A tapasztalat leírása
I was aware that I was coming round from the operation. I began to hear the voices of the surgeon and staff first, and heard them say, 'Breathe Paul! Breathe!' I heard them saying that they would apply air via a tube but I was completely unable and unwilling to even try to breathe. My body was a dead weight, which seemed to have nothing to do with 'me'. What happened next seemed to me to last about an hour, although it was only seconds.
I felt that my mind was about four feet to the right of my head. I knew that I was still in the operating theatre, but I was no longer part of it. Suddenly, I felt as if someone was pushing me gently from behind. 'It's your turn,' said a voice and I was very surprised, as I'd had the impression that I was at the end of a long, long line of people (who I couldn't see but only sensed). The feeling was just like being sent to the front of the queue at a supermarket check in, I remember - pleasant surprise.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
Háttérinformáció
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/10/02
NDE Elemek
Az élménye idején volt-e hozzá kapcsolódó életveszélyes esemény?
Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death My throat closed up and I couldn't breathe.
Hogyan értékeli az élménye tartalmát?
Mixed
A tapasztalat tartalmazta
Out of body experience
Érezted, hogy elválsz a testedtől?
Yes I was aware of my body lying there but didn't see it as I was looking elsewhere.
Az élmény melyik szakaszában volt a legmagasabb szintű a tudata és az ébersége?
Explained above.
Úgy tűnt, hogy az idő felgyorsult vagy lelassult?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything was different, but the same. The 'here' and 'now' are one place. The same with time. It's all the same. There's no linear time. No space as we know it.
Hallása bármiben eltért a normálistól?
The voices of the staff faded away, but there was no sound. I seemed to 'mind read' the words I heard and spoke.
Áthaladtál egy alagúton?
No
A tapasztalat tartalmazta
Presence of deceased persons
Találkoztál vagy tudomást szereztél elhunyt (vagy élő) lényekről?
Yes Someone was behind me, guiding me, but I never saw them. They were neither male or female, it was just 'someone'. I cannot describe the voice, as it was not audible. I 'mind read' their words.
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Darkness
Láttál természetfeletti fényt?
No The opposite. I saw a blackness, but it was welcoming and not frightening. The way you like the dark if you have a migraine.
Úgy tűnt, beléptél egy másik, földöntúli világba?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Described above.
A tapasztalat tartalmazta
Strong emotional tone
Milyen más érzelmeket éreztél az élmény során?
Surprise then utter bliss. Complete indifference to what was happening to my body. Confusion and disappointment at coming back.
A tapasztalat tartalmazta
Special Knowledge
Hirtelen úgy tűnt, mindent értesz?
Everything about the universe There's a time for everything. A role for everyone. A reason for everything. The purpose of life is not just our own happiness.
Visszatértek emlékképek a múltadból?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I felt no power. Others had the power; I felt as if I was 'following orders' and was very happy to do so.
Láttál jeleneteket a jövőből?
No
A tapasztalat tartalmazta
Boundary
Elértél egy határt vagy korlátozó fizikai struktúrát?
Uncertain Big open doorway, comforting soothing blackness beyond. No fear. I was going towards it, but came back.
Elértél egy határt vagy egy olyan pontot, ahonnan nincs visszatérés?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I didn't want to return to my body, but was forced.
Isten, spiritualitás és vallás
Mi volt a vallása a tapasztalata előtt?
Liberal
Mi a vallása most?
Liberal
Megváltoztak az értékei és a hite a tapasztalata miatt?
No
Az NDE után
Nehéz volt szavakba önteni az élményt?
Yes The sudden change of feelings and the sense that time was dislocated. I was not dead but I was out of my body.
Vannak-e pszichikai, nem hétköznapi vagy más különleges képességeid az élményed után, amelyekkel korábban nem rendelkeztél?
No
Van-e egy vagy több olyan része az élményének, amely különösen értelmes vagy jelentős az Ön számára? Kérjük, fejtse ki.
Best - bliss of being out of the body. Worst - being dragged back.
Megosztotta már valaha ezt az élményt másokkal?
Yes The doctors said it's just a symptom of the anesthesia. Some friends were obviously nervous about it, didn't like to talk about death etc.! My daughter was scared too. No one seems to feel like I do about it all.
Életed során bármikor előfordult, hogy valami reprodukálta a tapasztalat egy részét?
No Not since but BEFORE, when I was seven. During a tonsils operation, I could see the doctors and nurses working on my body as I hovered near the ceiling. I recalled that they wore green clothes (which they only wore in the theatre and which of course I'd never seen before).
Vannak-e más kérdések, amelyeket feltehetnénk, hogy segítsünk a tapasztalatának kommunikálásában?
If the person had had any similar experiences BEFORE the one they're relating.