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This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
Osnovne informacije
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
03/29/2001 4:20 pm Pacific time
NDE Elementi
Je li u vrijeme vašeg iskustva postojao povezani događaj opasan po život?
No. Other: Healthy, Stayed conscious.
Kako smatrate sadržaj svog iskustva?
Entirely pleasant
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Out of body experience
Jeste li se osjećali odvojeno od svog tijela?
Yes My physical body stayed conscious while operating my vehicle. I have subsequently had veridical OBEs.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Kako se vaša najviša razina svijesti i budnosti tijekom iskustva uspoređuje s vašom uobičajenom svakodnevnom sviješću i budnošću?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
U koje ste vrijeme tijekom iskustva bili na najvišoj razini svijesti i budnosti?
When I was the vast void, let’s say: normal is 11 or so lines of coded information. The vast void had a millions lines of coded information.
Jesu li vam se misli ubrzale?
Incredibly fast
Je li se činilo da se vrijeme ubrzava ili usporava?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Slowed, stopped and went outside of time.
Jesu li vam osjetila bila življa nego obično?
Incredibly more vivid
Molimo vas da usporedite svoj vid tijekom iskustva sa svojim svakodnevnim vidom neposredno prije samog iskustva
I could see 720 degrees and through time and space. I was outside of time and space. Layers and layers of visual information like Photoshop by seeing the image the information of all the layers is self-evident. Also, emotional and other types of information were available.
Molimo vas da usporedite svoj sluh tijekom iskustva sa svojim svakodnevnim sluhom neposredno prije samog iskustva
The sound also contained layers of additional information and emotion and intensity: it still does.
Jeste li bili svjesni stvari koje se događaju drugdje?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Tunnel
Jeste li prošli u ili kroz tunel?
Uncertain I saw a beam of white. It came out of the sky and touched me on the shoulder. I felt the tangible touch. I became one with the beam. This beam transitioned me from my body. This was an experience that seems to be functionally equivalent to ‘the tunnel’.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Presence of deceased persons
Jeste li vidjeli bilo kakva bića u svom iskustvu?
I sensed their presence
Jeste li susreli ili postali svjesni bilo kakvih preminulih (ili živih) bića?
No Not in this particular experience, but in many others.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Void
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Darkness
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Unearthly light
Jeste li vidjeli ili se osjećali okruženi briljantnom svjetlošću?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Jeste li vidjeli nezemaljsku svjetlost?
Yes The Beam was diffused at the top and sharp on the edges and came to a point at my shoulder. Then my body glowed in a bluish white from inside. The field of particles was also sort of light.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
A landscape or city
Činilo se da ste ušli u neki drugi, nezemaljski svijet?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The field of particles and the vast void.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Hellish imagery
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Strong emotional tone
Koje ste još emocije osjećali tijekom iskustva?
Immense Love
Jeste li osjećali mir ili ugodu?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Jeste li osjećali radost?
incredible joy
Jeste li osjetili osjećaj sklada ili jedinstva sa svemirom?
I felt united or one with the world
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Special knowledge or purpose
Jeste li odjednom shvatili sve?
Everything about the universe
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Life review
Jesu li vam se vratile scene iz prošlosti?
I remembered many past events
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Awareness of the future
Jesu li vam se prikazale scene iz budućnosti?
Scenes from the world's future Why is this an either or question? I received much information about the future.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Boundary
Jeste li došli do granice ili ograničavajuće fizičke strukture?
Yes There was an event horizon between the fields of particle, and then I went beyond to the vast void.
Jeste li došli do granice ili točke bez povratka?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will This is a little vague but I did feel like the topic came up and was decided.
Bog, duhovnost i religija
Koju ste važnost pridavali svom religijskom/duhovnom životu prije svog iskustva?
Not important to me
Koja je bila vaša religija prije vašeg iskustva?
Unaffiliated- Atheist Formerly Catholic but never really believed it during the time I was going through a period of atheism then agnosticism and I was conducting an experiment to experience God.
Jesu li se vaše vjerske prakse promijenile od vašeg iskustva?
Yes From doubt to certainty.
Koju važnost pridajete svom religijskom/duhovnom životu nakon svog iskustva?
Greatly important to me
Koja je vaša religija sada?
Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated My knowledge now is beyond all religious limitations. I understand the value of them for others.
Je li vaše iskustvo uključivalo značajke u skladu s vašim zemaljskim uvjerenjima?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience The name "God of Abraham" is obviously from my culture and the beam does show up in the bible several places, but the whole experience is so far beyond anything that is taught in Catholicism it is inconsistent.
Jeste li imali promjenu u svojim vrijednostima i uvjerenjima zbog vašeg iskustva?
Yes God does exist and loves me. My actions matter. I am more aware of my actions and feelings.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Presence of unearthly beings
Jeste li se činili da ste susreli mistično biće ili prisutnost, ili čuli neidentificirani glas?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard several voices from different locations around me and within me. One said ‘everything will be alright.’ One responding to my unasked question ‘who are you?’ The response: ‘God of Abraham.’
Jeste li vidjeli preminule ili religiozne duhove?
I sensed their presence
Jeste li susreli ili postali svjesni bilo kakvih bića koja su prethodno živjela na zemlji, a koja su opisana imenom u religijama (na primjer: Isus, Muhamed, Buda, itd.)?
No Not in this particular experience but in many other expereinces.
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o postojanju Boga?
Yes I, as God am uncreated, eternal, have been before this and will remain after.
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o univerzalnoj povezanosti ili jedinstvu?
Yes We are one!
Jeste li vjerovali u postojanje Boga prije svog iskustva?
God probably does not exist
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o postojanju Boga?
Yes God Exists. We are in fact God but we chose to forget ourselves.
Vjerujete li u postojanje Boga nakon svog iskustva?
God definitely exists
Što se tiče naših zemaljskih života osim religije
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli posebno znanje ili informacije o svojoj svrsi?
Yes Omniscient!
Jeste li vjerovali da su naši zemaljski životi smisleni i značajni prije vašeg iskustva?
Are meaningful and significant
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o smislu života?
Yes We exist to experience. All of creation exists to experience.
Jeste li vjerovali u zagrobni život prije svog iskustva?
An afterlife probably does not exist
Vjerujete li u zagrobni život nakon svog iskustva?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes We are so much more that this fluff of biomatter.
Jeste li se bojali smrti prije svog iskustva?
I greatly feared death
Bojite li se smrti nakon svog iskustva?
I do not fear death
Jeste li se bojali živjeti svoj život prije svog iskustva?
Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Jeste li se bojali živjeti svoj život nakon svog iskustva?
Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Jeste li vjerovali da su naši zemaljski životi smisleni i značajni prije vašeg iskustva?
Are meaningful and significant
Jeste li vjerovali da su naši zemaljski životi smisleni i značajni nakon vašeg iskustva?
Are meaningful and significant
Jeste li stekli informacije o tome kako živjeti svoje živote?
Yes From the higher perspective it all makes sense, frustrating as it is that we don't remember. It does help to know that.
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o životnim poteškoćama, izazovima i nedaćama?
Yes Suffering is a mechanism for spiritual evolution which is one of the most valuable experiences to have the experience of learning growing and evolving and we remember who we really are and return home.
Jeste li bili suosjećajni prije svog iskustva?
Slightly compassionate toward others
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o ljubavi?
Yes Love is the basis of all creation. Love is God. God is Love.
Jeste li bili suosjećajni nakon svog iskustva?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Koje su se životne promjene dogodile u vašem životu nakon vašeg iskustva?
Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I felt horrible working for corrupt corporations and challenged their behavior. That did not go over very well. I have a difficult time receiving money now. It is a work in progress.
Jesu li se vaši odnosi promijenili konkretno kao rezultat vašeg iskustva?
Uncertain Uncertain I am still a hot mess when it comes to relationships. But I hope there is a much stronger connection with some.
Nakon NDE-a
Je li iskustvo bilo teško izraziti riječima?
Yes There is creation beyond anything in the physical universe.
Koliko se točno sjećate iskustva u usporedbi s drugim životnim događajima koji su se dogodili otprilike u to vrijeme?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It's more clear and more intense as a memory than reality is as reality.
Imate li psihičke, neobične ili druge posebne darove nakon vašeg iskustva koje niste imali prije iskustva?
Yes I can talk to the sun and the sun answers. I can feel solar flares and other fluctuations in the magnetic field. I have prophetic dreams and visions. I’m hugely empathic.
Postoje li jedan ili nekoliko dijelova vašeg iskustva koji su vam posebno smisleni ili značajni? Molimo objasnite.
The field of particles that is the substructure of the universe has not yet been validated by science, but it will. In 2013, UCLA imaged the atoms of platinum and it looks the same as the field I saw. I feel that is because atomic structure is built on the framework of the field.
Jeste li ikada podijelili ovo iskustvo s drugima?
Yes A couple of days after, I told my friend who believed me because she had already had an OBE.
Jeste li imali bilo kakvo znanje o iskustvu bliske smrti (NDE) prije vašeg iskustva?
Yes I had seen this awesome site; and read a few of the stories. I had also seen TV show about it.
Što ste vjerovali o stvarnosti svog iskustva ubrzo (dane do tjedana) nakon što se dogodilo?
Experience was definitely real It was absolutely real but I still wanted to meet someone else who had experienced it.
U što sada vjerujete o stvarnosti svog iskustva?
Experience was definitely real Validation, Validation, Validation. Other people have experienced similar and almost identical experiences.
Je li u bilo kojem trenutku vašeg života išta reproduciralo bilo koji dio iskustva?
Yes I have since had many OBEs: Fully through layers of heaven, hell and the vast void.
Postoji li još nešto što biste željeli dodati o svom iskustvu?
I never was close to death but it is still an NDE because of the spiritual elements. Also it is not enlightenment because I did not have spiritual guides and community. It is not just an OBE from sleeping because I was fully conscious. It does not really fit any category. I also felt most at home with NDE, as opposed to any other group.