תיאור החוויה
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This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
מידע רקע
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
03/29/2001 4:20 pm Pacific time
מרכיבי NDE
בזמן החוויה שלך, האם הייתה אירוע מסכן חיים הקשור?
No. Other: Healthy, Stayed conscious.
איך אתה תופס את תוכן החוויה שלך?
Entirely pleasant
החוויה כללה
Out of body experience
האם הרגשת מנותק מגופך?
Yes My physical body stayed conscious while operating my vehicle. I have subsequently had veridical OBEs.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
כיצד השווית את רמת ההכרה והערנות הגבוהה ביותר שלך במהלך החווייה לרמת ההכרה והערנות הרגילות שלך ביום יום?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
באיזה שלב בחווייה היית ברמת ההכרה והערנות הגבוהה ביותר שלך?
When I was the vast void, let’s say: normal is 11 or so lines of coded information. The vast void had a millions lines of coded information.
האם מחשבותיך היו מהירות יותר?
Incredibly fast
האם הזמן נדמה שהוא מאיץ או מאט?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Slowed, stopped and went outside of time.
האם החושים שלך היו חדים וברורים מהרגיל?
Incredibly more vivid
אנא השווה את הראייה שלך במהלך החוויה לראייה היומיומית שלך שהייתה לך ישירות לפני הזמן של החוויה
I could see 720 degrees and through time and space. I was outside of time and space. Layers and layers of visual information like Photoshop by seeing the image the information of all the layers is self-evident. Also, emotional and other types of information were available.
אנא השווה את השמיעה שלך במהלך החוויה לשמיעה היומיומית שלך שהייתה לך ישירות לפני הזמן של החוויה
The sound also contained layers of additional information and emotion and intensity: it still does.
האם נדמה היה לך שאתה מודע לדברים שמתרחשים במקומות אחרים?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
החוויה כללה
Tunnel
האם עברת דרך מנהרה או מנהרה?
Uncertain I saw a beam of white. It came out of the sky and touched me on the shoulder. I felt the tangible touch. I became one with the beam. This beam transitioned me from my body. This was an experience that seems to be functionally equivalent to ‘the tunnel’.
החוויה כללה
Presence of deceased persons
האם ראית ישויות כלשהן בחוויה שלך?
I sensed their presence
האם פגשת או היית מודע ליצורים שנפטרו (או חיים)?
No Not in this particular experience, but in many others.
החוויה כללה
Void
החוויה כללה
Darkness
החוויה כללה
Unearthly light
האם ראית או הרגשת מוקף באור מבהיק?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
האם ראית אור בלתי רגיל?
Yes The Beam was diffused at the top and sharp on the edges and came to a point at my shoulder. Then my body glowed in a bluish white from inside. The field of particles was also sort of light.
החוויה כללה
A landscape or city
האם נדמה לך שנכנסת לעולם אחר, לא ארצי?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The field of particles and the vast void.
החוויה כללה
Hellish imagery
החוויה כללה
Strong emotional tone
אילו רגשות נוספים חווית במהלך החוויה?
Immense Love
האם היה לך תחושת שלווה או נעימות?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
האם היה לך תחושת שמחה?
incredible joy
האם הרגשת תחושת הרמוניה או אחדות עם היקום?
I felt united or one with the world
החוויה כללה
Special knowledge or purpose
האם נראה פתאום שהבנת הכל?
Everything about the universe
החוויה כללה
Life review
האם סצנות מהעבר שלך חזרו אליך?
I remembered many past events
החוויה כללה
Awareness of the future
האם הגיעו אליך סצנות מהעתיד?
Scenes from the world's future Why is this an either or question? I received much information about the future.
החוויה כללה
Boundary
האם הגעת לגבול או מבנה פיזי מוגבל?
Yes There was an event horizon between the fields of particle, and then I went beyond to the vast void.
האם הגעת לגבול או לנקודת אל חזור?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will This is a little vague but I did feel like the topic came up and was decided.
אלוהים, רוחניות ודת
איזו חשיבות נתתם לחיים הדתיים/רוחניים שלכם לפני החוויה שלכם
Not important to me
מה הייתה דתך לפני החוויה שלך?
Unaffiliated- Atheist Formerly Catholic but never really believed it during the time I was going through a period of atheism then agnosticism and I was conducting an experiment to experience God.
האם פרקטיקות הדת שלך השתנו מאז החוויה שלך?
Yes From doubt to certainty.
איזו חשיבות אתם נותנים לחיים הדתיים/רוחניים שלכם לאחר החוויה שלכם
Greatly important to me
מה היא דתך עכשיו?
Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated My knowledge now is beyond all religious limitations. I understand the value of them for others.
האם החוויה שלך כללה תכנים התואמים לאמונותיך הארציות?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience The name "God of Abraham" is obviously from my culture and the beam does show up in the bible several places, but the whole experience is so far beyond anything that is taught in Catholicism it is inconsistent.
האם היה לך שינוי בערכים ובאמונות שלך בעקבות החוויה שלך?
Yes God does exist and loves me. My actions matter. I am more aware of my actions and feelings.
החוויה כללה
Presence of unearthly beings
האם נדמה לך שנפגשת עם ישות מיסטית או נוכחות מיסטית, או שמעת קול לא ניתן לזיהוי?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard several voices from different locations around me and within me. One said ‘everything will be alright.’ One responding to my unasked question ‘who are you?’ The response: ‘God of Abraham.’
האם ראית רוחות של נפטרים או רוחניות?
I sensed their presence
האם פגשת או נודע לך על ישויות שחיו בעבר על פני האדמה שמתוארים לפי שם בדתות (לדוגמה: ישו, מוחמד, בודהה ועוד)?
No Not in this particular experience but in many other expereinces.
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על קיומו של אלוהים?
Yes I, as God am uncreated, eternal, have been before this and will remain after.
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על חיבור אוניברסלי או אחדות?
Yes We are one!
האם האמנת בקיום של אלוהים לפני החוויה שלך?
God probably does not exist
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על קיומו של אלוהים?
Yes God Exists. We are in fact God but we chose to forget ourselves.
האם אתה מאמין בקיום של אלוהים לאחר החוויה שלך?
God definitely exists
בנוגע לחיים הארציים שלנו מעבר לדת
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת ידע מיוחד או מידע על מטרתך?
Yes Omniscient!
האם האמנת שחיינו הארציים משמעותיים וחשובים לפני החוויה שלך
Are meaningful and significant
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על משמעות החיים?
Yes We exist to experience. All of creation exists to experience.
האם האמנת בחיים לאחר המוות לפני החוויה שלך
An afterlife probably does not exist
האם אתה מאמין בחיים אחרי המוות לאחר החוויה שלך
An afterlife definitely exists Yes We are so much more that this fluff of biomatter.
האם פחדת מהמוות לפני החוויה שלך
I greatly feared death
האם אתה פוחד ממוות לאחר החוויה שלך
I do not fear death
האם פחדת לחיות את חייך לפני החוויה שלך
Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
האם פחדת לחיות את חייך אחרי החוויה שלך
Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
האם האמנת שחיינו הארציים משמעותיים וחשובים לפני החוויה שלך
Are meaningful and significant
האם האמנת שחיינו הארציים משמעותיים וחשובים לאחר החוויה שלך
Are meaningful and significant
האם רכשת מידע על איך לחיות את חיינו?
Yes From the higher perspective it all makes sense, frustrating as it is that we don't remember. It does help to know that.
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם רכשת מידע על הקשיים, אתגרים וקשיים של החיים?
Yes Suffering is a mechanism for spiritual evolution which is one of the most valuable experiences to have the experience of learning growing and evolving and we remember who we really are and return home.
האם היית רחום לפני החוויה שלך
Slightly compassionate toward others
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם רכשת מידע על אהבה?
Yes Love is the basis of all creation. Love is God. God is Love.
האם היית רחום לאחר החוויה שלך
Greatly compassionate toward others
אילו שינויים בחיים התרחשו בחייך לאחר החוויה שלך?
Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I felt horrible working for corrupt corporations and challenged their behavior. That did not go over very well. I have a difficult time receiving money now. It is a work in progress.
האם מערכות היחסים שלך השתנו במיוחד כתוצאה מהחוויה שלך?
Uncertain Uncertain I am still a hot mess when it comes to relationships. But I hope there is a much stronger connection with some.
אחרי ה-NDE
האם היה קשה להביע את החווייה במילים?
Yes There is creation beyond anything in the physical universe.
כמה במדויק אתה זוכר את החוויה בהשוואה לאירועים אחרים בחיים שהתרחשו בסביבות זמן החוויה?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It's more clear and more intense as a memory than reality is as reality.
האם יש לכם כישורים נפשיים, לא רגילים או אחרים לאחר חווייתכם שלא היו לכם לפני החוויה?
Yes I can talk to the sun and the sun answers. I can feel solar flares and other fluctuations in the magnetic field. I have prophetic dreams and visions. I’m hugely empathic.
האם ישנם חלק אחד או מספר חלקים בחווייתכם שהם בעלי משמעות או חשובים במיוחד עבורכם? אנא הסבירו.
The field of particles that is the substructure of the universe has not yet been validated by science, but it will. In 2013, UCLA imaged the atoms of platinum and it looks the same as the field I saw. I feel that is because atomic structure is built on the framework of the field.
האם אי פעם שיתפתם את החוויה הזו עם אחרים?
Yes A couple of days after, I told my friend who believed me because she had already had an OBE.
האם הייתה לכם ידע כלשהו על חוויית כמעט מוות לפני חווייתכם?
Yes I had seen this awesome site; and read a few of the stories. I had also seen TV show about it.
מה האמנת על מציאות החוויה שלך זמן קצר (ימים עד שבועות) לאחר שהתרחשה?
Experience was definitely real It was absolutely real but I still wanted to meet someone else who had experienced it.
מה אתה מאמין על מציאות החוויה שלך עכשיו?
Experience was definitely real Validation, Validation, Validation. Other people have experienced similar and almost identical experiences.
בכל זמן בחייך, האם משהו אי פעם שיחזר חלק כלשהו מהחוויה?
Yes I have since had many OBEs: Fully through layers of heaven, hell and the vast void.
האם יש משהו נוסף שתרצה להוסיף לגבי החוויה שלך?
I never was close to death but it is still an NDE because of the spiritual elements. Also it is not enlightenment because I did not have spiritual guides and community. It is not just an OBE from sleeping because I was fully conscious. It does not really fit any category. I also felt most at home with NDE, as opposed to any other group.