Opis iskustva
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Osnovne informacije
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
NDE Elementi
Je li u vrijeme vašeg iskustva postojao povezani događaj opasan po život?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Kako smatrate sadržaj svog iskustva?
Entirely pleasant
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Out of body experience
Jeste li se osjećali odvojeno od svog tijela?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Kako se vaša najviša razina svijesti i budnosti tijekom iskustva uspoređuje s vašom uobičajenom svakodnevnom sviješću i budnošću?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
U koje ste vrijeme tijekom iskustva bili na najvišoj razini svijesti i budnosti?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Jesu li vam se misli ubrzale?
Faster than usual
Je li se činilo da se vrijeme ubrzava ili usporava?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Jesu li vam osjetila bila življa nego obično?
Incredibly more vivid
Molimo vas da usporedite svoj vid tijekom iskustva sa svojim svakodnevnim vidom neposredno prije samog iskustva
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Molimo vas da usporedite svoj sluh tijekom iskustva sa svojim svakodnevnim sluhom neposredno prije samog iskustva
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Jeste li bili svjesni stvari koje se događaju drugdje?
No
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Tunnel
Jeste li prošli u ili kroz tunel?
Yes The hallway
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Presence of deceased persons
Jeste li vidjeli bilo kakva bića u svom iskustvu?
I actually saw them
Jeste li susreli ili postali svjesni bilo kakvih preminulih (ili živih) bića?
Yes No relatives
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Unearthly light
Jeste li vidjeli ili se osjećali okruženi briljantnom svjetlošću?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Jeste li vidjeli nezemaljsku svjetlost?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
A landscape or city
Činilo se da ste ušli u neki drugi, nezemaljski svijet?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Strong emotional tone
Koje ste još emocije osjećali tijekom iskustva?
Elated
Jeste li osjećali mir ili ugodu?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Jeste li osjećali radost?
incredible joy
Jeste li osjetili osjećaj sklada ili jedinstva sa svemirom?
I felt united or one with the world
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Special knowledge or purpose
Jeste li odjednom shvatili sve?
No
Jesu li vam se vratile scene iz prošlosti?
No
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Awareness of the future
Jesu li vam se prikazale scene iz budućnosti?
Scenes from my personal future
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Boundary
Jeste li došli do granice ili ograničavajuće fizičke strukture?
Yes
Jeste li došli do granice ili točke bez povratka?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Bog, duhovnost i religija
Koju ste važnost pridavali svom religijskom/duhovnom životu prije svog iskustva?
Greatly important to me
Koja je bila vaša religija prije vašeg iskustva?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Jesu li se vaše vjerske prakse promijenile od vašeg iskustva?
Yes They are more grounded.
Koju važnost pridajete svom religijskom/duhovnom životu nakon svog iskustva?
Greatly important to me
Koja je vaša religija sada?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Je li vaše iskustvo uključivalo značajke u skladu s vašim zemaljskim uvjerenjima?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Jeste li imali promjenu u svojim vrijednostima i uvjerenjima zbog vašeg iskustva?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Presence of unearthly beings
Jeste li se činili da ste susreli mistično biće ili prisutnost, ili čuli neidentificirani glas?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Jeste li vidjeli preminule ili religiozne duhove?
I actually saw them
Jeste li susreli ili postali svjesni bilo kakvih bića koja su prethodno živjela na zemlji, a koja su opisana imenom u religijama (na primjer: Isus, Muhamed, Buda, itd.)?
No
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o postojanju Boga?
No
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o univerzalnoj povezanosti ili jedinstvu?
Yes
Jeste li vjerovali u postojanje Boga prije svog iskustva?
God definitely exists
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o postojanju Boga?
Yes the love was in everything.
Vjerujete li u postojanje Boga nakon svog iskustva?
God definitely exists
Što se tiče naših zemaljskih života osim religije
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli posebno znanje ili informacije o svojoj svrsi?
Yes
Jeste li vjerovali da su naši zemaljski životi smisleni i značajni prije vašeg iskustva?
Are meaningful and significant
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o smislu života?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Jeste li vjerovali u zagrobni život prije svog iskustva?
An afterlife definitely exists
Vjerujete li u zagrobni život nakon svog iskustva?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Jeste li se bojali smrti prije svog iskustva?
I moderately feared death
Bojite li se smrti nakon svog iskustva?
I do not fear death
Jeste li se bojali živjeti svoj život prije svog iskustva?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Jeste li se bojali živjeti svoj život nakon svog iskustva?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Jeste li vjerovali da su naši zemaljski životi smisleni i značajni prije vašeg iskustva?
Are meaningful and significant
Jeste li vjerovali da su naši zemaljski životi smisleni i značajni nakon vašeg iskustva?
Are meaningful and significant
Jeste li stekli informacije o tome kako živjeti svoje živote?
No
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o životnim poteškoćama, izazovima i nedaćama?
No
Jeste li bili suosjećajni prije svog iskustva?
Moderately compassionate toward others
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o ljubavi?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Jeste li bili suosjećajni nakon svog iskustva?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Koje su se životne promjene dogodile u vašem životu nakon vašeg iskustva?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Jesu li se vaši odnosi promijenili konkretno kao rezultat vašeg iskustva?
No No
Nakon NDE-a
Je li iskustvo bilo teško izraziti riječima?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Koliko se točno sjećate iskustva u usporedbi s drugim životnim događajima koji su se dogodili otprilike u to vrijeme?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Imate li psihičke, neobične ili druge posebne darove nakon vašeg iskustva koje niste imali prije iskustva?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Postoje li jedan ili nekoliko dijelova vašeg iskustva koji su vam posebno smisleni ili značajni? Molimo objasnite.
The love
Jeste li ikada podijelili ovo iskustvo s drugima?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Jeste li imali bilo kakvo znanje o iskustvu bliske smrti (NDE) prije vašeg iskustva?
No
Što ste vjerovali o stvarnosti svog iskustva ubrzo (dane do tjedana) nakon što se dogodilo?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
U što sada vjerujete o stvarnosti svog iskustva?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Je li u bilo kojem trenutku vašeg života išta reproduciralo bilo koji dio iskustva?
No
Postoji li još nešto što biste željeli dodati o svom iskustvu?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.