Christina C
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Patirties aprašymas
I was listening to an account of a near-death experience when this happened. The woman was describing merging with what I've come to call Source. I can’t recall the exact term she used, but I think it was God. It doesn’t matter. The terminology is unimportant. What matters is that, while listening to her, I "remembered" having the same experience. I put that in quotes because there was no time there. It is like floating in timelessness. Even the word floating might be wrong. You are simply there. You just exist. I realize that sounds a bit crazy, but it is as accurate as I can be with human words.
Anyway, I was out on my back porch, with my iPad propped on the table, listening to this woman give an account of her NDE. When she described merging with the light, something happened, and I remembered doing exactly what she was describing. I think her description was so close to my own experience that it triggered my memory. I say "something happened" because I don’t believe I was entirely present in my body at the time. I’m not sure what exactly occurred. It wasn’t normal, though. Something unusual happened, even if I can’t fully explain it.
During this, I saw a white light so bright it should have been blinding, but it wasn’t. It was not a steady light like a lightbulb. It was living. It was not alive in the way we normally think of life, but somehow more alive than that.
I knew without any question that it was Source. I knew it was home. It felt like love. In fact, it was pure love that went beyond human words. It was more love than a single human could possibly contain. It was also a very peaceful and comforting love. That was home. That was Source in the most literal sense, and I simply knew it. At least, I did then. I understood exactly what it was, even though it is hard to explain. The best answer is that it was everything. The Christian phrase "I am" actually captures it very well. I have no words to fully explain it. But it is everything, and it is all of us, too. We are also it.
I know this may sound insane, but the truth is that I know this now. It is not belief or faith. I simply know there is a source, or God, or creator, and I have most definitely merged with it. Or perhaps I will merge with it in the future, since there is no time. Interestingly, this knowledge comes with absolutely no arrogance. It simply exists. I am not special because I know this. For a while, I thought it was a gift. In a way, I suppose it was. I demanded the truth from God, the universe, or whatever was out there. That demand led me on a journey, and I was given this experience only when I was ready to receive and understand it.
Another profound understanding that came with this was that there is no death. We simply transition out of our human bodies. This has completely changed how I see nearly everything.
As for the experience itself, I have no idea how long it lasted. When I write, I often go into a deep flow state and lose track of time. It is not like passing out. It is more like a meditative state. For example, once my husband washed the dog and came back, and I thought he had been gone for only a minute or two. It hadn’t even felt that long. But he told me he had actually been gone for 20 to 25 minutes. So this experience could have lasted a split second or maybe even several minutes. I truly don’t know.
Now I simply know there is a God, or Source, or creator. It is love. There is no death. There is also no time where we go after this life. I also know Source is genderless, and we are formless there. We are like energy, or simply awareness or consciousness without a human body.
So why am I writing this about a year after it happened? Today, I received a download from Source, and I need to share it with someone smart. Ideally, I hope to reach someone on the cutting edge of the coming science revolution, the one that will recognize consciousness as fundamental. Maybe it will be multiple smart people across different fields, like physicist Thomas Campbell, cognitive scientist Donald Hoffman, and physicist Federico Faggin. You get the idea.
Now to the actual download. It has to do with the whole system. It is iterative. We do this over and over again. I am not talking about past lives. We started with two. Once those two broke the code and understood that love is the answer to everything, we restarted and added more. Then four had to learn that love was the answer. We restarted again and added more. I believe we doubled the number each time, at least in the beginning. Now I’m not sure how it progresses. I don’t know what we will do next time. But for now, I think this run includes 10 billion. Each time it moves faster. We get better at it every round. It is like playing a video game. This is part of why we are starting to wake up. I mean the collective consciousness. We are in the early stages of that awakening, like the bottom of a hockey stick graph. Eventually, it will take off and become exponential, and I hope I am here to see it.
That is what it is. It is like an iterative game we play. Earth is both our sandbox and our school. We get to experience wonderful things here that we cannot at home, like the taste of food, the feeling of sex, or the joy of triumph. Meanwhile, we learn. We have to start with our memories wiped, because knowing everything in advance would undermine the whole point. But once we start waking up, we can begin passing that knowledge on to others. That is allowed in this game. Eventually, those of us who have these awakenings will share what we have come to know. More people will believe. More will meditate and try, and the vibration of the collective consciousness will rise. More people will have these experiences, and it will spread. There will be an explosion of people waking up, and it will ripple around the globe.
It is so exciting that I feel giddy. I apologize if I sound over the top, but I have been thinking about filling out this form, and then I received this download. I ran to find this site the moment I walked in the door. Much of what I wrote above just flowed out. I will need to read it again to see exactly what I wrote.
Fono informacija
Lytis
Female
NDE įvyko data
1/1/2024
Artimo mirties patirties elementai
Jūsų patirties metu ar buvo susijęs gyvybei pavojingas įvykis?
No, I believe the official term for what I'm reporting is a spontaneous spiritual awakening., Other (briefly specify), Perfectly healthy. Not under the influence of any psychedelic or anything that would typically trigger such an experience.
Kaip vertinate savo patirties turinį?
Entirely pleasant
Ar jautėtės atskirtas nuo savo kūno?
I lost awareness of my body
Kaip jūsų aukščiausias sąmoningumo ir budrumo lygis patirties metu palyginamas su jūsų įprastu kasdieniu sąmoningumu ir budrumu?
More consciousness and alertness than normal, I'm having trouble answering these questions because I view consciousness a bit differently now. I'm selecting more consciousness because we're more when we connect with our higher self or Source. But I was less conscious in the way we think of it in human terms.
Kuriuo metu patirties metu buvote pasiekęs aukščiausią sąmoningumo ir budrumo lygį?
I described two experiences in the form. During the awakening, I was listening to a woman describe her NDE, then I went to a place where Source exists. It felt like remembering a timeless state. Probably at a different state of consciousness, though I'm unsure. During the second experience, while driving to my tanning salon, I didn't feel like myself. It was like driving by rote, vaguely aware of the act. Everything looked dull, almost dreamlike. I had trouble discerning reality from dream. Then the download came.
Ar jūsų mintys buvo pagreitintos?
Incredibly fast
Ar atrodė, kad laikas greitėja ar lėtėja?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning, No time there. For some info about my answer in the next question: I didn't get a sense of connectivity the first time. I got the love from Source and the knowing that we're all connected. Today's experience showed me how the connectivity works. We have to come together and learn how to love and cooperate. Love is the answer to everything, and we will get there.
Ar jūsų pojūčiai buvo ryškesni nei įprasta?
No
Palyginkite savo regėjimą patirties metu su kasdieniu regėjimu, kurį turėjote iš karto prieš patirtį
During experience one, all I could see was the light. During the second experience today, everything was muted. Our reality looked like a dream.
Palyginkite savo klausą patirties metu su kasdieniu garsu, kurį turėjote iš karto prieš patirtį
No discernible alterations to my hearing.
Ar jums atrodė, kad suvokiate dalykus, vykstančius kitur?
No
Ar jūs praėjote į tunelį ar per jį?
No
Ar per savo patirtį matėte kokių nors būtybių?
No
Ar susidūrėte arba tapote sąmoningi bet kokių mirusių (ar gyvų) būtybių?
No
Ar matėte arba jautėtės apsuptas ryškios šviesos?
An unusually bright light
Ar matėte nežemišką šviesą?
Yes, Already described. It's white and alive. It's Source. It's home, love, all of us collectively. It's what we are at our core. You can feel it inside you, in your core at the center of your chest. It's what powers our bodies and what you feel every time you feel love. It's what Christians refer to as the holy spirit, but it's in all of us, because we are all Source. To give you additional info for the next question, I felt embraced and surrounded by love. Source took me in and encompassed me in love and peace. It's completely natural from the perspective of what we truly are.
Ar atrodė, kad patekote į kitą, nežemišką pasaulį?
No
Kokius jausmus jautėte patirties metu?
During experience one, it was all love, peace, bliss, joy, and giddiness. Source is giddy often. Every time I touch Source (it happened a third time I haven't talked about, too), a giddiness accompanies it. It bubbles up within me. It's truly wonderful. During today's experience, a giddiness and excitement accompanied the download. We're thrilled because we're nearing the end of this iteration. The awakening has begun, and that's exciting. It's the most exciting part of the game.
Ar jautėtės ramybėje ar malonume?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Ar jautėtės džiaugsme?
Incredible Joy
Ar jautėte harmonijos ar vienybės jausmą su visata?
No
Ar staiga atrodė, kad suprantate viską?
Everything about the universe, I feel I've mostly covered this, though I know there's still a lot I haven't told you. For instance, all the evidence of past civilizations. That is that's because we've done this before. We do it over and over again. Only we don't change the map. There's no reason to. We just start over in different places, so the history of the previous iterations gets lost and/or forgotten. We split the continents so we could start over in different areas. In this current iteration, based on what my human brain thinks we know scientifically, I do believe we began in Africa. Although that bit wasn't part of the download I got. And I don't think we're starting over from scratch anymore. We don't need to start from two. We've already done the early levels and mastered them. So I think we start with more "people" in the game name. I think we wipe out the majority of an iteration via a flood, for instance, and then begin again with small pockets of humans surviving and going on from there. So it's like restarting the game, only not from moment one. Note that I'm saying *I think* in this section, because Source didn't give me everything. It (it's genderless) gave me enough to put yet more pieces of the puzzle together. It knows (because it's me, and I am it) that I'm enjoying the game. I'm enjoying the puzzle, so it's allowing me the thrill of piecing things together. It's like reading a mystery novel, and searching for clues, trying to figure it out. Today was the "ding, ding, ding, you've got this much figured out. Here's your confirmation." message.
Ar jums sugrįžo scenos iš praeities?
Past, present, future? I don't know. Again, there's no time there. But I either have, am currently, or will merge with Source in the future.
Ar jums atėjo ateities scenos?
No
Ar atėjote prie ribos ar taško, iš kurio negalima grįžti?
No
Dievas, Dvasia ir Religija
Kokia buvo jūsų religija prieš patirtį?
Other or several faiths, Raised Catholic. Never truly believed. Left the church immediately after my confirmation, as soon as my parents would allow. Spent years logically thinking there must be a higher power, but very opposed to organized religion. Shifted to agnostic, then self-identified as an atheist for about a decade. Then came the journey, which began in 2020. Saw so much evil in the world, thought the reverse must exist. Went on a quest. Demanded truth from whatever source might provide it. Studied the history of the religions of the world. Explored Christianity thoroughly. Privately accepted Jesus, but it didn't feel right. Continued searching. Encountered an NDE testimonial. Initially, I knew little about NDEs beyond their existence. Found them intriguing enough to listen to more. Noticed patterns and wondered if these elements were common to all NDEs. By the time of my experience, I'd listened to and informally analyzed maybe 150 NDE testimonials. Came to believe in a creator based on evidence, not faith, which suited me better. Also concluded that Christianity couldn't be exclusively true, since atheists and agnostics kept meeting 'God' in these experiences.
Ar jūsų religingi papročiai pasikeitė po patirties?
Yes, Yes, I know Source is real. I know there's no death. I work on meditation, though not consistently. I've done things like listen to music at 440 Hz, I believe, to try to help with healing and becoming closer to my higher self or Source. I also had some trouble not wishing for death for a while. I'm happy with my life though. It's just so good with Source. It's difficult not to want that.
Kokia yra jūsų religija dabar?
Christian- Catholic, Covered everything above.
Ar jūsų patirtis turėjo bruožų, atitinkančių jūsų žemiškas tikėjimo sistemas?
Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience, I'm going with option one for this, though I didn't have the understanding of Source that I do now prior. Not even close, actually. But by the time I had the initial awakening, I'd listened to enough NDEs to intellectually know that there was no death and that there was a god. Now, I have about a thousand times more understanding of what all that means, and it's no longer coming from a place of intellect or logic. It's a knowing. And I've already told you that the download I got today was mostly a confirmation of what I'd figured out on my own. I just wasn't sure what I thought was accurate. But just yesterday, I had the thought that we might be in a collective consciousness awakening, so I asked Source, "Are we in an awakening? Is that what's happening right now?" I've also been saying it's something like a simulation for a little while now. Then today, I got that download.
Ar jūsų vertybės ir įsitikinimai pasikeitė dėl patirties?
Yes, I do believe I've covered my beliefs about Source and death sufficiently already.
Ar atrodė, kad sutikote mistinę būtybę ar buvimą, arba girdėjote neidentifikuojamą balsą?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin, Already described in detail.
Ar sutikote ar sužinojote apie bet kokias būtybes, kurios anksčiau gyveno žemėje ir yra apibūdinamos vardais iš religijų (pavyzdžiui: Jėzus, Muhammadas, Buda ir kt.?)
No
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie visuotinius ryšius ar vienybę?
Yes, Yes. We are all connected. Already covered this, so much so that I'm sounding like a broken record.
Dėl mūsų žemiškų gyvenimų, išskyrus religiją
Patirties metu ar gavote specialių žinių ar informacijos apie savo tikslą?
Yes, Already covered the special knowledge. The purpose is the goal—figuring out what we are, that we're all connected, and love is the answer. I didn't get a specific purpose for myself.
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie gyvenimo prasmę?
Yes, Yes, in today's experience, and I've covered this in detail already, too. Note that where I've made definitive statements, those are knowing statements. Where I've used "I think" or "I feel," these are things I think I know, theories I have, just like the theories I had that I got confirmation on today. But they're not theories I've received confirmation on yet. They're newer and now being formulated based on what I got from Source today, in combination with all the research I've done and knowledge I've acquired from many scientists.
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie gyvenimą po mirties?
Yes, I've already covered this. It was a knowing that I merged with Source, a knowing that Source is love and we are it, and a knowing that there is no such thing as death. Also, I knew there was no time there.
Ar sužinojote informacijos, kaip gyventi savo gyvenimus?
Yes, Probably. I managed to talk to my husband for three hours about this, so I must not be covering everything here, but this is long, and I'm getting tired.
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie gyvenimo sunkumus, iššūkius ir nepriteklius?
Yes, Yes. It's all part of the game. We come here to experience and to learn. Part of the learning is facing and overcoming challenges. It's also causing challenges for each other, because we're all learning together. It's a very complex system. If you think about it from a computer standpoint, its complexity is almost unfathomable. The best part though? We created it for ourselves.
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie meilę?
Yes, Source is love. We are Source. We are love at our core.
Kokie gyvenimo pokyčiai įvyko po jūsų patirties?
Note that on the above, I need to make one significant change. For the first four questions, the column on the left can remain in the "I believed" state. The column on the right, however, needs to change to "I know." To answer the question above in full detail would require going into more experiences than the two I've outlined here. But I'm far calmer, less fearful, more compassionate, more understanding, less stressed (almost never stressed at all, and I used to be a complete stress case), have zero fear of death, and have excitement about the collective consciousness awakening to come. My entire outlook on death, in particular, has changed significantly. I even have a hard time with the notion of death as a punishment for wrongdoing now, because it's far more of a reward than punishment. I also don't feel sad about people dying anymore. I know they're all good where they are, far more blissful than here. I also have zero need to remember anything anymore, because everything is stored. Any question I have, any memory I want to access, I'll be able to have answered and access after this life. So there's no need to try to remember things now. There's no need to live in the past or worry about the future. The present is all that matters. It's all there is, really. We're meant to live in the moment, because we're ever changing. Today, you are not the same person you were twenty years ago. And that's what we do. We change. We evolve. That's all part of it. We grow into love. It's how Source grows and expands, how we grow and expand. It may be worth noting that I was not even a little bit spiritual or woo before this. In fact, I was anti-woo, so anti-woo that I would have even laughed at the idea of meditation, and I wouldn't have believed a single word that's come out of my mouth in this testimonial, either.
Ar jūsų santykiai pasikeitė būtent dėl jūsų patirties?
Yes, Improved significantly, though not perfect. I, like all of us, am a work in progress.
Po NDE:
Ar patirtį buvo sunku išreikšti žodžiais?
Yes, Obviously. All the boxes really. I'm always using words that don't truly fit, and as a writer that drives me nuts. But a lot of this is really difficult to describe in understandable terms. Yet, when you're connected with Source, it all makes sense.
Kaip tiksliai prisimenate patirtį, palyginti su kitais gyvenimo įvykiais, įvykusiais aplink patirties laiką?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience, I don't remember what I did five minutes ago. These experiences, I remember. Though I do question them. Like, "Did that really happen?" I sometimes doubt, I think because the human mind wants to reject it. I also don't completely trust my ability yet. I hesitate in using that word, because I don't know what to call this, but multiple things have happened to me over the past few years, not just these two experiences. But I'm still a fledgling. I still don't know how to wield this ability, for lack of a better term. I've got a vague idea, like knowing it doesn't work when you're actively trying. But I can't just go and grab one of these downloads whenever I want or anything like that, at least not at this point. Though I think it's possible to do that. I just haven't gotten there yet.
Ar po patirties turite kokių nors psichinių, neįprastų ar kitų ypatingų dovanų, kurių neturėjote prieš patirtį?
Yes, I'd say I have something going on. I don't know what it is, and I don't fully understand it. But I'm actively working on being more open to my higher self/Source, and things have happened, even beyond what I've mentioned here, both large and small.
Ar yra viena ar kelios jūsų patirties dalys, kurios yra ypač reikšmingos ar svarbios jums?
All of it.
Ar kada nors dalinotės šia patirtimi su kitais?
Yes
Ar turėjote kokių nors žinių apie artimos mirties patirtį (NDE) prieš savo patirtį?
Yes, I listened to well over 100 NDEs by the time I had my experience, and I'd heard several other experiencers talking about Source. But this one woman's experience triggered this thing in me.
Ką manėte apie savo patirties realybę netrukus (dienomis ar savaitėmis) po to, kai tai įvyko?
Experience was definitely real, Definitely real. I felt the love. Big time. It was definitely real, but in my case it was more like a memory.
Ką jūs manote apie savo patirties realybę dabar?
Experience was definitely real, Same as above.
Ar kada nors gyvenime kas nors atkartojo bet kurią patirties dalį?
Yes, I've experienced Source three times now. The two experiences I told you about and one other. We'll see if you believe the first two before I spend another hour covering the third. There have been other experiences as well, including multiple healings.
Ar norėtumėte dar ką nors pridėti apie savo patirtį?
If you contact me, I'll answer whatever you ask to the best of my ability.
Ar pateikti klausimai ir jūsų suteikta informacija tiksliai ir išsamiai apibūdina jūsų patirtį?
Yes