A tapasztalat leírása
1995 - In the intensive care unit, curtain surrounding the bathroom area, light began emitting from behind the curtain (sort of 'Wizard of Oz'-like - no noise, just light and vibration). Knew a presence wished to come into room. Knew by the indescribable quality and feeling of light it was God, as I know him. I asked him 'not now', please my children (I am single parent of two, one disabled through leukemia at four, no family but me. I asked for more time, responsibility of visit too frightening. He/she/it immediately acquiesced. I always regretted it.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
Háttérinformáció
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
(2) in 2000
NDE Elemek
Az élménye idején volt-e hozzá kapcsolódó életveszélyes esemény?
Yes Heart attack Open heart surgery, 3 open hearts in three days in April and In November Complete cardiac and respiratory arrest due to CHF Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Had heart attack in 1995. Had experience in the intensive care unit but willed it away, too scary, always regretted it but had children who needed me. In 2005 had multiple bypass, which did not go well, three open heart surgeries in three days due to hemorrhaging. On respirator for forty-five days. Many journeys and experiences throughout that period in April/May. In November had complete respiratory and cardiac arrest. Another experience.
Hogyan értékeli az élménye tartalmát?
Mixed
Érezted, hogy elválsz a testedtől?
Yes
I lost awareness of my body
Hogyan viszonyult az élmény során tapasztalt legmagasabb szintű tudat és éberség a normál, mindennapi tudatához és éberségéhez?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was much more real. I know that doesn't make much sense.
Az élmény melyik szakaszában volt a legmagasabb szintű a tudata és az ébersége?
In presence of the main God, light, vibration. But most of all in tunnel when choice had to be made. I was tired.
Felgyorsultak a gondolataid?
Neither
Úgy tűnt, hogy az idő felgyorsult vagy lelassult?
Neither I have what I call 'Swiss cheese for brains'. Some things are missing or dropped.
Érzékeid élénkebbek voltak, mint általában?
Neither
Kérjük, hasonlítsa össze a látását az élmény során a mindennapi látásával, amely közvetlenül az élmény előtt volt.
Colors perfect, things and places seen without flaw, almost undisturbed. Every petal of every flower perfect. No decay of any kind. Transparency somehow changed and music without time. Couldn't explain that one in a million years wouldn't know where to begin.
Kérjük, hasonlítsa össze a hallását az élmény során a mindennapi hallásával, amely közvetlenül az élmény előtt volt.
It was hearing but not auditory exactly all the time.
Úgy tűnt, hogy tudatában van a máshol zajló dolgoknak?
Neither
Áthaladtál egy alagúton?
Yes Already described.
Látott valamilyen lényt az élménye során?
Saw them
Találkoztál vagy tudomást szereztél elhunyt (vagy élő) lényekről?
Yes Already described.
Láttál, vagy körülvéve érezted magad ragyogó fénnyel?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Láttál természetfeletti fényt?
Yes Already described.
Úgy tűnt, beléptél egy másik, földöntúli világba?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm already described some. many more, lots of travel and sights
Milyen más érzelmeket éreztél az élmény során?
Wonder, joy, fear, trust, grateful, small, big, powerful, powerless, amazed, graced, light, open, peaceful, inquisitive and loved and loving. Perfectly in tune.
Éreztél békét vagy kellemességet?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Éreztél örömöt?
Incredible joy
Éreztél harmóniát vagy egységet a világegyetemmel?
United, one with the world
Hirtelen úgy tűnt, mindent értesz?
Everything about the universe
Visszatértek emlékképek a múltadból?
Remembered many past events Life review takes place through the feelings and emotions of others in any given moment in time. We experience and feel whatever we created in that moment for them. I am much more sensitive.
Láttál jeleneteket a jövőből?
From the world's future
Very private.
Elértél egy határt vagy egy olyan pontot, ahonnan nincs visszatérés?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
Isten, spiritualitás és vallás
Mi volt a vallása a tapasztalata előtt?
Moderate Raised catholic, believe in collective unconscious, a higher power have had unusual, unexplainable experiences throughout life making conservative organized religious experience not acceptable.
Megváltoztak a vallási gyakorlatai a tapasztalata óta?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Mi a vallása most?
Liberal Have conscious contact w/ higher power daily, pray and meditate daily, use Native American Medicine Wheel for healing/teaching. Use ancient esoteric teachings from stones crystals given by Native American grandma turned good catholic when she was a young
Megváltoztak az értékei és a hite a tapasztalata miatt?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Úgy tűnt, találkoztál egy misztikus lénnyel vagy jelenléttel, vagy hallottál egy azonosíthatatlan hangot?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Látott elhunyt vagy vallási szellemeket?
Saw them
A valláson kívül a földi életeinkkel kapcsolatban
Tapasztalata során különleges tudást vagy információt szerzett a céljáról?
Yes Very private.
Változtak-e a kapcsolataid kifejezetten a tapasztalatod eredményeként?
Yes I am much more willing just to be me without pretense, walls or protections that we humans erect to protect ourselves from REALLY being seen.
Az NDE után
Nehéz volt szavakba önteni az élményt?
Yes We don't have words in our vocabulary that express the 'energetic colors of vibration' emitted by 'higher being'. The emotional quality of 'feeling state' beyond measure or words. Information received so simple, yet so complicated it would take hours to verbalize. Recognition of persons in tunnel already 'passed over' (I think) so familiar, yet didn't recognize a one. Saw my grandma no words. Couldn't see 'God', but saw energy emitting and felt enormous vibration and felt emotional presence and vibration throughout life review.
Vannak-e pszichikai, nem hétköznapi vagy más különleges képességeid az élményed után, amelyekkel korábban nem rendelkeztél?
Yes Personal.
Van-e egy vagy több olyan része az élményének, amely különösen értelmes vagy jelentős az Ön számára? Kérjük, fejtse ki.
Oh my God, are you kidding? Too personal for a computer screen.
Megosztotta már valaha ezt az élményt másokkal?
Yes Immediately. Sure, reactions were mixed. I hope they were influenced.
Volt-e bármilyen ismereted a halálközeli élményről (NDE) a tapasztalatod előtt?
Uncertain After my mother died I had and my son had a 'dreamlike' waking encounter.
Mit gondolt a tapasztalat valóságáról röviddel (napoktól hetekig) a történése után?
Experience was definitely real It was more real that what's here in my consciousness on a daily basis and I stay as connected as possible daily.
Mit gondol most a tapasztalatának valóságáról?
Experience was definitely real It affects me in every moment.
Életed során bármikor előfordult, hogy valami reprodukálta a tapasztalat egy részét?
No