Opis iskustva
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Osnovne informacije
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
NDE Elementi
Je li u vrijeme vašeg iskustva postojao povezani događaj opasan po život?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Kako smatrate sadržaj svog iskustva?
Entirely distressing
Jeste li se osjećali odvojeno od svog tijela?
No
No
Kako se vaša najviša razina svijesti i budnosti tijekom iskustva uspoređuje s vašom uobičajenom svakodnevnom sviješću i budnošću?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
U koje ste vrijeme tijekom iskustva bili na najvišoj razini svijesti i budnosti?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Jesu li vam se misli ubrzale?
Incredibly fast
Je li se činilo da se vrijeme ubrzava ili usporava?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Jesu li vam osjetila bila življa nego obično?
Incredibly more vivid
Molimo vas da usporedite svoj vid tijekom iskustva sa svojim svakodnevnim vidom neposredno prije samog iskustva
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Molimo vas da usporedite svoj sluh tijekom iskustva sa svojim svakodnevnim sluhom neposredno prije samog iskustva
I don't know.
Jeste li bili svjesni stvari koje se događaju drugdje?
No
Jeste li prošli u ili kroz tunel?
No
Jeste li vidjeli bilo kakva bića u svom iskustvu?
No
Jeste li susreli ili postali svjesni bilo kakvih preminulih (ili živih) bića?
No
Jeste li vidjeli ili se osjećali okruženi briljantnom svjetlošću?
No
Jeste li vidjeli nezemaljsku svjetlost?
No
Činilo se da ste ušli u neki drugi, nezemaljski svijet?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Koje ste još emocije osjećali tijekom iskustva?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Jeste li osjećali mir ili ugodu?
No
Jeste li osjećali radost?
No
Jeste li osjetili osjećaj sklada ili jedinstva sa svemirom?
No
Jeste li odjednom shvatili sve?
No
Jesu li vam se vratile scene iz prošlosti?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Jesu li vam se prikazale scene iz budućnosti?
No
Jeste li došli do granice ili točke bez povratka?
No
Bog, duhovnost i religija
Koja je bila vaša religija prije vašeg iskustva?
Christian- Catholic
Jesu li se vaše vjerske prakse promijenile od vašeg iskustva?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Koja je vaša religija sada?
Buddhist
Je li vaše iskustvo uključivalo značajke u skladu s vašim zemaljskim uvjerenjima?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Jeste li imali promjenu u svojim vrijednostima i uvjerenjima zbog vašeg iskustva?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Jeste li se činili da ste susreli mistično biće ili prisutnost, ili čuli neidentificirani glas?
No
Jeste li vidjeli preminule ili religiozne duhove?
No
Jeste li susreli ili postali svjesni bilo kakvih bića koja su prethodno živjela na zemlji, a koja su opisana imenom u religijama (na primjer: Isus, Muhamed, Buda, itd.)?
No
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o postojanju Boga?
No
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o univerzalnoj povezanosti ili jedinstvu?
No
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o postojanju Boga?
No
Što se tiče naših zemaljskih života osim religije
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli posebno znanje ili informacije o svojoj svrsi?
No
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o smislu života?
No
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o zagrobnom životu?
No
Jeste li stekli informacije o tome kako živjeti svoje živote?
No
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o životnim poteškoćama, izazovima i nedaćama?
No
Jeste li tijekom svog iskustva stekli informacije o ljubavi?
No
Koje su se životne promjene dogodile u vašem životu nakon vašeg iskustva?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Nakon NDE-a
Je li iskustvo bilo teško izraziti riječima?
No
Koliko se točno sjećate iskustva u usporedbi s drugim životnim događajima koji su se dogodili otprilike u to vrijeme?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Imate li psihičke, neobične ili druge posebne darove nakon vašeg iskustva koje niste imali prije iskustva?
No
Postoje li jedan ili nekoliko dijelova vašeg iskustva koji su vam posebno smisleni ili značajni? Molimo objasnite.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Jeste li ikada podijelili ovo iskustvo s drugima?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Jeste li imali bilo kakvo znanje o iskustvu bliske smrti (NDE) prije vašeg iskustva?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Što ste vjerovali o stvarnosti svog iskustva ubrzo (dane do tjedana) nakon što se dogodilo?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
U što sada vjerujete o stvarnosti svog iskustva?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Je li u bilo kojem trenutku vašeg života išta reproduciralo bilo koji dio iskustva?
No
Postoji li još nešto što biste željeli dodati o svom iskustvu?
No