Opis iskustva
I was aware that I was coming round from the operation. I began to hear the voices of the surgeon and staff first, and heard them say, 'Breathe Paul! Breathe!' I heard them saying that they would apply air via a tube but I was completely unable and unwilling to even try to breathe. My body was a dead weight, which seemed to have nothing to do with 'me'. What happened next seemed to me to last about an hour, although it was only seconds.
I felt that my mind was about four feet to the right of my head. I knew that I was still in the operating theatre, but I was no longer part of it. Suddenly, I felt as if someone was pushing me gently from behind. 'It's your turn,' said a voice and I was very surprised, as I'd had the impression that I was at the end of a long, long line of people (who I couldn't see but only sensed). The feeling was just like being sent to the front of the queue at a supermarket check in, I remember - pleasant surprise.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
Osnovne informacije
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/10/02
NDE Elementi
Je li u vrijeme vašeg iskustva postojao povezani događaj opasan po život?
Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death My throat closed up and I couldn't breathe.
Kako smatrate sadržaj svog iskustva?
Mixed
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Out of body experience
Jeste li se osjećali odvojeno od svog tijela?
Yes I was aware of my body lying there but didn't see it as I was looking elsewhere.
U koje ste vrijeme tijekom iskustva bili na najvišoj razini svijesti i budnosti?
Explained above.
Je li se činilo da se vrijeme ubrzava ili usporava?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything was different, but the same. The 'here' and 'now' are one place. The same with time. It's all the same. There's no linear time. No space as we know it.
Je li se vaš sluh razlikovao od uobičajenog?
The voices of the staff faded away, but there was no sound. I seemed to 'mind read' the words I heard and spoke.
Jeste li prošli u ili kroz tunel?
No
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Presence of deceased persons
Jeste li susreli ili postali svjesni bilo kakvih preminulih (ili živih) bića?
Yes Someone was behind me, guiding me, but I never saw them. They were neither male or female, it was just 'someone'. I cannot describe the voice, as it was not audible. I 'mind read' their words.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Darkness
Jeste li vidjeli nezemaljsku svjetlost?
No The opposite. I saw a blackness, but it was welcoming and not frightening. The way you like the dark if you have a migraine.
Činilo se da ste ušli u neki drugi, nezemaljski svijet?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Described above.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Strong emotional tone
Koje ste još emocije osjećali tijekom iskustva?
Surprise then utter bliss. Complete indifference to what was happening to my body. Confusion and disappointment at coming back.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Special Knowledge
Jeste li odjednom shvatili sve?
Everything about the universe There's a time for everything. A role for everyone. A reason for everything. The purpose of life is not just our own happiness.
Jesu li vam se vratile scene iz prošlosti?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I felt no power. Others had the power; I felt as if I was 'following orders' and was very happy to do so.
Jesu li vam se prikazale scene iz budućnosti?
No
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Boundary
Jeste li došli do granice ili ograničavajuće fizičke strukture?
Uncertain Big open doorway, comforting soothing blackness beyond. No fear. I was going towards it, but came back.
Jeste li došli do granice ili točke bez povratka?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I didn't want to return to my body, but was forced.
Bog, duhovnost i religija
Koja je bila vaša religija prije vašeg iskustva?
Liberal
Koja je vaša religija sada?
Liberal
Jeste li imali promjenu u svojim vrijednostima i uvjerenjima zbog vašeg iskustva?
No
Nakon NDE-a
Je li iskustvo bilo teško izraziti riječima?
Yes The sudden change of feelings and the sense that time was dislocated. I was not dead but I was out of my body.
Imate li psihičke, neobične ili druge posebne darove nakon vašeg iskustva koje niste imali prije iskustva?
No
Postoje li jedan ili nekoliko dijelova vašeg iskustva koji su vam posebno smisleni ili značajni? Molimo objasnite.
Best - bliss of being out of the body. Worst - being dragged back.
Jeste li ikada podijelili ovo iskustvo s drugima?
Yes The doctors said it's just a symptom of the anesthesia. Some friends were obviously nervous about it, didn't like to talk about death etc.! My daughter was scared too. No one seems to feel like I do about it all.
Je li u bilo kojem trenutku vašeg života išta reproduciralo bilo koji dio iskustva?
No Not since but BEFORE, when I was seven. During a tonsils operation, I could see the doctors and nurses working on my body as I hovered near the ceiling. I recalled that they wore green clothes (which they only wore in the theatre and which of course I'd never seen before).
Postoje li još neka pitanja koja bismo mogli postaviti kako bismo vam pomogli da opišete svoje iskustvo?
If the person had had any similar experiences BEFORE the one they're relating.