who help us are present at all times.
האם אי פעם שיתפתם את החוויה הזו עם אחרים?
Yes I didn't tell anyone about the experience for many years. When I did tell my family, my sisters in particular ridiculed me and didn't seem to believe me. My mother believes me because I was able to describe the scene wherein I was laying in our dining room floor when I was completely unconscious and near death at the time.
האם הייתה לכם ידע כלשהו על חוויית כמעט מוות לפני חווייתכם?
No
מה האמנת על מציאות החוויה שלך זמן קצר (ימים עד שבועות) לאחר שהתרחשה?
Experience was definitely real I was only a kid so I was bewildered. I began to challenge the belief system we were being taught at my church. It all came to a head one afternoon during a youth group meeting at my church. Our group leader, an older woman in the church, was explaining to several children from the ages of seven years old to teenagers that all the Chinese people were going to hell because they did not know Jesus Christ. I challenged her and said that was not true. She became upset with me and refused to answer my pointed questions. I stumped her by inquiring what happened to all the souls who were born before Jesus then. I then explained to her that I was only a mere human being and I would never send anyone to hell because they didn't happen to live in a region that practiced Christianity. I also told her that I had concluded that God had much more compassion than a kid such as myself did so it didn't make any sense what she was telling us. She became infuriated and ordered me to leave the church and go home. I never went back to the church I had attended since I was two years old. Mainly because I understood at the deepest level that what they were teaching the children was far from the truth.
מה אתה מאמין על מציאות החוויה שלך עכשיו?
Experience was definitely real I have come to realize that nothing can be proved or disproved when it comes to this type of thing. Each person forms their opinion or belief system through direct experience or by reading about others who have had these experiences. Judging by the countless numbers of people who have come forward and told about their NDE's a pattern emerges that can't be denied. Now deciding what this empirical evidence actually means is a very personal decision left up to each individual.
בכל זמן בחייך, האם משהו אי פעם שיחזר חלק כלשהו מהחוויה?
No
האם יש משהו נוסף שתרצה להוסיף לגבי החוויה שלך?
I highly recommend that anyone reading this 'never try this at home' simply to induce the experience. All truth comes in it's own time.
האם יש שאלות נוספות שנוכל לשאול כדי לעזור לך לתקשר את החוויה שלך?
You might ask the experiencer to describe the process of leaving and entering their bodies in detail. I think this would be an interesting subject.