Patirties aprašymas
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Fono informacija
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
NDE elementai
Jūsų patirties metu ar buvo susijęs gyvybei pavojingas įvykis?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Kaip vertinate savo patirties turinį?
Entirely distressing
Ar jautėtės atskirtas nuo savo kūno?
No
No
Kaip jūsų aukščiausias sąmoningumo ir budrumo lygis patirties metu palyginamas su jūsų įprastu kasdieniu sąmoningumu ir budrumu?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
Kuriuo metu patirties metu buvote pasiekęs aukščiausią sąmoningumo ir budrumo lygį?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Ar jūsų mintys buvo pagreitintos?
Incredibly fast
Ar atrodė, kad laikas greitėja ar lėtėja?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Ar jūsų pojūčiai buvo ryškesni nei įprasta?
Incredibly more vivid
Palyginkite savo regėjimą patirties metu su kasdieniu regėjimu, kurį turėjote iš karto prieš patirtį
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Palyginkite savo klausą patirties metu su kasdieniu garsu, kurį turėjote iš karto prieš patirtį
I don't know.
Ar jums atrodė, kad suvokiate dalykus, vykstančius kitur?
No
Ar jūs praėjote į tunelį ar per jį?
No
Ar per savo patirtį matėte kokių nors būtybių?
No
Ar susidūrėte arba tapote sąmoningi bet kokių mirusių (ar gyvų) būtybių?
No
Ar matėte arba jautėtės apsuptas ryškios šviesos?
No
Ar matėte nežemišką šviesą?
No
Ar atrodė, kad patekote į kitą, nežemišką pasaulį?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Kokius kitus jausmus jautėte patirties metu?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Ar jautėtės ramybėje ar malonume?
No
Ar jautėtės džiaugsme?
No
Ar jautėte harmonijos ar vienybės jausmą su visata?
No
Ar staiga atrodė, kad suprantate viską?
No
Ar jums sugrįžo scenos iš praeities?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Ar jums atėjo ateities scenos?
No
Ar atėjote prie ribos ar taško, iš kurio negalima grįžti?
No
Dievas, Dvasia ir Religija
Kokia buvo jūsų religija prieš patirtį?
Christian- Catholic
Ar jūsų religingi papročiai pasikeitė po patirties?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Kokia yra jūsų religija dabar?
Buddhist
Ar jūsų patirtis turėjo bruožų, atitinkančių jūsų žemiškas tikėjimo sistemas?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Ar jūsų vertybės ir įsitikinimai pasikeitė dėl patirties?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Ar atrodė, kad sutikote mistinę būtybę ar buvimą, arba girdėjote neidentifikuojamą balsą?
No
Ar matėte mirusiųjų ar religinės dvasios?
No
Ar sutikote ar sužinojote apie bet kokias būtybes, kurios anksčiau gyveno žemėje ir yra apibūdinamos vardais iš religijų (pavyzdžiui: Jėzus, Muhammadas, Buda ir kt.?)
No
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie Dievo egzistavimą?
No
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie visuotinius ryšius ar vienybę?
No
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie Dievo egzistavimą?
No
Dėl mūsų žemiškų gyvenimų, išskyrus religiją
Patirties metu ar gavote specialių žinių ar informacijos apie savo tikslą?
No
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie gyvenimo prasmę?
No
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie gyvenimą po mirties?
No
Ar sužinojote informacijos, kaip gyventi savo gyvenimus?
No
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie gyvenimo sunkumus, iššūkius ir nepriteklius?
No
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie meilę?
No
Kokie gyvenimo pokyčiai įvyko po jūsų patirties?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Po NDE
Ar patirtį buvo sunku išreikšti žodžiais?
No
Kaip tiksliai prisimenate patirtį, palyginti su kitais gyvenimo įvykiais, įvykusiais aplink patirties laiką?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Ar po patirties turite kokių nors psichinių, neįprastų ar kitų ypatingų dovanų, kurių neturėjote prieš patirtį?
No
Ar yra viena ar kelios jūsų patirties dalys, kurios jums yra ypač reikšmingos ar svarbios? Prašome paaiškinti.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Ar kada nors dalinotės šia patirtimi su kitais?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Ar turėjote kokių nors žinių apie artimos mirties patirtį (NDE) prieš savo patirtį?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Ką manėte apie savo patirties realybę netrukus (dienomis ar savaitėmis) po to, kai tai įvyko?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Ką jūs manote apie savo patirties realybę dabar?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Ar kada nors gyvenime kas nors atkartojo bet kurią patirties dalį?
No
Ar norėtumėte dar ką nors pridėti apie savo patirtį?
No