תיאור החוויה
This incident occurred at the end of a long period of abuse - about three years. My abuser isolated me while I was swimming in a pond behind his house. After a brief argument with the man, as I was trying to swim away from him, he pushed me underwater by my shoulders and held me there. I struggled against his hands on my shoulders, but was not able to come to the surface. When I was almost out of air, I looked up through the water at the face of my attacker. His expression was very frightening to me because he was smiling, but also appeared to be very angry.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
מידע רקע
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
1981
מרכיבי NDE
בזמן החוויה שלך, האם הייתה אירוע מסכן חיים הקשור?
Yes Criminal attack Other near drowning
I was being held underwater by someone who intended to either scare me or kill me.
איך אתה תופס את תוכן החוויה שלך?
Wonderful
החוויה כללה
Out of body experience
האם הרגשת מנותק מגופך?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
כיצד השווית את רמת ההכרה והערנות הגבוהה ביותר שלך במהלך החווייה לרמת ההכרה והערנות הרגילות שלך ביום יום?
More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
באיזה שלב בחווייה היית ברמת ההכרה והערנות הגבוהה ביותר שלך?
When I had decided to, but before I had re-entered my body.
האם מחשבותיך היו מהירות יותר?
Incredibly fast
האם הזמן נדמה שהוא מאיץ או מאט?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time stopped and I felt like I was floating with no gravity.
האם החושים שלך היו חדים וברורים מהרגיל?
Incredibly more vivid
אנא השווה את הראייה שלך במהלך החוויה לראייה היומיומית שלך שהייתה לך ישירות לפני הזמן של החוויה
The surface of the water glinted in the sun in a starburst effect and the appearance of my body was in a haze of the pond water. It was surreal.
אנא השווה את השמיעה שלך במהלך החוויה לשמיעה היומיומית שלך שהייתה לך ישירות לפני הזמן של החוויה
I don't remember any sounds except for my attacker breathing heavily and the water slapping against his body.
האם נדמה היה לך שאתה מודע לדברים שמתרחשים במקומות אחרים?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
האם עברת דרך מנהרה או מנהרה?
No
האם ראית ישויות כלשהן בחוויה שלך?
I actually saw them
האם פגשת או היית מודע ליצורים שנפטרו (או חיים)?
No
החוויה כללה
Darkness
החוויה כללה
Light
האם ראית או הרגשת מוקף באור מבהיק?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
האם ראית אור בלתי רגיל?
Yes
האם נדמה לך שנכנסת לעולם אחר, לא ארצי?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The place surrounding the light was very comfortable and is not comparable to anything I have felt or seen since.
אילו רגשות נוספים חווית במהלך החוויה?
Peace, absolute clarity and an absence of pain.
האם היה לך תחושת שלווה או נעימות?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
האם היה לך תחושת שמחה?
Happiness
האם הרגשת תחושת הרמוניה או אחדות עם היקום?
I felt united or one with the world
החוויה כללה
Special Knowledge
האם נראה פתאום שהבנת הכל?
Everything about the universe
האם סצנות מהעבר שלך חזרו אליך?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I understood a much broader picture while I was not in my body. It didn't flood back to me in a visual life passing before my eyes. I went from ignorance instantly to wide awareness - not just of my life circumstances, but also of emotions, my family circumstances, a sense of purpose that I didn't have before. There was no sense of time, just calm sense of knowing what was and also what I needed to do.
האם הגיעו אליך סצנות מהעתיד?
Scenes from the world's future I knew my mom was not going to die from her illness.
האם הגעת לגבול או לנקודת אל חזור?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
אלוהים, רוחניות ודת
מה הייתה דתך לפני החוויה שלך?
Liberal None
האם פרקטיקות הדת שלך השתנו מאז החוויה שלך?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
מה היא דתך עכשיו?
Liberal None/Open minded
האם היה לך שינוי בערכים ובאמונות שלך בעקבות החוויה שלך?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
האם נדמה לך שנפגשת עם ישות מיסטית או נוכחות מיסטית, או שמעת קול לא ניתן לזיהוי?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
האם ראית רוחות של נפטרים או רוחניות?
I actually saw them
בנוגע לחיים הארציים שלנו מעבר לדת
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת ידע מיוחד או מידע על מטרתך?
Yes I understood my purpose on a different level. The string theory was a no-brainer for me. Somehow, I realized that we are all energy and that solid mass was an illusion.
האם מערכות היחסים שלך השתנו במיוחד כתוצאה מהחוויה שלך?
Yes My sister and I have a special connection now.
אחרי ה-NDE
האם היה קשה להביע את החווייה במילים?
No
האם יש לכם כישורים נפשיים, לא רגילים או אחרים לאחר חווייתכם שלא היו לכם לפני החוויה?
Yes I can pass easily into this area by choice and sometimes wake up after sleeping with memories of being there, flying effortlessly.
האם ישנם חלק אחד או מספר חלקים בחווייתכם שהם בעלי משמעות או חשובים במיוחד עבורכם? אנא הסבירו.
The experience changed my life. It ended the abuse and gave me a huge amount of empathy.
האם אי פעם שיתפתם את החוויה הזו עם אחרים?
Yes I started sharing the near drowning experience with my psychologist at age twenty-one. In the last few months, I have been processing the experience with an emergency doctor and have been able to describe the experience in more detail.
האם הייתה לכם ידע כלשהו על חוויית כמעט מוות לפני חווייתכם?
No
מה האמנת על מציאות החוויה שלך זמן קצר (ימים עד שבועות) לאחר שהתרחשה?
Experience was definitely real I knew the experience was real. Soon after that experience, I began researching near death, out of body experiences, channeling and other forms of spirituality. I even did a report in high school where I interviewed a couple of psychics.
מה אתה מאמין על מציאות החוויה שלך עכשיו?
Experience was definitely real I view this experience as my life energy moving between planes of consciousness under duress. I view it along the lines of the law of conservation of energy. It states that the total amount of energy in an isolated system remains constant. A consequence of this law is that energy cannot be created or destroyed. The only thing that can happen with energy in an isolated system is that it can change form, that is to say for instance kinetic energy can become thermal energy. Because energy is associated with mass in the Einstein's theory of relativity, the conservation of energy also implies the conservation of mass in isolated systems (that is, the mass of a system cannot change, so long as energy is not permitted to enter or leave the system). Our psychic energy, soul, what have you, is just another form of energy.
בכל זמן בחייך, האם משהו אי פעם שיחזר חלק כלשהו מהחוויה?
No