Patirties aprašymas
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Fono informacija
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
NDE elementai
Jūsų patirties metu ar buvo susijęs gyvybei pavojingas įvykis?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Kaip vertinate savo patirties turinį?
Entirely pleasant
Patirtis apėmė
Out of body experience
Ar jautėtės atskirtas nuo savo kūno?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Kaip jūsų aukščiausias sąmoningumo ir budrumo lygis patirties metu palyginamas su jūsų įprastu kasdieniu sąmoningumu ir budrumu?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Kuriuo metu patirties metu buvote pasiekęs aukščiausią sąmoningumo ir budrumo lygį?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Ar jūsų mintys buvo pagreitintos?
Faster than usual
Ar atrodė, kad laikas greitėja ar lėtėja?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Ar jūsų pojūčiai buvo ryškesni nei įprasta?
Incredibly more vivid
Palyginkite savo regėjimą patirties metu su kasdieniu regėjimu, kurį turėjote iš karto prieš patirtį
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Palyginkite savo klausą patirties metu su kasdieniu garsu, kurį turėjote iš karto prieš patirtį
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Ar jums atrodė, kad suvokiate dalykus, vykstančius kitur?
No
Patirtis apėmė
Tunnel
Ar jūs praėjote į tunelį ar per jį?
Yes The hallway
Patirtis apėmė
Presence of deceased persons
Ar per savo patirtį matėte kokių nors būtybių?
I actually saw them
Ar susidūrėte arba tapote sąmoningi bet kokių mirusių (ar gyvų) būtybių?
Yes No relatives
Patirtis apėmė
Unearthly light
Ar matėte arba jautėtės apsuptas ryškios šviesos?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Ar matėte nežemišką šviesą?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Patirtis apėmė
A landscape or city
Ar atrodė, kad patekote į kitą, nežemišką pasaulį?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Patirtis apėmė
Strong emotional tone
Kokius kitus jausmus jautėte patirties metu?
Elated
Ar jautėtės ramybėje ar malonume?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Ar jautėtės džiaugsme?
incredible joy
Ar jautėte harmonijos ar vienybės jausmą su visata?
I felt united or one with the world
Patirtis apėmė
Special knowledge or purpose
Ar staiga atrodė, kad suprantate viską?
No
Ar jums sugrįžo scenos iš praeities?
No
Patirtis apėmė
Awareness of the future
Ar jums atėjo ateities scenos?
Scenes from my personal future
Patirtis apėmė
Boundary
Ar pasiekėte ribą arba apribojančią fizinę struktūrą?
Yes
Ar atėjote prie ribos ar taško, iš kurio negalima grįžti?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Dievas, Dvasia ir Religija
Kokią svarbą teikėte savo religiniam/dvasingam gyvenimui prieš savo patirtį
Greatly important to me
Kokia buvo jūsų religija prieš patirtį?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Ar jūsų religingi papročiai pasikeitė po patirties?
Yes They are more grounded.
Kokią svarbą teikiate savo religiniam/dvasingam gyvenimui po savo patirties
Greatly important to me
Kokia yra jūsų religija dabar?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Ar jūsų patirtis turėjo bruožų, atitinkančių jūsų žemiškas tikėjimo sistemas?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Ar jūsų vertybės ir įsitikinimai pasikeitė dėl patirties?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Patirtis apėmė
Presence of unearthly beings
Ar atrodė, kad sutikote mistinę būtybę ar buvimą, arba girdėjote neidentifikuojamą balsą?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Ar matėte mirusiųjų ar religinės dvasios?
I actually saw them
Ar sutikote ar sužinojote apie bet kokias būtybes, kurios anksčiau gyveno žemėje ir yra apibūdinamos vardais iš religijų (pavyzdžiui: Jėzus, Muhammadas, Buda ir kt.?)
No
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie Dievo egzistavimą?
No
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie visuotinius ryšius ar vienybę?
Yes
Ar tikėjote Dievo egzistencija prieš savo patirtį?
God definitely exists
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie Dievo egzistavimą?
Yes the love was in everything.
Ar tikite Dievo egzistencija po savo patirties?
God definitely exists
Dėl mūsų žemiškų gyvenimų, išskyrus religiją
Patirties metu ar gavote specialių žinių ar informacijos apie savo tikslą?
Yes
Ar tikėjote, kad mūsų žemiški gyvenimai yra prasmingi ir reikšmingi prieš jūsų patirtį
Are meaningful and significant
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie gyvenimo prasmę?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Ar tikėjote gyvenimu po mirties prieš savo patirtį?
An afterlife definitely exists
Ar tikite gyvenimu po mirties po savo patirties?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Ar bijojote mirties prieš savo patirtį?
I moderately feared death
Ar bijote mirties po savo patirties
I do not fear death
Ar bijojote gyventi savo gyvenimą prieš savo patirtį
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Ar bijojote gyventi savo gyvenimą po savo patirties
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Ar tikėjote, kad mūsų žemiški gyvenimai yra prasmingi ir reikšmingi prieš jūsų patirtį
Are meaningful and significant
Ar tikėjote, kad mūsų žemiški gyvenimai yra prasmingi ir reikšmingi po jūsų patirties
Are meaningful and significant
Ar sužinojote informacijos, kaip gyventi savo gyvenimus?
No
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie gyvenimo sunkumus, iššūkius ir nepriteklius?
No
Ar buvote užjaučiantis prieš savo patirtį
Moderately compassionate toward others
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie meilę?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Ar buvote užjaučiantis po savo patirties
Greatly compassionate toward others
Kokie gyvenimo pokyčiai įvyko po jūsų patirties?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Ar jūsų santykiai pasikeitė būtent dėl jūsų patirties?
No No
Po NDE
Ar patirtį buvo sunku išreikšti žodžiais?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Kaip tiksliai prisimenate patirtį, palyginti su kitais gyvenimo įvykiais, įvykusiais aplink patirties laiką?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Ar po patirties turite kokių nors psichinių, neįprastų ar kitų ypatingų dovanų, kurių neturėjote prieš patirtį?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Ar yra viena ar kelios jūsų patirties dalys, kurios jums yra ypač reikšmingos ar svarbios? Prašome paaiškinti.
The love
Ar kada nors dalinotės šia patirtimi su kitais?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Ar turėjote kokių nors žinių apie artimos mirties patirtį (NDE) prieš savo patirtį?
No
Ką manėte apie savo patirties realybę netrukus (dienomis ar savaitėmis) po to, kai tai įvyko?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Ką jūs manote apie savo patirties realybę dabar?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Ar kada nors gyvenime kas nors atkartojo bet kurią patirties dalį?
No
Ar norėtumėte dar ką nors pridėti apie savo patirtį?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.