תיאור החוויה
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
מידע רקע
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
מרכיבי NDE
בזמן החוויה שלך, האם הייתה אירוע מסכן חיים הקשור?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
איך אתה תופס את תוכן החוויה שלך?
Entirely pleasant
החוויה כללה
Out of body experience
האם הרגשת מנותק מגופך?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
כיצד השווית את רמת ההכרה והערנות הגבוהה ביותר שלך במהלך החווייה לרמת ההכרה והערנות הרגילות שלך ביום יום?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
באיזה שלב בחווייה היית ברמת ההכרה והערנות הגבוהה ביותר שלך?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
האם מחשבותיך היו מהירות יותר?
Faster than usual
האם הזמן נדמה שהוא מאיץ או מאט?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
האם החושים שלך היו חדים וברורים מהרגיל?
Incredibly more vivid
אנא השווה את הראייה שלך במהלך החוויה לראייה היומיומית שלך שהייתה לך ישירות לפני הזמן של החוויה
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
אנא השווה את השמיעה שלך במהלך החוויה לשמיעה היומיומית שלך שהייתה לך ישירות לפני הזמן של החוויה
Nor was I hearing with ears.
האם נדמה היה לך שאתה מודע לדברים שמתרחשים במקומות אחרים?
No
החוויה כללה
Tunnel
האם עברת דרך מנהרה או מנהרה?
Yes The hallway
החוויה כללה
Presence of deceased persons
האם ראית ישויות כלשהן בחוויה שלך?
I actually saw them
האם פגשת או היית מודע ליצורים שנפטרו (או חיים)?
Yes No relatives
החוויה כללה
Unearthly light
האם ראית או הרגשת מוקף באור מבהיק?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
האם ראית אור בלתי רגיל?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
החוויה כללה
A landscape or city
האם נדמה לך שנכנסת לעולם אחר, לא ארצי?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
החוויה כללה
Strong emotional tone
אילו רגשות נוספים חווית במהלך החוויה?
Elated
האם היה לך תחושת שלווה או נעימות?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
האם היה לך תחושת שמחה?
incredible joy
האם הרגשת תחושת הרמוניה או אחדות עם היקום?
I felt united or one with the world
החוויה כללה
Special knowledge or purpose
האם נראה פתאום שהבנת הכל?
No
האם סצנות מהעבר שלך חזרו אליך?
No
החוויה כללה
Awareness of the future
האם הגיעו אליך סצנות מהעתיד?
Scenes from my personal future
החוויה כללה
Boundary
האם הגעת לגבול או מבנה פיזי מוגבל?
Yes
האם הגעת לגבול או לנקודת אל חזור?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
אלוהים, רוחניות ודת
איזו חשיבות נתתם לחיים הדתיים/רוחניים שלכם לפני החוויה שלכם
Greatly important to me
מה הייתה דתך לפני החוויה שלך?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
האם פרקטיקות הדת שלך השתנו מאז החוויה שלך?
Yes They are more grounded.
איזו חשיבות אתם נותנים לחיים הדתיים/רוחניים שלכם לאחר החוויה שלכם
Greatly important to me
מה היא דתך עכשיו?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
האם החוויה שלך כללה תכנים התואמים לאמונותיך הארציות?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
האם היה לך שינוי בערכים ובאמונות שלך בעקבות החוויה שלך?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
החוויה כללה
Presence of unearthly beings
האם נדמה לך שנפגשת עם ישות מיסטית או נוכחות מיסטית, או שמעת קול לא ניתן לזיהוי?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
האם ראית רוחות של נפטרים או רוחניות?
I actually saw them
האם פגשת או נודע לך על ישויות שחיו בעבר על פני האדמה שמתוארים לפי שם בדתות (לדוגמה: ישו, מוחמד, בודהה ועוד)?
No
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על קיומו של אלוהים?
No
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על חיבור אוניברסלי או אחדות?
Yes
האם האמנת בקיום של אלוהים לפני החוויה שלך?
God definitely exists
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על קיומו של אלוהים?
Yes the love was in everything.
האם אתה מאמין בקיום של אלוהים לאחר החוויה שלך?
God definitely exists
בנוגע לחיים הארציים שלנו מעבר לדת
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת ידע מיוחד או מידע על מטרתך?
Yes
האם האמנת שחיינו הארציים משמעותיים וחשובים לפני החוויה שלך
Are meaningful and significant
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על משמעות החיים?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
האם האמנת בחיים לאחר המוות לפני החוויה שלך
An afterlife definitely exists
האם אתה מאמין בחיים אחרי המוות לאחר החוויה שלך
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
האם פחדת מהמוות לפני החוויה שלך
I moderately feared death
האם אתה פוחד ממוות לאחר החוויה שלך
I do not fear death
האם פחדת לחיות את חייך לפני החוויה שלך
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
האם פחדת לחיות את חייך אחרי החוויה שלך
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
האם האמנת שחיינו הארציים משמעותיים וחשובים לפני החוויה שלך
Are meaningful and significant
האם האמנת שחיינו הארציים משמעותיים וחשובים לאחר החוויה שלך
Are meaningful and significant
האם רכשת מידע על איך לחיות את חיינו?
No
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם רכשת מידע על הקשיים, אתגרים וקשיים של החיים?
No
האם היית רחום לפני החוויה שלך
Moderately compassionate toward others
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם רכשת מידע על אהבה?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
האם היית רחום לאחר החוויה שלך
Greatly compassionate toward others
אילו שינויים בחיים התרחשו בחייך לאחר החוויה שלך?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
האם מערכות היחסים שלך השתנו במיוחד כתוצאה מהחוויה שלך?
No No
אחרי ה-NDE
האם היה קשה להביע את החווייה במילים?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
כמה במדויק אתה זוכר את החוויה בהשוואה לאירועים אחרים בחיים שהתרחשו בסביבות זמן החוויה?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
האם יש לכם כישורים נפשיים, לא רגילים או אחרים לאחר חווייתכם שלא היו לכם לפני החוויה?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
האם ישנם חלק אחד או מספר חלקים בחווייתכם שהם בעלי משמעות או חשובים במיוחד עבורכם? אנא הסבירו.
The love
האם אי פעם שיתפתם את החוויה הזו עם אחרים?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
האם הייתה לכם ידע כלשהו על חוויית כמעט מוות לפני חווייתכם?
No
מה האמנת על מציאות החוויה שלך זמן קצר (ימים עד שבועות) לאחר שהתרחשה?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
מה אתה מאמין על מציאות החוויה שלך עכשיו?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
בכל זמן בחייך, האם משהו אי פעם שיחזר חלק כלשהו מהחוויה?
No
האם יש משהו נוסף שתרצה להוסיף לגבי החוויה שלך?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.