תיאור החוויה
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
מידע רקע
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
מרכיבי NDE
בזמן החוויה שלך, האם הייתה אירוע מסכן חיים הקשור?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
איך אתה תופס את תוכן החוויה שלך?
Entirely distressing
האם הרגשת מנותק מגופך?
No
No
כיצד השווית את רמת ההכרה והערנות הגבוהה ביותר שלך במהלך החווייה לרמת ההכרה והערנות הרגילות שלך ביום יום?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
באיזה שלב בחווייה היית ברמת ההכרה והערנות הגבוהה ביותר שלך?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
האם מחשבותיך היו מהירות יותר?
Incredibly fast
האם הזמן נדמה שהוא מאיץ או מאט?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
האם החושים שלך היו חדים וברורים מהרגיל?
Incredibly more vivid
אנא השווה את הראייה שלך במהלך החוויה לראייה היומיומית שלך שהייתה לך ישירות לפני הזמן של החוויה
I don't remember any change in my vision.
אנא השווה את השמיעה שלך במהלך החוויה לשמיעה היומיומית שלך שהייתה לך ישירות לפני הזמן של החוויה
I don't know.
האם נדמה היה לך שאתה מודע לדברים שמתרחשים במקומות אחרים?
No
האם עברת דרך מנהרה או מנהרה?
No
האם ראית ישויות כלשהן בחוויה שלך?
No
האם פגשת או היית מודע ליצורים שנפטרו (או חיים)?
No
האם ראית או הרגשת מוקף באור מבהיק?
No
האם ראית אור בלתי רגיל?
No
האם נדמה לך שנכנסת לעולם אחר, לא ארצי?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
אילו רגשות נוספים חווית במהלך החוויה?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
האם היה לך תחושת שלווה או נעימות?
No
האם היה לך תחושת שמחה?
No
האם הרגשת תחושת הרמוניה או אחדות עם היקום?
No
האם נראה פתאום שהבנת הכל?
No
האם סצנות מהעבר שלך חזרו אליך?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
האם הגיעו אליך סצנות מהעתיד?
No
האם הגעת לגבול או לנקודת אל חזור?
No
אלוהים, רוחניות ודת
מה הייתה דתך לפני החוויה שלך?
Christian- Catholic
האם פרקטיקות הדת שלך השתנו מאז החוויה שלך?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
מה היא דתך עכשיו?
Buddhist
האם החוויה שלך כללה תכנים התואמים לאמונותיך הארציות?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
האם היה לך שינוי בערכים ובאמונות שלך בעקבות החוויה שלך?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
האם נדמה לך שנפגשת עם ישות מיסטית או נוכחות מיסטית, או שמעת קול לא ניתן לזיהוי?
No
האם ראית רוחות של נפטרים או רוחניות?
No
האם פגשת או נודע לך על ישויות שחיו בעבר על פני האדמה שמתוארים לפי שם בדתות (לדוגמה: ישו, מוחמד, בודהה ועוד)?
No
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על קיומו של אלוהים?
No
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על חיבור אוניברסלי או אחדות?
No
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על קיומו של אלוהים?
No
בנוגע לחיים הארציים שלנו מעבר לדת
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת ידע מיוחד או מידע על מטרתך?
No
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם השגת מידע על משמעות החיים?
No
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם רכשת מידע על חיים אחרי המוות?
No
האם רכשת מידע על איך לחיות את חיינו?
No
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם רכשת מידע על הקשיים, אתגרים וקשיים של החיים?
No
במהלך החוויה שלך, האם רכשת מידע על אהבה?
No
אילו שינויים בחיים התרחשו בחייך לאחר החוויה שלך?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
אחרי ה-NDE
האם היה קשה להביע את החווייה במילים?
No
כמה במדויק אתה זוכר את החוויה בהשוואה לאירועים אחרים בחיים שהתרחשו בסביבות זמן החוויה?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
האם יש לכם כישורים נפשיים, לא רגילים או אחרים לאחר חווייתכם שלא היו לכם לפני החוויה?
No
האם ישנם חלק אחד או מספר חלקים בחווייתכם שהם בעלי משמעות או חשובים במיוחד עבורכם? אנא הסבירו.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
האם אי פעם שיתפתם את החוויה הזו עם אחרים?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
האם הייתה לכם ידע כלשהו על חוויית כמעט מוות לפני חווייתכם?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
מה האמנת על מציאות החוויה שלך זמן קצר (ימים עד שבועות) לאחר שהתרחשה?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
מה אתה מאמין על מציאות החוויה שלך עכשיו?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
בכל זמן בחייך, האם משהו אי פעם שיחזר חלק כלשהו מהחוויה?
No
האם יש משהו נוסף שתרצה להוסיף לגבי החוויה שלך?
No