A tapasztalat leírása
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Háttérinformáció
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
NDE Elemek
Az élménye idején volt-e hozzá kapcsolódó életveszélyes esemény?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Hogyan értékeli az élménye tartalmát?
Entirely pleasant
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Out of body experience
Érezted, hogy elválsz a testedtől?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hogyan viszonyult az élmény során tapasztalt legmagasabb szintű tudat és éberség a normál, mindennapi tudatához és éberségéhez?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Az élmény melyik szakaszában volt a legmagasabb szintű a tudata és az ébersége?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Felgyorsultak a gondolataid?
Faster than usual
Úgy tűnt, hogy az idő felgyorsult vagy lelassult?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Érzékeid élénkebbek voltak, mint általában?
Incredibly more vivid
Kérjük, hasonlítsa össze a látását az élmény során a mindennapi látásával, amely közvetlenül az élmény előtt volt.
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Kérjük, hasonlítsa össze a hallását az élmény során a mindennapi hallásával, amely közvetlenül az élmény előtt volt.
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Úgy tűnt, hogy tudatában van a máshol zajló dolgoknak?
No
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Tunnel
Áthaladtál egy alagúton?
Yes The hallway
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Presence of deceased persons
Látott valamilyen lényt az élménye során?
I actually saw them
Találkoztál vagy tudomást szereztél elhunyt (vagy élő) lényekről?
Yes No relatives
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Unearthly light
Láttál, vagy körülvéve érezted magad ragyogó fénnyel?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Láttál természetfeletti fényt?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
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A landscape or city
Úgy tűnt, beléptél egy másik, földöntúli világba?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
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Strong emotional tone
Milyen más érzelmeket éreztél az élmény során?
Elated
Éreztél békét vagy kellemességet?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Éreztél örömöt?
incredible joy
Éreztél harmóniát vagy egységet a világegyetemmel?
I felt united or one with the world
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Special knowledge or purpose
Hirtelen úgy tűnt, mindent értesz?
No
Visszatértek emlékképek a múltadból?
No
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Awareness of the future
Láttál jeleneteket a jövőből?
Scenes from my personal future
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Boundary
Elértél egy határt vagy korlátozó fizikai struktúrát?
Yes
Elértél egy határt vagy egy olyan pontot, ahonnan nincs visszatérés?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Isten, spiritualitás és vallás
Milyen jelentőséget tulajdonított vallási/spirituális életének a tapasztalata előtt?
Greatly important to me
Mi volt a vallása a tapasztalata előtt?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Megváltoztak a vallási gyakorlatai a tapasztalata óta?
Yes They are more grounded.
Milyen jelentőséget tulajdonít vallási/spirituális életének a tapasztalata után?
Greatly important to me
Mi a vallása most?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
A tapasztalata tartalmazott a földi hitével összhangban lévő elemeket?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Megváltoztak az értékei és a hite a tapasztalata miatt?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
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Presence of unearthly beings
Úgy tűnt, találkoztál egy misztikus lénnyel vagy jelenléttel, vagy hallottál egy azonosíthatatlan hangot?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Látott elhunyt vagy vallási szellemeket?
I actually saw them
Találkoztál vagy tudomást szereztél olyan lényekről, akik korábban a Földön éltek, és akiket a vallások név szerint említenek (például: Jézus, Mohamed, Buddha, stb.)?
No
Tapasztalata során információt szerzett Isten létezéséről?
No
Tapasztalata során információt szerzett az egyetemes kapcsolatról vagy az egységről?
Yes
Hitt Isten létezésében a tapasztalata előtt?
God definitely exists
Tapasztalata során információt szerzett Isten létezéséről?
Yes the love was in everything.
Hisz Isten létezésében a tapasztalata után?
God definitely exists
A valláson kívül a földi életeinkkel kapcsolatban
Tapasztalata során különleges tudást vagy információt szerzett a céljáról?
Yes
Hitt abban, hogy földi életünk értelmes és jelentős a tapasztalata előtt?
Are meaningful and significant
Tapasztalata során információt szerzett az élet értelméről?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Hitt a túlvilágban a tapasztalata előtt?
An afterlife definitely exists
Hisz a túlvilágban a tapasztalata után?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Félt a haláltól a tapasztalata előtt?
I moderately feared death
Fél a haláltól a tapasztalata után?
I do not fear death
Félt az életét élni a tapasztalata előtt?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Félt az életét élni a tapasztalata után?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Hitt abban, hogy földi életünk értelmes és jelentős a tapasztalata előtt?
Are meaningful and significant
Hitt abban, hogy földi életünk értelmes és jelentős a tapasztalata után?
Are meaningful and significant
Szerzett információt arról, hogyan éljük az életünket?
No
Tapasztalata során információt szerzett az élet nehézségeiről, kihívásairól és megpróbáltatásairól?
No
Volt könyörületes a tapasztalata előtt?
Moderately compassionate toward others
Tapasztalata során információt szerzett a szeretetről?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Volt könyörületes a tapasztalata után?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Milyen életbeli változások történtek az életében a tapasztalata után?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Változtak-e a kapcsolataid kifejezetten a tapasztalatod eredményeként?
No No
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Nehéz volt szavakba önteni az élményt?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Mennyire pontosan emlékszik a tapasztalatra a tapasztalat környékén történt más életeseményekhez képest?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Vannak-e pszichikai, nem hétköznapi vagy más különleges képességeid az élményed után, amelyekkel korábban nem rendelkeztél?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Van-e egy vagy több olyan része az élményének, amely különösen értelmes vagy jelentős az Ön számára? Kérjük, fejtse ki.
The love
Megosztotta már valaha ezt az élményt másokkal?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Volt-e bármilyen ismereted a halálközeli élményről (NDE) a tapasztalatod előtt?
No
Mit gondolt a tapasztalat valóságáról röviddel (napoktól hetekig) a történése után?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Mit gondol most a tapasztalatának valóságáról?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Életed során bármikor előfordult, hogy valami reprodukálta a tapasztalat egy részét?
No
Van-e még valami, amit hozzá szeretnél fűzni a tapasztalatodhoz?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.